Boy, did I ever EFF up. WOW. Eye opening for me. Probably the best thing that could have happened to me to be honest in my journey to sobriety although they "rock bottom" was bad and I am lucky that I didn't kill anyone.
So here is the story. Last Thursday was the first day of a meeting program that I was going to try in my community. Like an AA but held by a local addictions centre. So since I had decided that I was finally going to start going to meetings and take care of my life I figured I could have a little to celebrate that I was saying goodbye - these were to be my last drinnks ever. I enjoyed them. A little too much. So when it was time to leave to go to my program I did the dumbest thing ever. I got in the car to drive there. I guess I realized halfway there that I shouldn't be driving because I parked the car on a curb facing the wrong direction. When someone came up and suggested I move the vehichle so that I won't get a ticket, I got out of the car and fell down. And then I sat on the curb while he called the cops.
Spent the night in jail (which I deserved). Now have a DUI pending - criminal charge on my crystal clean pristine record. When my BF picked me up, I made him take me straight to a detox centre. I stayed there for 5 days. I went to my first 2 AA meetings while there. They have referred me to the "Betty Ford" of clinics in Canada. I am hoping to be accepted into their treatment program within the next couple of weeks. I need help obviously - I have tried and have said it over and over again. This is the last straw for me. I scared myself. I am glad I was by myself but I am sick. I could have killed someone. I have never drank and drove before, I don't know what was in my head. The only thing I can think of is that everyone would have been dissapointed in me if I didn't make the meeting I promised I would go to. There is no excuse. I am so glad no one got hurt. Trust me, I don't expect sympathy to this post - ass kickings are welcome.
So that's where I've been. In detox for 5 days - pre treatment meetings all set up for me until the centre can take me for inpatient. Which I can't wait for to be honest. I wish they can take me tomorrow. I want to be done. I am so looking forward to inpatient and to being honest with my family and my friends. I will need their support when I get our and know that honesty will get it from them. I am so hopeful. 8 days sober today. (funny thing is I only drank 4 days in July - just got bombed on each of them). But 8 days today into my new life. And my BF has been the most supportive person ever. I think this has actually brought us closer together.
Just wanted to let you guys know where I have been, apologize and let you know I love you. I can't wait for my treatment and am excited about the future.
Love and hugs.
Uni
So here is the story. Last Thursday was the first day of a meeting program that I was going to try in my community. Like an AA but held by a local addictions centre. So since I had decided that I was finally going to start going to meetings and take care of my life I figured I could have a little to celebrate that I was saying goodbye - these were to be my last drinnks ever. I enjoyed them. A little too much. So when it was time to leave to go to my program I did the dumbest thing ever. I got in the car to drive there. I guess I realized halfway there that I shouldn't be driving because I parked the car on a curb facing the wrong direction. When someone came up and suggested I move the vehichle so that I won't get a ticket, I got out of the car and fell down. And then I sat on the curb while he called the cops.
Spent the night in jail (which I deserved). Now have a DUI pending - criminal charge on my crystal clean pristine record. When my BF picked me up, I made him take me straight to a detox centre. I stayed there for 5 days. I went to my first 2 AA meetings while there. They have referred me to the "Betty Ford" of clinics in Canada. I am hoping to be accepted into their treatment program within the next couple of weeks. I need help obviously - I have tried and have said it over and over again. This is the last straw for me. I scared myself. I am glad I was by myself but I am sick. I could have killed someone. I have never drank and drove before, I don't know what was in my head. The only thing I can think of is that everyone would have been dissapointed in me if I didn't make the meeting I promised I would go to. There is no excuse. I am so glad no one got hurt. Trust me, I don't expect sympathy to this post - ass kickings are welcome.
So that's where I've been. In detox for 5 days - pre treatment meetings all set up for me until the centre can take me for inpatient. Which I can't wait for to be honest. I wish they can take me tomorrow. I want to be done. I am so looking forward to inpatient and to being honest with my family and my friends. I will need their support when I get our and know that honesty will get it from them. I am so hopeful. 8 days sober today. (funny thing is I only drank 4 days in July - just got bombed on each of them). But 8 days today into my new life. And my BF has been the most supportive person ever. I think this has actually brought us closer together.
Just wanted to let you guys know where I have been, apologize and let you know I love you. I can't wait for my treatment and am excited about the future.
Love and hugs.
Uni
I will no longer give the BEAST any power over me - he can go straight to hell.
ray:
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