I hope all is well w/all of you. Last night was our Italian cultural club meeting & potluck. For the first time since I've been sober, I hardly noticed folks drinking. There's always a wine table w/a selection of Italian wines. Usually I'm very aware of people going up to the table & getting their small glasses of wine. It felt good to be free of the obsession. That said: I'm glad I don't go to those types of affairs frequently (i.e. where alcohol is self-serve). We don't have any in the house, & most of our socializing has been AF. We are going to dinner w/old friends next Sun., but I'll be prepared & have been around these particular people wo/drinking myself. In fact, there's another non-drinker in the group, & my husb usually doesn't have anything or very, very little. Being around normal drinkers is a reminder to me that I just cannot drink. There's no way I could drink the way normal drinkers drink...there doesn't seem to be any point.
Generally, I've been feeling very grateful...especially for my sobriety. I hope that feeling of having escaped from the gates of hell & entered a new life never leaves me. I haven't struggled w/cravings at all. I know it could happen at any time, but I'm finding that the more actively involved I am in AA, the less I want to drink.
All of you here at this thread are very important to me & my sobriety. If I can't get to the computer for some reason, I find myself really looking forward to the few free minutes when I can.
Thank you all for being here.
Mary
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