AF Daily - Sunday June 27

[Gaia]

Hello all,

Back again for another AF day.

Greenie CoNGRATULATIONS on EIGHT MONTHS! THat's fantastic, and a great achievement. I can't imagine having all that straw in my car though.

Lav planning for your dinner sounds interesting - I hope it goes well and that most of all you enjoy yourself and don't get stressed about it. I like the link to the vegan recipes by the way. Bookmarked it and want to try some.

Hi Bear, hope you are doing well today and Hi to Papmom. Quiet evenings are nice, and Cindi I hope Calgon did the trick.

Guit I hear you on the freedom thing. I am early in this but I feel a sense of freedom - at dinner where everyone else is drinking and I'm not but I say provocative things but it's not because I'm drunk! haha that can be fun.

I have been out with people drinking for 4 nights in a row. It's too much. I was ok having water but I'm tired of it. I need a little down time. I'm also feeling sad and unloved. Not sure if it's because I'm not getting it or because I'm not letting it in. All I can think of every time I look at DH are the hurtful to the core things he's said.

I know I'm supposed to let the past go but there's not been much to build on so far to make the future. From the big picture everything seems normal but on my micro level I feel sad. I'm not letting myself cry though, it seems there's now a part of me that feels the sadness without it coming out in tears.

OK now I know I'm supposed to make myself happy but I"m missing affection and support. Someone told me that at Al anon they tell spouses NOT to say anything supportive to their drinker but I think that's baloney. Recipe for destroying marriages, if you asked me.

OK now I'm going to TRY to make myself HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY. My mind is saying BULL BULL SH SH!

[bear73]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Hi Gaia - sounds like you're really gong through it - it's hard feeling emotions without the booze to blur it. you'll get there - do something nice for yourself today.

Day 3 here - slept really well despite the intense heat - nice to be clear and not hungover.
Lost a pound this week too - combo of hypnodiet cds and exercise/eating healthily (not frenzied calorie counting)

Skating later - in this heat - noooo!
Well that's my only real plan - bit of washing and pottering about other than that.
Good day all - back to work on Tuesday - I'm trying to just enjoy today - week gone soooo quickly.

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Morning abberoos!

Thanks for the start towards another AF day, gaia!

Gaia, straw - yes, I need to drive up to the vacuum place before it's 200 degrees. And spread those last three bales. Really irked me to buy $50 of pine straw. Grrrrrr...... Shoulda been a couple cutsie pairs of sandals. DG, I DO need a truck!

I really feel for you with the husband issue. I felt like that a lot over his actions more so than words. You are loved. I believe the universal energy IS love. Maybe you're experiencing lack of it to help you accept that you ARE loveable just as you are and help you let it in? Well, here's a couple :l:l for you!

Bear I love the way you potter about. I want to do that today, but I want to leave town next week so I've got to stay on task. Careful in the heat!

Geez 8:30 already! Where did the day go? :H:H

Whatever your plans, enjoy them!

[1967]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Beginning day 4.

[Lavande]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Good morning Abbers!

I think a group hug is in order today!!!!!

Gaia, believe me I know exactly how you are feeling right now. The lack of support & feeling unloved hurts deep down especially when you haven given so much of yourself!
Ms. Greenie has been trying to help me understand that things are just the way they should be, your lovable & loved Hugs to you!!!!

The heatwave continues here too Greenie. I need to get outside & turn on the fan in the chicken coop. I fear my poor girls broiling alive out there, yikes!!

Bear, one day at a time, OK? Stay focused, stay busy enough to keep your mind from wandering! I always get into trouble when I do too much thinking

1967, good to see you! Have a great AF day 4 - stick with us!

I'm hiding in the AC as much as possible today. I may even get my shop cleanned up a bit!
Wishing everyone a super AF Sunday!

Lav

[momof3]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Good Morning All,

Gaia...big hugs to you. I can relate to what you are saying about your husband because I experience that too.

Fully successful trip on the river yesterday. We went tubing instead of canoeing. The only problem was, there were alot of young adults who were drinking massive quantities of alcohol on the river. Lots of smoking cigarettes too. Geez, I thought this was supposed to be a wholesome family activity. We definitely won't do that part of the river or that river outfitter again on the weekend...perhaps during the week. My oldest daughter commented on the older adults who were drinking. She mentioned to me that she didn't like it and when I asked her why she said that they were being loud and childish. She is 13 years old!! We had a good time anyhow.

M3

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

momof3;896344 wrote: The only problem was, there were alot of young adults who were drinking massive quantities of alcohol on the river. Lots of smoking cigarettes too.

If I were queen......:H Seriously I get really annoyed at the intrusion on my "peaceful river" vibe. It's pollution.

[momof3]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Me too Greenie. I had to really work hard on choosing to have a good time if you know what I mean. Congrats on 8 months. I'm curious to know what the experience was like getting back on the wagon for you. Did you go back to Lenair?

Happy Sunday to all. I'm off to a 2 hour yoga workshop this afternoon. It's going up to 99 degrees here today. Yikes!

[LVT25]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Hello everyone! Just a quick hi from me today, since I posted comments on a couple of other threads i didn't want you all to think I was ignoring you!

I just got caught up on yesterday's thread and enjoyed a good :H, even though i still don't get what is funny about a yeast infection. But, I was thinking about it and the noun weirdness and yeast infection could be interchanged.

