Mack, I'm not sure what to say.
I agree with Brigid. "It seems that when we decide to change there are these tricks or spies or sabateurs that come out to get us.. and they lurk until we feel weak and then they pounce."
You have been goin through a lot lately. Let down and disappointed about the taxi job. Fightin cravings. The stress of lookin futher for other job prospects. Financial concerns. Fightin cravings. Kid stuff, and your daughter hurting herself. Fightin cravins. One thing after anther and more cravings.
So finally you.....uugghh. And ya you do sound very sad. And for one of our mentors here....that does make the rest of us very sad to see. Wish we could do somethin Mack.
But the good news is......
YOUR DONE NOW RIGHT? Guess ya had to get that outta the way and now you can move on....right?
My goodness, this has gotten a little contagious around here.
This is sposed to be Absville ya know. Speakin as mayor I think someone needs to get a little tough around here. I guess I'll pick me. This isnt easy for me to say....but I'm gonna anyway.
Mack you know if you try to go mods your gonna slowly drift back. And its going to completely effect what happens in yours, Mrs Macks and the little darlings lives. Its one thing to have a slip up. But goin to mods would be just given yourself a hall pass to go back there where ya were a year ago. What was that sayin I saw in Tennesee? Dont give the devil a ride.....he will get in the drivers seat before you know it.
Mack is that were you wanna take you family again? And like yesterdays post....where were you a year ago? Ok...ya screwed up yesterday....but what did ya learn? Is it that you can do that each weekend? I'm soundin mean, but I am still with Brigid. She puts it good when she says, "are your strategies water tight? Or do they need review? Or do you have a strategy?
Maybe someone is gonna be mad at me. But why are we all here anyway?
Ok......no more lectures, why did we let me get started anyway. Like for a second I thought Mack was my brother or somethin.
But really it for all of us.
Theres been a lot of slippin goin on around here. And some of us who havent slipped...its like we are thinkin about it or even plannin it.
I think reviewing our strategies are something for all of us to think about. The holidays ae comin and its only gonna get tougher. What is our plan? Are we gonna be ready or are we gonna set ourselves up. And then whoops....in comes an unexpected slump. And the guys that have been lurkin around come in for the kill.
Well....heres my meditation on surviving slumps. Its kinda long. But I'm the one that hasta type it so oh well. I like this one.
Surviving Slumps
A slump can go on for days. We feel sluggish, unfocused, and sometimes overwhelmed with feelings we can't sort out. We may not understand what is going on with us. Even our attempts to practice recovery behaviors may not appear to work. We still don't feel emotionally, mentally, and spiritually as good as we would like.
In a slump, we may find ourselves reverting instinctively to old patterns of thinking, feeling and behaving, even when we know better. We may find ourselves obsessing even when we know that what we're doing is obsessing and that it doesn't work.
We may find ourselves looking frantically for other people to make us feel better, the whole time knowing our happiness and well-being does not lay with others.
We may begin taking things personally that are not our issues, and reacting in ways we've learned all too well do not work.
We're in a slump. It won't last forever. These periods are normal, even necessary. These are the days to get through. These are the days to focus on recovery behaviors, whether or not the rewards occur immediately. These are sometimes the days to let ourselves be and love ourselves as much as we can.
We don't have to be ashamed, no matter how long we've been recovering. We don't have to unreasonably expect "more" from ourselves. We don't ever have to expect ourselves to live life perfectly.
Get through the slump. It will end. Sometimes, a slump can go on for days and then, in the course of an hour, we see ourselves pullout of it and feel better. Sometimes it can last a little longer.
Practice one recovery behavior in one small area, and begin to climb up hill. Soon, the slump will disappear. We can never judge where we will be tomorrow by where we are today.
PS: and glad you and Mrs Macks made up.
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