I re - read my old posts from when i was AF for 3 months last year,and also seeing the pattern of every few weeks when moderating my consumption getting high again, the anxiety of 'should I shouldn't I drink' posts
THE PLAN
*Keep up with exercise - it helps my mood and physically I am looking better.
*Stick with nicotine patches and call 'Quitline' to talk through my plan.
*Keep stocked up with my favourite af drinks ,diet 7up,sparkling elderflower.
*Challenge the thinking which gets me into trouble,when it happens.I often will be walking to the event where I am planning to be af/nf and will have thoughts of 'well i can just have one ' and 'I've not stuck to it so far it's too hard' and ' never drink again that's impossible'.
*This dilemma causes me stress which I then think I need alcohol to take me out of.
I also get nervous socially - but I forget that I do still get nervous with alcohol anyway,sometimes more so if I'm conscious of slurring.
*Get out of any events which will just be too challenging - looking at it there isn't anything too bad BUT if I am somewhere and it is too much - I will leave.
*F**k everyone else and what they may think of it - I'm not sharing my inention to be AF/NF as it's precious and I know from experience if I make big announcements I sabotage myself/freak out and fail. Maybe after a year - my excuse will be about getting in shape to be a better skater.
*Focusing on the now - today - refusing the first drink/cigarette.
*Reading - 'living sober' I may buy the allen carr book - much as I find him really patronising, the message is really strong and probably what I need to hear right now.
Have a good day all to come, and thanks for challenging me (in a good way) and pushing me to re-think what clearly isn't working.
Onwards and upwards.
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