Anyway, I also chuckled at DG dashing to her remote in order to watch Johnny D in Edward Scissorhands. :H

I have been working my a$$ off and spinning in my tracks at the same time. This weekend was our 4-H fundraiser where we serve breakfast to the bikers during their weekend drunk fest. I still remember a number of times where I participated in the drunkenness with them and remember quite well how absolutely shitty and worthless I felt trying to stomach the smell of sausage and pancakes in the morning. UGH! SO GLAD those days are over for me!

The greenhouse is up! The garden is almost planted! Pictures to follow if I can get them to post, I had trouble the other day.

Speaking of that, I do need to get back out there and get something done before we head our for basketball games this evening. Yesterday I gave myself the afternoon off, and stayed in the AC under a blanket with a good book. Then last night I watched "Dear John" The actor was a hottie and the movie was good too!:H

Back to the races! :h

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Hello abbie fabbies!

Gaia, thanks for kicking things off today. Wow - 4 nights in a row hanging with drinking going on. My brain would be ready to explode. I haven't had a real urge to drink in quite some time, but I just get bored bored bored sitting around shooting the breeze. Once dinner is over (without taking forever on that part), I'm ready to move on. Hard to believe as in the old days, I would be the LAST person who wanted to leave. Life changes. I am so sorry that you are feeling unloved. As the others said, you ARE loveable and you ARE loved. I hope you have faith that your circumstances CAN work out for the best - one way or the other - with time. It can feel really difficult while this is going on though. The only thing I can suggest is to make sure you are not focusing all of your energy on your relationships with others - that you are focusing a good amount of energy on you - healing yourself and finding the "sober you." I really believe that the stonger we are within ourselves standing on our own two feet, the less the actions of others can bring us up and down. :l

Bear, I'm with you on trying to "eat healthy" rather than manic dieting. Enjoy the rest of your time off work! And your pottering!

Greenie, how are your muscles feeling today?

1967, GREAT to see you back and with us on the Daily AF thread. You too can be a Fabbie Abbie!

Lav - group hugs for sure!! You too are loveable and loved. The fact that Mr. Lav is "not ready," whatever that is, is no reflection on YOU!! I thought of you whilst making Apricot jam and Apricot / black raspberry / mulberry jam. My favorite mulberry tree (the sweetest ones! funny how each tree tastes different) is almost done. :upset: I hope you don't have roasted chickens before their time.

M3, I would totally have been one of the Rude Rafters paying no attention to other people or Mother Nature "back in the day." Ugh. I need to be reminded of that stuff now and then to help me appreciate how much better of a fellow human being I am today v. then. I'm glad you and your family made the best of it. Your 13 year old daughter sounds more enlightened than I was at 42. (well, I'm 29 but you know..) Hope you are having fun at the yoga work shop!

LVT the yeast infection thing came from Mr. Doggy. He was at a client where a doctor intern asked him what was wrong with a computer. He said it was infected with a virus. The intern said "what? It has a yeast infection?" And the women in the office went to town with that comment. :H I guess all problems in life REALLY stem from yeast infections. Who knew. Wow I can't WAIT to see piccys of the green house!!! YAY!! You must feel good getting that project done!

Your description of the biker drunk fest is also a stark reminder of which side of things I used to spend my time on. :egad:

I was a speaker today and it felt good to share my story. And I have a new sponsee now. More on that in the AA thread. Life is good!

DG

[momof3]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Doggygirl;896618 wrote: Hello abbie fabbies!

The only thing I can suggest is to make sure you are not focusing all of your energy on your relationships with others - that you are focusing a good amount of energy on you - healing yourself and finding the "sober you." I really believe that the stonger we are within ourselves standing on our own two feet, the less the actions of others can bring us up and down. :l

DG

Very wise words DG. It's so important to be able to love ourselves!

Yoga workshop was awesome. 2 1/2 hours of nonstop sweating. I left feeling ready to take on the world! (But not very motivated to cook dinner).

M3

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

LVT The yeast infection is some of DG's wierdness. :H Great news about the greenhouse!

I finally was able to take a nap this afternoon. No easy feat for me! But I was hot and tired after cleaning the pine straw out of the car and washing it. Now I need to vacuum (hear that Mr G?) and shampoo where little doggie puked. Guess the jerk chicken didn't agree with her.

M3, getting back was almost like the first time. I wasn't quite as bad as 2 years ago but I would drink in the AM. Getting rid of wine bottles (amazingly didn't get into vodka) in ways that were not normal. I did go back to lenair. I like to think I'm well equipped with tricks and tools, but what makes a big difference is "the knowing". The question is no longer on the table. The chapter is done, the book is finshed and closed. I seriously can't see me doing it again. Even so, I pay attention and look over my shoulder.

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

DG, A new sponsee???? Must run go look at the thread!!

M3, 2 1/2 hours of yoga! Phew!! That's like mowing the yard for me!

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

DG, You're going to San Antonio! Wow! Is that your first big whateveryoucallit? What's it going to be like? When is it? For how long?

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Sunday June 27

Hey Greenie! It's the International Convention of AA! It starts Thursday night and ends Sunday morning. Friday night and Saturday night there are "Big Meetings" at the Alamodome. It is common for AA meetings to begin with a quiet time followed by the Serenity Prayer. I absolutely have chills thinking about how that will feel in a huge dome stadium with thousands of people. Several people from my local area are going and I can't wait! This will be my first flying vacation / REAL travel since getting sober. LOL I picked a pretty safe crowd to test my sober wings with, so to speak. :H:H I wish more MWOers were going. I wonder if all the bartenders in San Antonio are just going to take vacation time?

DG