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I had my usual business stuff this morning so did not get to go to my favorite AM meeting. So you all are my meeting for today! I really like the Daily Reflections reading for today:
A WORD TO DROP: "BLAME"
To see how erratic emotions victimized us often took a long time. We
could perceive them quickly in others, but only slowly in ourselves.
First of all, we had to admit that we had many of these defects, even
though such disclosures were painful and humiliating. Where other
people were concerned, we had to drop the word "blame" from our
speech and thought.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 47
When I did my Fourth Step, following the Big Book guidelines, I
noticed that my grudge list was filled with my prejudices and my
blaming others for my not being able to succeed and to live up to my
potential. I also discovered I felt different because I was black. As I
continued to work on the Step, I learned that I always had drunk to rid
myself of those feelings. It was only when I sobered up and worked on
my inventory, that I could no longer blame anyone.
What the AA program is teaching me to do is examine my OWN behavior against a new standard I am trying to live by, regardless of what anyone else does. Have I done the right thing? Do I have any amends to make? Am I compassionate towards others knowing that we all make mistakes? Am I taking responsibility for myself?
Today I will hold myself to a decent standard. I won't be perfect but I will do my best to treat others with respect and compassion no matter what they do. I can only accomplish this with my wits about me which means I won't drink today either.
Thanks to all of you for being here for me today.
DG
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