FEB FAST ~ Week Two

[spedteach]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Post run:
For me it's fight the good fight. Getting sober was not easy. Staying sober is hard work for me. When I figured out that I couldn't turn it over to anyone or anything else, when I'd had enough of let go and let god, that's when I got sober. It doesn't feel like surrender.

Last song I heard on my run, "We are the Champions" by Queen. Delightful synchronicity.

[Chillgirl]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Guys so much food for thought here today!

Lode Im sending you buckets of hope and Im so sorry you and LBH are feeling these potholes.

Maybe Im still enjoying the "dry high" but I cant help but think maybe sometimes we expect too much from sobriety, it didnt promise we wouldnt have troubles just that our ability to deal with them would be easier...

I love the freedom that you speak of Lav and thats more the feeling i keep having. Sooty you mention gratitude and I make sure I spend time there everyday even just for a few minutes. Just this morning when I woke up, my 1st thought was "God how bad is the hangover!" then instantly I remembered I was sober and I smiled with such relief.

At AA they talk a lot about resentment and how you can go to that place of "why me?! Why couldnt I just be a normal drinker?, I can honestly say I have never once had that thought... I AM SO GRATEFUL to have reached the point I did and was able to stop.

Red - I guess I must be in the surrender catagory because for me the battle was when I was still drinking. And what a battle I fought.

Sooty - My beast is not going to have the option of life support... it was either him or me, we both couldnt continue to live. He was the cancer surviving on my oxogen and causing my organs to shut down.... the surgeon sucessfully removed him and put him in the trash.....

Dill - These boards are mylife line and the long term abstainers my inspiration too.

Sped - I hope you included in the morning after the superbowl " last year at this time... I was hungover, feeling dreadful and unhappy" instead of this year when Im AF and happy!

Sky - You are always so upbeat and when I see your name I think of the sun as well as the Sky! Thank you so much for being the 1st to reply the other day to my friends post (TWO).

I think we all deserve to share a few notes of Sped's last song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FF22cBZJsU[/video]]YouTube - Queen: We Are The Champions (With Lyrics)

[Lavande]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Dropping in to say goodnight in the midst of yet another snowstorm........
This is getting kinda boring kids!

Wishing everyone a cozy night!
Lav

[lodestar]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

It worked!

My sweet friends,

Thank you each for the words of encouragement and messages of hope. I am feeling much more positive again ~ such a relief. I'm sure it will come and go in waves, but that is life, isn't it? I think for me, Shelley, it is the good fight. I've decided to go NF finally and am looking forward to focusing on that. AF doesn't feel like an overwhelming challenge now that I have had a stretch and it has given me the confidence to escape the nicotine dependence now. I have to be done with that part of my life. I'm committing to an indefinite period of AFness and getting on with the business of living healthy all around. Stay tuned for bouts of crying & frustration! No...I'm kidding. :H I'm grateful to have a condition that I have the power to change.

I'll be back around tomorrow to catch up individually. Just wanted to say thank you tonight ~ it's really late and I'm exhausted. All love!

[dill]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Greetings!

Another day of being snowbound. Ugh! Enough already! School is cancelled for the second day in a row.

I woke up this morning thinking about all I needed to get done at work and I realized that is was wonderful to wake up with thoughts other than alcohol related thoughts. Even after all this time, I still wake up with it on my mind, even if it is only to think: "How bad do I feel?!" because that was how I woke up for sooo many years! Or, "I feel great! No hangover!" is my first thought most mornings.

So, I am grateful today for this little step forward of breaking the compulsion. Wouldn't have gotten this far without you all!

Sped: Good fight or surrender? I think I see it both ways, depending on the day! The surrender piece for me, is just finally acknowledging that I can't drink like a normal person anymore, ever. That's the piece that I still am working on. That's the biggest fight for me. That's one battle in the war, but staying away from that first drink, while I guess that gets easier with time, it is still a battle on many days.

Thanks for the song link, Chll! I enjoyed it and so did Mr. Dill, as he was present when I followed the link.

Hello Red, Soots, Lil, Lav, LBH, Lode, Star, Cyn, and all who stop in today. Peace and strength.

[choppersmom]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Good Morning All,

I thought I would pop in a give everyone a quick hello! While, I am not posting hardly at all, I have been following this thread and the ones before. The thread and all of you are an inspiration to me daily, and I thank you for that.

I am in the last 6 weeks of my schooling now. This is the reason for not posting much. I have really been concentrating on my schooling and of course my job. Both are keeping me busy.

Keep up the great work everyone. You truly are an inspiring bunch and I am so proud of all of you. I hope to be around more come the end of March when school is done for a short break.

