POST: From 9/15/06
Thanks for your support for my feelings about my daughter quitting color guard. It's really okay at this point. I sort of knew since school began that she probably SHOULD quit!
The big blow for me was actually back in the summer, when she quit the Reading Buccaneers, an independent drum and bugle corps that marches during the summer season. I was reeling and depressed when she quit then, but I didn't let her know, because she was paying for it with her own EARNED $$$. She lost $300 by quitting, and it was her decision. I didn't think it was right to influence her with my feelings. The truth is, I was such a dysfunctional teenager who grew up in a dysfunctional family, and I have gotten so much out of raising this girl who is pretty NORMAL--bright and active and lovely. She has been a gift to me. I have vicariously known what it is like to have a somewhat normal teenage life because of her.
As much as she loves guard, she is realizing that it has NOTHING to do with her future. She is facing another round of SAT's, ACT's and SAT subject tests (in French and Calculus). Then college applications! We have some money for college, but for the rest, we will have to depend on scholarships and grants and student loans. Color guard doesn't get you scholarships or grants, even though it is a lot of fun.
At any rate, her band director wasn't too happy with her today. I got a call from my daughter from the guidance office, and she was in tears. Her band director was pretty hard on her, and somewhat manipulative too. But she stook up for herself and told her that college and her future was more important than band.
OKAY--MINI RANT--FOR THE LAST YEAR AND A HALF THEY HAVE BEEN HOLDING OUT BEING CAPTAIN (of Color Guard) OR HAVING A SOLO IN FRONT OF MY DAUGHTER LIKE A PLUM. SHE HAS BEEN A SOLID MEMBER OF THE WEAPON LINE FOR ALL THIS TIME. ALWAYS DANGLING THIS PLUM IN FRONT OF HER..... BUT THEY NEVER CAME THROUGH FOR HER WITH THIS RECOGNITION. NOW THEY ARE GUILT-TRIPPING HER FOR TAKING CARE OF HERSELF!!!!!:durn: :durn: She's not quitting because of anger about this, but let's say that it hasn't gone unnoticed either..... ALSO, THEY ARE DAMN LUCKY THAT I AM NOT POOPING OUT ON BEING CHAIR OF THE SEWING COMMITTEE EVEN THOUGH SHE IS NO LONGER A MEMBER OF THE BAND!!!! I think it would be cool if they count their blessings. C'est vrai??? OKAY END OF RANT. br />
Thanks for listening.
By the way, I WILL be holding her ROYAL HEINIE'S feet to the fire. If she needs more time to study, study she will!!!:H SAT study guide, here she comes!!! LOL!
Thank you so much for listening!!! It's been a long day! On the plus side, I just got the 4" thick memoryfoam mattress topper. What bliss!!! Beats the sh*t out of the goosedown thing I had!!! No aches or pains whatsoever.
I REALLY APPRECIATE YOUR TOLERANCE OF MY RANT AND ANGST!!!
Lots of love,
Kathy
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