Cold here! The forecast is possible snow next week/this week, depending on whether your week starts on a Sunday or Monday.
Teeny, tiny vent warning:
Some of you might have seen a thread I started a couple of months ago about the problem of having my parents (who drink a lot) coming to visit me and having to buy booze for them and have it in my home etc.
The time has come! But one big difference is that they changed their plans and instead of them coming to stay with me, they wanted me to go and stay with them, and they might come here in January instead. So I have a bit of a reprieve but still have a boozy week of family get-togethers ahead. I'm going tomorrow.
I'm feeling quite contemplative about it. My relationship with my parents has never been good and at times when we were all drinking things could often turn unpleasant. But now I'm not drinking I hope I can keep things on track if they start to go awry. It's difficult as there's years of history involved, but I'd like to try to keep things on a good footing.
Since I stopped drinking I've been trying to figure out *why* our relationship has been so difficult (and it's not just me - my brother and sister are in the same boat, so it's not something that I've *done* that I could make amends for I don't think. But maybe it is - I don't really know). But I've come to realise that it's fruitless to think "why?". I need to just accept that that's the way things are and try to improve things while I can (they're getting on a bit and I'd really like to have a better relationship with them before they die, to put it bluntly).
Sounds easy, but I find it difficult to not rise to the bait when the arguments start. And *acceptance* is often a challenge in any situation, I find - I usually want to *do* something to try to change things.
Sorry for the ramble but this is one of my biggie issues, always has been, and something that I've never understood and has often been a source of pain.
Vent over.
I'm off to the gym to stock up on endorphins. Have a good day everyone.
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