AF Daily - Friday April 16th

[AAthlete]

How am I supposed to check in when you bunch of ex-boozers haven't started a thread for me yet!!

That was kinda my attitude over the last couple of days - work has been so busy that all I've focused on is me. Poor Jeff, he's working too many hours, has too many demands, etc. As I was sitting at home last night my wife told me that she was thinking of going to see a therapist because she felt stressed out, depressed, etc. and it hit me - I'm a selfish idiot sometimes.....

One thing I've learned is that I can either sit there and beat myself up about it, or try and actual do something about it - and thankfully this time I chose the latter (although I can remember multiple times when I didn't) and we took the dogs for a walk as a family, had dinner together, and sat around and talked for awhile. The day ended great, but I also need to also remember that it was only one day and it takes a lifetime of work....

Anyway, hope everyone has a wonderful Friday!

[LVT25]

AF Daily - Friday April 16th

Hello af friends.

Thanks for starting us off this am AA. I can really relate to getting all wrapped up in ourselves. I have to give myself a little talk almost daily about just doing what I can manage in a certain amount of time and to just slow down and let some things go. I'm reading a great book called "Mitten Strings for God" about a mother and learning to stop living the go, go, go, do, do, do lifestyle.

I'm not sure where this week went! My BIL called Monday to tell me they put my sis in the hospital again. She is still recuperating from the diverticulitis/perforated colon ordeal from January. Now she has "Bilateral Pulmonary Embolisms" Or blood clots in her lungs.
So, I dropped everything to go see her for a little moral support. She was doing pretty well, so I only stayed one night. We talked all day Tuesday, which was nice, but may have worn her out a little. I feel so bad for her.

This weekend I'm being selfish and going to the mountains for a women's church retreat. I am anxious about this, I'm driving for one, and most of these women I would not hang out with socially. These are the type of things I force myself to do in order to find out who I am or who I can be. It is also difficult because the 4-H club I am leader of is having a big function tomorrow that I had to turn over to hubby and others. This is also a test for me. Letting go and delegating. It will be fine, but I doubt I will be able to stop myself from worrying about it. Oh, well, baby steps.

I haven't seen my counselor for over a month, and I can feel it. I have some resentments building and it's affecting my mood. I have to say I didn't feel bad about getting in my car and getting away from my family for a couple of days. I'm probably either going to have to get some feelings down on paper or break down and try to tell hubby how I feel. I just have such a hard time talking to him on that level without him getting defensive or me getting upset. I can see now he has no desire to change his ways. His sarcastic and cynical method of dealing with the kids and I are just his way of being the tough guy I guess. And this really comes out when he's drinking. He's either funny guy or Mr serious and you never really know which. I love him and the person he is/used to be so much, but there are times when it is so hard to look past the drunk.

Ok, I have a zillion things to do before I leave this afternoon, so I better get busy.

GG I hope your day gets better, and Marshy I saw the big ash clouds on the telly--what a mess. All the people they showed at the airport still looked cheerful though!

Bear, I'm not sure what else to suggest except maybe someone could lock you in for some time? Like the others, there is no way I could be around ANYONE drinking or smoking when I first GOT HONEST and admitted I was NOT in CONTROL! It may seem impossible at first to say no to some people and activities, but trust me it can be done! Read about alcohol/alcoholism, post and read here, take up knitting--but stay out of the bars and tell your drinking and smoking friends you're taking a break! You can do this.

Have a great weekend all!!:h

[Lavande]

AF Daily - Friday April 16th

Morning all,

I'm late getting myself started today, just feeling a bit tired ~ allergy stuff!

AAthlete, it's good that you were able to step back & take a look at those around you, that's commendable! I'd like to introduce you to Mr Lav - he is unable to do that himself, could use a lesson or two. We all need to be cognizant of how much our own behavior affects those closest to us!

It sunny but cool here this morning, think we're in for a damp weekend. Think I may go to the paint store & start choosing some colors.........I have a few painting jobs in mind

Wishing everyone a terrific AF Friday!
Lav

[Funny Girl]

AF Daily - Friday April 16th

Morning everyone - raining here & it kind of matches my dreary mood. Just moving a bit slowly - I'm sure it will pick up. Getting ready to go visit my folks this weekend on the east coast. My dad is getting ready to turn 90 and I'm not really looking forward to the trip - I know it will be fine once I'm there, but it's not much of a vacation. My mom has been caretaker & hard to take lately. It will be a first dealing with her sober. Anyway, I have to just change my attitude - my dad is always in good spirits & the focus needs to be on him anyway - so I'll just keep that in mind.

LVT - good luck on the retreat. Hope it turns out to be surprisingly nice & that you make some friends & get some much needed relaxation & rejuvination while you're there. It may just turn out to be great.