Have a very happy and sober Wednesday. Love to you all! :l :l :l

[Lavande]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Morning friends!

Snowing like crazy!!!! Looking way too much like the North Pole around here..........

Dill, Shelley, lode & everyone - I want to assure you, the longer you go AF the less you think about AL. He (it) at some point just becomes a distant memory & will no longer be foremost in your thoughts!!!! It happens slowly but it does happen, I promise

Sooty, this is your day.....a very happy Humpday to you!

Greetings to Chill,Red, Lil, LBH, Cyn & everyone who stops in today!

OK, back to watching the snow fall!
Will be back later.

Lav

[ladybirdheart]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Just a quick check-in today, good to hear from you Chops, perhaps you can find SD and Peanut and get them to pop up on the screen as well. You will love it once you get through the smoking quit, Lode. For a pleasure seeker like me, it opened up a wide window of delicacies; fragrance and nuance in the air and food will astonish you. Love to all and enjoy a day free from the alcohol cell, Ladybird.

[sooty]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Happy humpday everyone, so sorry I'm late logging on, been absurdly busy and havent stopped yet - nothing serious just little things that need attending to - and my friend phoned about an hour ago to say she's booked me into an aerobics dance class this evening so I've decided i'll go - might as well - it'll be a laugh and its better than staying home looking for things to snack on
I'll log back on after I get back - if I can still move - and let you know how it went!
Happy Wednesday one and all, hope the snow has stopped falling
Sooty

[sooty]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Well I've been and danced and now I'm going to slob out for the rest of the night so I'm just logging in to say goodnight!
Its cold here but no snow - and I don't want any.
I hope you all have a good rest of humpday - see you all tomorrow.
Keep strong gang the bus is moving towards Africa ...we need the heat!
Sooty

[dill]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Good job on the dancing, Soots! I'm proud of you for getting out there. I have had almost no exercise for a month now, I'm ashamed to say. I will get back to walking once the snow is cleared up around here!

Lav, thanks again, for the encouraging words. Always good to hear that.

Chops, great to see you. I have thought about you often and am glad you are still with us. Good luck with your school work!

LBH, I finally got around to looking up "limerence". Nice word. I can't help but wonder how you came across it. Did you used to read dictionaries when you were young?:H You have a wonderful way with words. This reminds me though, I actually DID read dictionaries when I was a young teen! I mean, not cover-to-cover, but just would randomly pluck out words and try to use them.

I'm hoping this "humpday" is also "snow hump day" and that we can get past all this snow and the wicked windy drifts.

[Lavande]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Talking about drifts Dill - it's just plain crazy out there!
Philadelphia is reporting 14" of snow today - I think we got more but can't find a level place to measure!!

Chops - hi, I think we cross posted this morning! Good to see you!

Sooty, I don't want any more snow either - it's getting tiresome! Shoveling snow has been my exercse this past week.

LBH, greetings, hope you had a good day

Greting to all my friends here. I'm kicking off my shoes, putting my tired feet up for a while.
Wishing everyone a safe & warm AF evening.

Lav

[lodestar]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Good night, friends. I've had my first NF 24 hours in years. I think the last time I tried was in 2007. Not so bad. Using the Allan Carr approach this time. Heading to bed now though without much energy left, but just wanted to send sweet dream wishes to you all.

:groupluv:

[redhibiscus]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Good snowy morning!

Dill, I envy you two days off. I wanted to be off yesterday, we had a foot of snow, and still had to go to work!! I was in a small accident yesterday morning, someone lost control of their car and slid into me. No damage, but it still shook me up.

I am just so tired. I think it is this time of year, constant money issues, and worries. I have also not exercised for two weeks, I just don't have the energy. Right now, going to work and being AF is all I can manage.

On the bright side, we are supposed to have a little sunshine today, and that will help.
Have a great day.

[dill]

FEB FAST ~ Week Two

Greetings All!
Red, I feel for you. What are we going to do? If there isn't more to life than going to work and working to stay AF then we are doomed. We HAVE to switch our gears and get our bodies moving! It will ultimately improve our energy levels and outlook. I vow that today is the the day I WILL get at least a 20-30 minute brisk walk, even if I have to go to a Mall to do it!

Lode congrats on 24 hours! Are you going cold turkey, or trying something like chantix? My brother quit with chantix 3 years ago.

Lav, have you shovelled a place for your hens? I remember when we had hens, they hated the snow. The coop would get so nasty when they were "all cooped up" because of the weather. You get exercise shovelling snow and cleaning the coop! But those eggs are SO worth it.