thu 15 april af daily

[bear73]

morning - frustrated with self - went out with old friend who used to smoke/drink lots with.
no pressure from her to do either.
I realised I try to recreate old positive feelings with the alcohol and fags - it's almost a nostalgia for when i was younger and carefree and did both of those things.
I know consciously that alcohol and nicotine don't bring those times back.
I need a plan of how to tackle this - any ideas welcome!

Feeling a bit fuzzy headed today - but determined to pick up being AF/smoke free - I'm meant to be going to see a band tonight - may rain check it in case of temptation.

On a plus note I've lost 3 pounds so far this week.
Not been running yet this week - plan to go Saturday inbetween my skating days.

Anyway beautiful day - off for a day out in the country - back to it.Fresh air and lots of water/coffee for me today.

[universal]

thu 15 april af daily

Hi Bear,

I know what you mean about old friends and that temptation. I think not going to the band tonight would be a good idea - sometimes trying to quit smoking/drinking means you have to be a recluse for a while.

Grab my hand and hop back up on this wagon.

I had a late night last night with a volleyball game and my body is a little sore and tired today. I literally had to drag my a** out of bed this morning. I don't have a busy day but I have to be in the office "the face check in" which sucks. I hate days like that. I end up so bored all day long. things crop up during the day but hell, I'm just so damn effecient I get them done! :H

Anyway, that's it for me this morning - off and running I go - will check in later.

:l Bear, have a good day.

Talk to you all later!

Zoom..............

[Lavande]

thu 15 april af daily

Good morning Ab Fabbers,

bear & Uni - hope you both have a good day!

When I finally decided to go AF last year changing my routines was a must! I changed shopping locations so I wouldn't be tempted by the wine store. I purposely stayed away from the negative people in my life - the ones that just make you want to drink to forget. All of my holiday celebrations were centered around food & family, AL was not invited. You need to be a bit creative in your thinking but in the end it was worth the effort

Wishing everyone a terrific AF Thursday! Greetings to all who check in today
Lav

[greeneyes]

thu 15 april af daily

Halloooo abbers!!

Bear, you're right. Those times are over. Some friends have fallen to the wayside for me because that's all there was to the "friendship". I'm assuming you went to a pub or something. Try something different - like an activity?

Uni I slept 10 hours last night. I think I've only done that a few times EVER! I had been feeling tired lately so it felt good.

Lav I know what you mean about the negative people. Unfortunately one of those for me is sometimes my dad. I've got to work through some angry feelings I have today. I need to do the "Forgive Your Parents" 3 week program Colin Tipping has.

Have a great day!

[Leelou]

thu 15 april af daily

It's nearly midnight here, AND I have center position infront of my PC!! House guests tucked in for the night, and it's quiet, calm and a STUPID fly is annoying me in front of the monitor......but 'not complaining! (yet)

Im grateful my guests are not keen on a drink, it hasnt been an issue here, food is the highlight, and outings.

Bear, I remember having such a goody goody existance, that when it was time to let my hair down, and feel free, and be my own person etc... AL took over and I was so damd sure that it gave me the carefree life I wanted. I thought I felt free, I was Original, I was fun, I was creative, and I felt so much better than I was without it!

It's becoming clear now, that it overtook my real existance, it sat waiting to grab hold of what I felt was the real me (when I was brave enough to show it..) and it really just consumed it behind my back, chewed it for a decade, and now I'm mopping up the crap it left behind!

The biggest thing thats helping me, is to plan things to do that I havn't done before...
Exercise is a big help, and looking outside the square for different things to do keep the boredom away, keeps things interesting.

I've made some little goals to aim for, and I try to remember what I was like when I was 6 years old. The reason why, is because I think thats when I was just ME, no outside things changed me by then.

When I think of me as a 6 year old, I am ashamed of how much I havn't nurtured my own self since.

When I think of myself at aged 6, it reminds me to be true to who I was meant to be.

Greenie, my face is not beaming... I think it might be glowing abit with relief that the worst is over...It's nice to have everything sorted... finally. the big birthday is on the 26th... I might actually feel that old by then!!!!

LAV - Drop in anytime!! You might not get the use of the car though, I'm rethinking my decision on that now, as I am so tired, and my bike is my new best friend! But my guests were suprised that they had to put the premium fuel in it, not the normal.... so $$ abit more!

Hmmm... free car = put what owner normally puts in it with out commenting!!! Don't you love family!

Im actually thinking of joining couchsurfing, since we have so much room... and plan to travel etc...

DET, I havn't seen the video you mentioned, but I will when I get time, sounds like abit of fun.

Uni- I'm having wierd dreams lately... random stuff....

Hi FG, ChillGirl, Sunshine, DG, LVT,and RJ ....(did we get to the bottom of that swinger question when I was away?) and everyone else....