Lav - you crack me up - setting up your Mr. Lav to talk to AA & get a few lessons!

Hope everyone has a great weekend if I don't check in - my time will be limited while I get going on my travel plans - I have a lot to do tomorrow & leave very early Sunday.

Ciao!

[universal]

AF Daily - Friday April 16th

Hi everyone,

Yesterday sucked but I think today is going to be a bit slower so hopefully that means I can fly through the day and start my weekend!

I think I figured out what Campral does - it is not so much addressing the cravings really but I am finding that this time around I am feeling so much better than last time. It is almost as if all withdrawal symptoms are gone - no tiredness, no headaches, no stomache issues - nada. So I guess that is the point of it. I have heard that it really starts to help after 20 - 30 days AF so we'll see. I'll keep you posted.

I am also having some communication challenges in my relationship lately. You know, he is really wonderful with my daughter but I really find that he has so many communication issues with me and I am really not sure if I am happy. I know it's a main reason I drank was to forget about things.

Who knows. Life is hard sometimes.

Okay, back to work, check in later.

Love and hugs,
Uni

[sunshine_gg]

AF Daily - Friday April 16th

Morning, peeps!

AA - I would like to take some lessons from you! You got some tour dates set?

LVT - Have FUN! Try to go into your retreat open minded and you may find that you'll have a fantastic time We'll expect a full report on Monday! Sending out some healing thoughts to your sister :l

Lav - your industriousness is making me dizzy! :H

FG, I believe I know just how you feel. Mothers can be quite a challenge. Glad you're taking it on sober. Hope you'll have a great time!

Uni, hun... I'm glad you're feeling better physically. How long have you felt that there are communication issues in your relationship? Just asking, because I found that I often blow things out of proportion when my own head isn't where it should be... so maybe just try and consciously observe what's going on? :l

Ok, I already spent too much time on here this morning - need to dash. Have a grand Friday/weekend! I won't be around tomorrow but should be back Sunday

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Friday April 16th

Jumping in while I can stilll legally say "Morning!"

I hate the coupon thing. The way I used to do it is fine. Somehow I have six frickin' things of laundry detergent that I'm sure were a good deal but hey.....

AA, it's easy for me to be that way since I'm by myself. Then again, I just learned not to take on other peoples stuff so I suppose balance is the key.

LVT, it's wonderful the way you are stretching yourself!! I'm loving my front row seat at the ongoing event!

Where's DG, doing an eyelash curling workshop? :H

Deter, checking in on ya pal. I hear coming off anti-dep. isn't easy.

Hey ho everybody else. Have a big, happily AF day!

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Friday April 16th

Hello everyone! Eye lash curling seminar indeed! :H I was tempted to try out the curler this morning but I was afraid I would pull what little eyelashes I still have straight out. I figure if I'm going to end up lashless, I'll do that AT the training class!

I love Raven's simple message from the end of yesterday's thread that going to bed sober is enough. Or something like that. And Marshy / Greenie, don't get started on sober sex because that is not what I meant. Unless of course you want to tell us about YOUR sober sex life in which case I am all ears.

LVT - have fun on your retreat and try not to worry about what is happening elsewhere!

Lav, I'm guessing AA picked up some of his stuff at AA. Send Mr. Lav to a meeting near you.

Greenie just think what a great DEAL you got on your lifetime supply of laundry detergent!

FG - Dealing with family issues sober can take a bit of getting used to! I hope things go OK with Mom and that you have a very special time with your Dad!

Uni, that's interesting about Campral. I've never taken any of the meds and am always curious about what affect they have. Sounds good to not have the icky withdrawl crapola going on.

AA I have to keep an eye out for my own pity parties too. That is so niced that you recognized what was going on and took action - sounds like very nice family time!

I've been diving into the sugar again this week and I'm really pissed off at myself and feeling like crud as a result. I seriously can't believe how "hungover" a sugar dive leaves me feeling. I've just got to stop it. Protein and veggies for me today. And a little fruit but not over kill. I hope to feel less foggy tomorrow for my eye lash curling session. Thank you for listening to my whine. Please pass the cheese.

Well, time to get my butt to Curves. I've been lazy this week. Double whammy with the sugar dives and exercise lazies. Oh well. Today is a new day!

If I just go to bed sober tonight that will be good enough for me.

DG

[Determinator]

AF Daily - Friday April 16th

Aloha, and happy late check-in from garlic breath.

thanks for the checkup Greeneyes, after entirely too much mental anguish I've decided to go back onto a small dose of Citalopram again and wean off much more slowly this time. so this is my first full day of that, and what's left of my brain is pretty screwed up, but i think I'm starting to feel better.

nice to see you all, thanks for the kickstart AAth, be well friends