Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

[Cinders]

Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

Hi, AAers,

I just realized I have been venturing too far outside the AF group and finding myself reading things that upset me greatly.

I use Baclofen and would love to have a doctor prescribe me the dosage that is spoken of in Dr. Amiesen's book but it has suddenly become a huge AA hate monger posting and that makes me very sad.

I do know that anger is one thing that does trigger me beyond belief. I agree that anger and resentment is a luxury I cannot afford. (Daily Reflection?)

I had a great meeting about that the other day. Even if hurt and anger is justified, we cannot dwell in it. It is deadly to us. I agree. Once that heart starts pounding and the thoughts start racing, thoughts of a drink to calm them down enter my mind.

I have to stay serene.

I will stay here and on the AF Daily.

Thank you all for being here.

Love,
Cindi

ps That doesn't mean I won't still pursue the Baclofen path. I believe that drug holds great promise for many of us alcoholics. But I also believe in so much of what AA says and know that living my life by those Steps, whether I was a drunk or not, will be a wonderful way to live.

Okay. Vented to my friends.

[dancelot]

Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

Cinders -

Glad you are here! This particular thread always reminds me of where I need to be (spiritually, mentally, or sometimes just on this forum). I find sometimes it's best (for me) to stay in the serene places. And I doubt Bill W would have any problem with us using supplements, or Bac, or whatever. In the BB it says as much - that scientists, doctors, psychiatrists are not our enemy, as future research might discover new information and solutions for alcoholism (not an exact quote). And the AA way is a wonderful way to live whether it's the only solution one looks at, or another great tool. "Willing to go any lengths" to achieve sobriety. To me that includes whatever it takes. Do what works - that's what counts in my mind! :h

[Cinders]

Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

TY, Dancelot. It means much to me that I can find a safe haven. I am not "just" an alcoholic. Our brains are different.

I am glad there is much research out there for meds to help us. I am glad there is AA.

I am grateful to be with friends.

Love,
Cindi

[catch22]

Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

Hi everyone,
It good to see u here cinders and dancerlot. IT funny the other day at my counselling sessions. my counsellor had to see me on my own, anyway she ask me this question who do i see close to me, she said your in the middle and all those little circle around you. you can pick one person or as many as you want well beside my husband and son and daughter i put AA down was my next closest family to me, and my group sessions and of course mwo but i kept that one to myself in my mind you guys mean a lot to me. my next book i want to buy is daily reflections. Cinders my heart is pounding all the time , right now it racing i wish i could control it. sometimes it makes me want to go to the toilet. it like as if i heard bad news. yeap how brains are all different.
I love listenen to people talking about the steps how they have gone through it the second time and third time and each time it is different.

Im of to bed wish me luck i have ran out of nytols and im panicing.

L:hve 2u all.x

[Cinders]

Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

Catch/Teardrop,

I hope you have made it to bed and have been successful with sleep. That means so much to us.

Hang in there. You have so many times and so have I.

We can do this together.

Love,
Cindi

[retteacher]

Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

Hi Everyone: Our computer is acting up, so I haven't been able to log on the way I'd like. Cindi, I'm so glad you decided to post here. Bill W definitely would have encouraged you to try whatever might work to help you w/staying sober. I too am careful about what I read, even here at MWO. I don't want to ever think that I can drink safely. Maybe other people can moderate, but I know for sure that I cannot. If I read about alleged successful moderating, I could begin to get the stinkin thinkin that I might be able to do it too.

I went to my favorite discussion meeting last night. It's a small candlelit group (though getting bigger weekly), & we discussed the power of the individuals we encounter in the fellowship. Sometimes tears spring to my eyes, because I get so emotional about the internal change I've gone through in the past year of sobriety. I love MWO & look forward to logging on every day. However, I really needed to join a face-to-face fellowship which makes in feel accountable.

My next challenge is to start to reach out to members beyond going to meetings. On Tues. I'm having an early breakfast w/2 AA friends. I know I'll feel good about myself, & this encourages them to include me in their lives as well.

Mary

PS: No meeting tonight. Spagetti & meatballs w/the family instead.

[cpn1004]

Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

Cindy, great to see you here. I did the baclofen for a while, it seemed to help. Then I finally strung a few AF days together and made a bunch of AA meetings and started working the program.
Keep coming back and do what keeps you sober .
I'm on the road all week, will check in when I'm able.

[Winefree]

Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

Glad to read everything here. I haven't been around much in the past two weeks or so. Havin some stinkin thinkin possibly due to an upcoming anniversary. Trying to keep on track. Still attending meetings and even reading some reinforcing literature on-line. Actually googled "alcoholic thinking" and read several good things about how our minds are different and always vulnerable to temptation. The disease trying to break us.
I agree with Cinders that some threads here can be disturbing. Personally, I just ignore them and move on. Most times I just come to this thread only.

Thanks to all for sharing. You all help me more than you know.

Winefree

[Doggygirl]

Weekly AA Thread - April 12 - 18

Hi everyone! Cindi, just wanted to echo what the others have said that it's good to see you here on this thread. These days I find it sad when I read anything that "bashes" any method of getting sober. I also try to remember how I used to feel that "AA wasn't for me" before I actually went with and open mind to find out. And of course, no single program has ever proven to be "THE" solution for every alcoholic. I hope that over time everyone who frequents this forum can grow to respect that there are lots of methods out there and as long as a given method works to help even one person get sober, then it's all good.

Mary, I was very uncomfortable at first reaching out to fellow AAers beyond meetings. I'm glad I have ventured forth as I'm finding it fun and rewarding to see my AA friends socially. It is nice to have a part of my social life where I KNOW AL will not be an issue! :H

Yesterdays meeting was on the 2nd Tradition. It was good. The "group conscience" is pretty amazing. Individually we can all be pretty extreme but when we make an effort to decide something as a group, it works out pretty well. We certainly seem to be a bit saner together than we are individually!

Have a good day everyone!

DG