AF August - Week 4

[Chillgirl]

AF August - Week 4

Sooty - glad you are getting some nicer weather, I hope it lasts over the holiday weekend, it's our last really busy tourist weekend here and I'm looking forward to venturing back to the beach next week when the crowds have gone.

Rusty - Yahoo! Congrats on the weight loss!

Lav - good for you in putting on the TBGP, my dismissive ex has this air about him like he is busier than the President! I think I'd have more chance of getting an audience with the Pope........:H

Just enjoying the late afternoon sun here on the terrace, hooray for wifi!

[spedteach]

AF August - Week 4

Hello friends,
I have been procrastinating and procrastinating but here goes. I drank last week just before my birthday, after my one year mark. Drank a bottle of wine, enough to have a hang over. Don't ask me why. One minute I can think of hundreds of reasons, the next minute there seems to be no explanation at all.
I did tell my husband that I drank (drank at a motel in Kansas). He proceeded to call several people (my sister, his mother) to let them know I'd started drinking again. When I found out, I was livid. Don't think I've ever been so angry. Presently not on speaking terms.

Whew, feel better getting that off my chest, out in the open. It did occur to me not to mention it but that would so defeat the purpose of our camaraderie .

Carry on all. That's what I'm trying to do.

I bought a couch. Onwards to the dress. Received an email from the fiance's mother saying she had not yet bought her evening gown but planned to very soon. Evening gown!!! What is she talking about? Red, are you wearing an "evening gown"?
I'm off to take a look at dresses, like Lady BH of the Carrots taught me.

Thanks for listening.

[spedteach]

AF August - Week 4

Somebody's going to have to help me change that sobriety date glaring at me!

[Chillgirl]

AF August - Week 4

Sped :l
Im so glad you told us, it would defeat our whole purpose for being here if you hadn't. I know you never really saw your year anniversary as something to celebrate and I'm guessing you drinking was in a way defiance of this? I don't want to make you dwell on it but to know why may help prevent it happening again. I hope the experience perhaps cleared out any thoughts of what you might have been missing.

I'm sorry about your husbands reaction, you needed that like a hole in the head! Sending you much love x

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[papmom3]

AF August - Week 4

Hi All,
sorry to have been AWOL today. Can't even remember if I posted last nite I was so tired LOL!!
SPED-the only one you need to be honest with is yourself. But having said that, we are here to support you and maybe help you figure out why so that you don't give in to that trigger again (unless you want to-who am I to say everyone wants to be AF? Really must work on that part of myself). It might even help the rest of us. It scares me to think that someone with a year under their belt can give in so easily to the beast. Doesn't he ever go away?
I'm so sorry that your hubby felt he had to "tattle" on you. That is not supportive at all and very childish. I hope you can work it out with him.
Your sobriety date is in your signature which is on the left side when you click on User CP above.
Rusty-great job all around!! You resisted the hotel's happy hour offerings, you didn't let setbacks and intense heat get you down, you did a fab job of training AND you lost 3 lbs!! You're a winner!!
Chill-Ahhhh. Sitting on the terrace surrounded by warm breezes and the wi-fi humming. I'm coming to visit!! I'm sorry you ex is being so indifferent and so self important. You have the right attitude tho and in the end you will be where you need to be.
Lav-any possibiltiy of paying the tech one more time and having him teach YOU how to do service the machines?
Dill-LOVE your quotes today!!
Ok, back to work. safe travels Rusty!!
:l

[Lavande]

AF August - Week 4

Shelley,
Don't beat yourself up!!
Look at all you have learned & accomplished this past year. Brush yourself off, hold your head up high & keep marching forward. And while you're at it - kick your husband's ass.
It takes a very small weenie, IMHO, to do what he did!

Rusty, I forgot to say congrats on your weight loss! Good for you. I've lost a few this summer myself - I'm on Stress Watchers!!!

Papmom, I know the steps needed to fix these machines - I just don't have the vision! Even with my newest glasses - I can't see enough to adjust the timing.......... I'm screwed.

Greenie is having a campfire over on the Daily thread. I'm thinking about dragging Mr Lav's belongings down to her house & just toss them in. Anyone want to jon me?

[dill]

AF August - Week 4

Sped, I'm 100% with Lav on this one. Just brush off and keep on moving. You've accomplished a lot this past year and nothing can take all that away from you. Mr. Sped should have kept that to himself, to be sure.

It's a beautiful evening here, sunny and with just a touch of Autumn in the air. There's a wonderful peaceful quality to the day. I'm lovin' it!