Have a happy day one and all....:rays:

[sunshine_gg]

thu 15 april af daily

I want a gun

Well, if this wouldn't be a perfect day to say 'screw it' and go get tanked, I don't know what would be.
:upset:

One of our servers was hacked early this morning, all my client sites (on that server) are down. Of course, the accounts I'm currently working on are on that server, too. So, no work is getting done, instead we're frantically trying to restore service and gain control of the server. This is going to take hours, at best. My horses aren't getting fed this morning, as my backup person is busy delivering a foal. And I can't leave here.

I'm typically not a very aggressive person but boy, if I could get my hands on the a$$hole who has nothing better to do than to f*ck with other people's livelihoods, I'd like to have a gun in my hand.

AARRRRRRRRRRGH! I'm sorry, I'm just SO pissed! Thank God I'm at least sober. And that ain't gonna change today.

So sorry, I just needed to vent. Carry on.. don't mind me.

[bear73]

thu 15 april af daily

Hey everyone - back from day out - I plan to stay in tonight have a bath/pedicure and read a book.

Thanks for all your messages of support/advice - all helpful stuff.
I need to get out of the deprivation mode mentality with the dieting/stopping drinking and smoking.In reality I'm not missing out on anything by not overeating/smoking/getting drunk.

I want to be sober because;

My skin is better
I feel clear headed and positive
I feel calmer
I feel slimmer
I'm 99% less likely to smoke
I have more energy and enthusiasm
I'm less sensitive
I save lots of money

Anyway - a nice sober chilled out evening planned for me tonight - count my blessings that I'm not craving booze/ciggies today.

[Lavande]

thu 15 april af daily

Aw Sunni - wish I could give you a hand today...........hope things look up very soon!

Leelou, I like seeing my family come for a visit but I love seeing them go!! Too much togetherness is not healthy

Greenie, my Dad has been gone for 12 years - took me a long time to put the memory of him away. He was not a nice person in any way, shape or form. I guess the best description of him would be 'loser'. It was hard taking care of him after my Mom passed away. Why he was given 12 more years to live than my Mom ~ I'll never know. I'll have to take a look at the program you mentioned. Sounds like something Mr Lav could use!!

OK, off to find an afternnon project

[Determinator]

thu 15 april af daily

Happy Tea Party day ABeroooooos!

Sunshine, sorry to hear you're having a crap day...sounds like a good time to head to Starbucks for a caramel machiatto

off to catch up on paperwork. zoom zoom

be well

[sunshine_gg]

thu 15 april af daily

Starbucks??? What's that?? :H

Det, I live on a teeny-weeny little island (well, actually the world's largest fresh water island) - there ain't no Starbucks here! Or Timmies! There's a Mum's Restaurant with huuuuuuuuuuuumongous apple fritters, though... hmmmmm.

Thanks guys, I'm getting yelled at by clients (kinda rightfully so, even though there certainly isn't something I did or didn't do) and we're still not back up and running

Anywho, hope you all have a better day - thanks for the virtual hand, Lav

[universal]

thu 15 april af daily

I am also having a crappy day at work - and that starbucks idea sounds HEAVENLY - soooooooo going to head there on the way home from work - so much better than the liquor store!

[Doggygirl]

thu 15 april af daily

Hello all! Sunshine I can feel your computer pain. We fix computers for a living. I hope you are able to get the servers back up and going soon! Uni, I am sorry you are having a bad day at work too. I will consider myself blessed that the worst complaint I have today is being tired. I ran out of B-Complex vitamins a few days ago and I'm wondering if that's the reason I feel like doing a face plant on my desk all week!

Leelou, I don't know how you remain so cheerful with a houseful of guests. LOL there is a reason we do not have a guest room. Seriously. Hang in there!

Grumpy Dads. Oy. I totally understand why my Mom doesn't put much effort into getting her hearing aid fixed.

Bear, I had to make sobriety my #1 priority in order to make it happen. Same with quitting smoking. I simply could not go places where there was drinking and smoking going on and not do it myself. If you really want to get out of this endless cycle of starting over, you may want to really examine your game plan and priorities. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.

Hello all other abbie fabbies! I think I'm going to go take a nap! Oh. I'm going to a MK training on Saturday - this is the one with the artist who does all the models in the quarterly catalogs. We got a list of all the supplies we need to bring with us. There is "required" stuff and "optional" stuff. On the "required" list was an eye lash curler. :H I haven't used one of those since the disco days of the 70's. This aught to be interesting. :H

OK. I think I'm going to take a nap. I hope to dream of servers working perfectly and curly eye lashes.

DG

[Marshy]

thu 15 april af daily

Now, here's a bad day: volcanic dust cloud settles over UK, all flights cancelled and our airspace is closed, so Marshy will have to stay at work until 11pm tomorrow night to cover for a colleague stranded in Hong Kong.

I didn't envisage that happening on my way in this morning. :H

Hope everyone's day ends on a happy note!

[Raven.joy]

thu 15 april af daily

If we all go to bed sober, that's a happy enough note for me sister.