lived by myself. My youngest will be with me, but no adults.
I have to admit, and this site is the best place to do it, that I have a small but growing battle inside my head. As the time gets closer to the big move
I fear it will get out of control.
My fear is that once I am by myself, with no one watching me, the stupid part of my brain will overpower my will to stay sober.
I need to talk this through BEFORE the time comes.
I`m thinking that I need to contact AA now. MWO and you all have been a huge factor in building up my resolve for sobriety. The supplements,
the walks and talking with friends all help. Because I am closing down my 6th AF week and heading tomorrow into my 7th, many of my friends think
I did not have a problem after all. Of course I was a daily (almost) drink at home and get plastered drinker..they did not see 90 % of what was going
on in my life or head. They still have no idea how dark the mornings were, the quiet promises I`d make to myself each and every morning after to not
drink. Promises I never kept. :upset:
The place I am hoping to get in a 2 minute walk from a Beer Store. Beer was my weakness. Once I realised this place was so close, I found a route to take
in and out of the neighbourhood so as not to pass it a few times a day.
This is driving me nuts.
DLA :h:l:h
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