AF-Monday, 9th November

[Leelou]

Oh the weary head I hold. Oh the sad face I wear. Oh the blame that is only mine; oh the black beast won!
I've spent half of my Monday feeling bitterly disappointed in myself! Yesterday I messed up and drank myself stupid in the afternoon, after what was a very healthy, productive weekend. I just put my goals and determination in a closet out of site, and it's as if the voices were waiting for me to be on my own. Or did I lock the closet because I thought I had been doing so well that I deserved a reward! Stupid stupid!
So what now? I can't waste energy on regret, I can't turn back time, I can only re-focus; I can re-set my goals.
So today is back to day 1 for me!
Hope your Monday didn't start like mine! The rest of today will be AF for me, and I will make it my top priority to keep it that way!

[Starlet]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Hi LeeLou I am on day 1 today too gonna start 30 days AF which will take me to the 8 Dec. I can only say that your attitude is the right one today is a new day with a new end to it that you can control! Have a fantstic sober day today and look forward to tomorrow :h

[hdb]

AF-Monday, 9th November

LeeLou and Starlet I wish you lots of strength today - LeeLou, your post is absolutely the best way to look at it... we are all on a long long learning curve. Onwards and upwards, good luck hdb

[Doggygirl]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Good morning Ab-Landers!

Leelou, the addicted voices in our heads are trouble indeed. For me, that voice still hasn't gone away 100%. It gets less frequent and less intense with time, but the fact for me is that I ALWAYS have to be ready for that voice to give me a lovely image of having "a" (:H) drink, or a word that I "deserve" (:H) a drink, etc. I think part of the learning curve to sobriety is figuring out our "voices" and having good strategies to deal with them. I can only speak for myself, but it would be folly for me to EVER think "I will get AF when the voices stop...." because realistically, I think to some degree my addicted inner voice will always be there. I have just had to learn how not to give in to it, that's all.

Starlet, welcome to AF Daily and congratulations on Day 1!! I look forward to getting to know you better on this journey.

Good to see you hdb and see that your AF time is rackin' up. That's wonderful!

I've been battling a cold for awhile now. I think my near "all nighters" watching skating late last week did me in and now I have a full blown cold. Mr. Doggy is covering my usual Monday leads group meeting today which is nice of him. Back in our using days, he would not have been willing to get up this early and I would have been an uber drama bitch about it somehow. We created lots of drama over everything and lots of blame towards each other for anything wrong in our lives, and it justified lots of drinking (me) and him doing his thing. Life is a zillion million times better now! Well worth the effort to get the addictive substances out of the picture.

Leelou, just learn all you can from this experience and onward we go.

DG

[greeneyes]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Morning abbers!!

leelou, good on ya for leaving the negative behind. It's useless. It was a learning experience. Don't loose your momentum, keep right on going!

Hello to starlet (welcome!), hdb and DG and all to come!

Checking into a diff. career today; something long overdue.

Be well and have a good one!

[Lavande]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Morning Abbers!

Nursing some sort of viral attack myself.......sore throat, dry cough, slight fever.........lovely! My plan today is to ingest huge amounts of decaf green tea & do as little work as possible........

Leelou, sounds like you learned a hard lesson. Remember how lousy you felt today so it doesn't happen again.........move forward

Starlet, welcome, best wishes to you on your journey!

hdb, congrats on your progress! You have close to 6 AF weeks now? You must be lovin it

DG, I think we may be battling the same viral thing...........grr!

Greenie, can't wait to hear about your new career path - that's exciting

Wishing everyone a great AF Monday & good health to those of us sporting sore throats!!!
Lav

[KateH1]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Leelou, yep, jus start fresh today....learn from the experience, but push on forward!

Starlet and hdb...best wishes on your first days of AF life! With a "No Excuses", attitude and a Solid Plan....the AF life is within your reach!!

Morning.....DG....hope you get to feeling better. Geeze, all nighters, training for the Olympics is tough stuff!

Greenie...new career! Sounds exciting! You can do anything you put your mind to....you have proven that many times over! Good Luck!!.....not that you need it!

Lavende....hope you feel better soon....give yourself plenty of TLC:l

As for me.....I had a really nice weekend. Busy week ahead....I am also starting a new project, writing a book! For a long time, it has been suggested that I do this. I have strong expertise in one segment of the business that I am in. So, sober and feeling way more confident....I am going to begin. I will look forward to publishing towards the end of 2010!

Carpe Diem, ALL!!
xx Kate

[peacenik]

AF-Monday, 9th November

morning...
feels to good to be sober, hangover free and ready for the day!

i am looking for online classes today...i want to get an associate's degree in something...don't know what, but why the hell not?!

kate...coolness! writing a book sounds so daunting, but rewarding! i write poetry because my attention span is so short, it's about all i can handle! sounds like you are grounded, and if you are an expert, it's awesome that you are sharing your knowledge.

dg and lav, i hope you get to feeling better! green teas sounds like a good remedy...and don't forget raw garlic!

greenie...sounds like we are in need of change...i hear ya sister.

hbd and starlet...nice work...this is a good place for support, but no coddling!

leelou...unfortunately, i totally understand how you are feeling...we are the masters of our fates and the captains of our souls!

peace out!

[LVT25]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Good morning friends!

A quick check in to send some healing light and energy to those suffering from flu and cold symptoms!!! Lots of rest and liquids are in order!

LeeLou--good for you for coming here and being honest. I truly think that is key to sobriety honesty within ourselves. Just never give up.

Great to see some new names here!

Anxious also Greenie to hear what career you decide to pursue, and Kate, I would like to get my name in for an autographed copy of your book when it comes out. I collect books. Hardly ever read them, but I collect them. :H

Started my day with issues with my sons. They broke the frame on the antique bed that was my parent's and lied to me about it. It's not so much the damage (although they had been warned many times it wasn't built for rough housing) the cover-up bothers me.

Anyways, I'm committed to eating better, exercising more and being way over-productive this week!!! I'm off to a decent start today! Love being unhung!!:h:h:h

[Determinator]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Happy unhung Monday ABerooooos!

I'm so happy to be home again (for a day or two anyhow). slept like a rock with my schweetie last night

LeeLou sobriety is not something i got in my first or 2nd or 8th try....so keep slugging!

I'm off to post some doggy pictures from the K9 trials on Sat. check them out!

be well

[Determinator]

AF-Monday, 9th November

[Doggygirl]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Hello again Ablanders!

Greenie, is this the sign language possibility that has been speaking to you? Can't wait to hear how things turn out!

Lav, I'm sorry you are also dealing with a bug. I'm still up for the moment but am hoping to head to bed soon and STAY THERE until morning. I hope you are getting some rest!

Kate, can I ask what the topic of your book will be? It all sounds very exciting!! It's great to see people getting sober and then truly moving forward in their lives. I just get so mad when I think of how much of my own life I handed over to AL. For what??

Peace, I'll be interested to hear what strikes your fancy in the on-line class department. I keep thinking I'm ready for __________. I just don't know what goes in the blank yet!

LVT, I hope you get to the bottom of things with your sons. The cover up probably IS the worst part of it. I hope they learn from this experience! (what a crapola way to start out the week!!)

Welcome home Deter! You were at a police K-9 event, right? LOL I recognize the bite pants and hidden sleeve from the training that Mr. Doggy does. Well, they don't use hidden sleeves for Schutzhund but lots of people who train for Schutzhund also train for K-9 work or Mondio ring or French ring - some of those involve the hidden stuff. Is that a Malinois in the photo? The head doesn't really look quite like it, but I suspect that's just the angle. Those dogs are really amazing as they are so agile and fast compared to most of the German Shepherds.

Please don't anyone be scared off by pictures of dogs doing protection work. A properly trained K-9 or sport dog along with it's properly trained handler is NOT going to randomly attack anything.

Deter I'd love to see more of your pictures. Mr. Doggy is trialing this coming weekend with his older dog for Schutzhund I. I hope they pass. They are ready with all the exercises in practices, but who knows on trial day - I know Mr. D will be very nervous.

Here is a piccy of Cooper the Pooper's (our new puppy) Daddy doing protection work StateLine Schutzhund Club and Working Dog Association. And Cooper's maternal grand daddy Fero, owned and trained by Dave Blank. Fero has a very unusual guard (when he is "holding" the bad guy / helper in the blind/wooden structure). He jumps up really high. Technically it is still correct although some judges don't love it. It sure is a crowd pleaser though!

The dog in the piccy you posted has a rather shallow grip...

So Deter. Are you going to get a puppy for some protection sport work???? I think you should!! Wonder if there are any Schutzhund clubs or ring sport clubs near you?????

DG

DG

[Determinatrix]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Doggygirl;753828 wrote:
So Deter. Are you going to get a puppy for some protection sport work???? I think you should!! Wonder if there are any Schutzhund clubs or ring sport clubs near you?????
DG

Ahem. I can hear you over here.

[Doggygirl]

AF-Monday, 9th November

Determinatrix;753983 wrote: Ahem. I can hear you over here.

:H:H Maybe I'll be really helpful and do some club and puppy shopping for you guys today..... :H