[ladybirdheart]

AF August - Week 4

Hey, Shelley, I am really glad you made the decision to post. As you know I have chosen to drink every couple of months and if I could not have brought it out into the light I think I would gone farther. I think Chill was very insightful in her comments about how we don?t all have the feelings and experiences with abstinence that we had hoped for and perhaps now that can be a cornerstone in our recovery, that it is not just about not drinking per se but creating a life that we love living more often than not, becoming people whom we love being, and limiting adult relationships to people who help us do that rather than send us spinning. I am really glad that you are here with us. You too Star in your chiffon, you have a lovely clear eyed time at the wedding, you are really striking a chord with me right now and it is a keeper. You too Mon Capitan Sooty Buddy and Rebirth (I don?t think I welcomed you home from India, what an exquisite photo, we missed your voice). You too Lav, I know you can find a way to take control of things, being treated as if one is invisible is like being shunned and it will bleed your spirit. Fortunately you have a huge spirit so even if you have lost a bit, it is still enormous, mammoth, gargantuan. I think about you so often, Chill, how you work to meet things with a loving heart, how you project this across the sea right into my house. When I get scared I let myself find the you in me. You too Rustop, I love watching you launch your children, I never had children so I vicariously participate and think you are a lovely mom. You too, Rusty, who somehow can be feminine and funny and smart in a 120 degree room full car parts, you just keep moving along, you have a beat in your words. You too, Pap, with your crafty butterfly dogs and your serious care at work, nice combo. You too, Cyn, I hope you are off making music. You too, Dill, I shall be with you during this work year every day and keep you in my head as I like thinking about you, it conjures up all kinds of humor and respect. If I missed any one, I love you too, Ladybird.

[papmom3]

AF August - Week 4

LBH-that was just beautiful!! what a way with words you have!!

Lav-I think you should definitely go to Greenie's campfire!! I'll come because of the pink and white marshmallows-no carbs right???

Ah Dill- I wish for autumn so much now but know I will regret it because my least favorite season is right behind it. It's in the air tho so I will try to live in the moment and not be apprehensive of what's to come.

How ya doing tonite Shelley?

:l

[Chillgirl]

AF August - Week 4

Good morning everyone

LBH - my dear friend you have already found your loving heart, anyone who can write such a beautiful post has a heart over flowing with love, to see the good in everyone so clearly is a gift in itself :l

Sped - I hope you are doing ok and realize that here of all places is a safe place to come when the need to vent, scream or howl arises.

Dill & Papmom - it still very much summer here with temps of 95f. September is one of my fav months, the tourists go home and leave us our beautiful country, we can park at the supermarket again, walk on the beach and go to restaurants without reservations. It will start to cool down with cooler mornings and evenings, idyllic!

Tonight in a nearby historic town is "white night" when the whole town is closed off to just pedestrians, there are street performers, musicians & entertainment with food and drink served all night long. The town is full of narrow cobbled lanes and the atmosphere will be amazing. Everyone has to dress in white, that's the only entry fee required. They have been hosting it for the last 4 years but I never went when I was drinking because it was to difficult to get there without a car and I always wanted to drink. So tonight I think I will make the effort incase for some reason next year finds me someplace else in the world....

Have a wonderful AF day guys.....

[Rusty]

AF August - Week 4

Good Morning Friends,

It's a beautiful day here and I am in excruciating pain. I either twisted or hyper-extended my knee on Friday and it's swollen and I can barely walk. I really think I strained it running up and down steep stairs to the training room this week whilst wearing steel-toed shoes! No running along the lake path for me today :-( Oh well....I'll swim instead. I'll probably put those 3 pounds right back on.

Shelley-I agree wholeheartedly with what Lav said about Mr. Sped. Anyone who would do that is just an *sshole, in my opinion. IF you talk to him again, this is what I would say, "I forgot to tell you that while I was in Kansas, I met this incredibly hot guy who unlike you, was bright and funny, AND, he has an incredibly big p_n_s!" Ugh, I would be so pissed. Fuzz nuts. Don't beat yourself up about drinking. I drank last night, too, and I don't feel badly about it at all. I met these 3 really funny and interesting people sitting near me on the plane last night and we all had a couple of glasses of wine on the way home. One of them was my age and she and I hit it off right away. We have made plans to get together for dinner next month. I didn't crave any more wine after that....I didn't endanger myself or anyone else and I'm not going to waste time analyzing why I drank. Re: the wedding. An evening gown??? You mean like gold lamee (LAH-MAY-sp?)

LBH-you really do have a gift for writing and I just love the way you post in such a magical and whimsical way.

Chill-White Night sounds like so much fun! Maybe you'll meet McDreamy there.

Papmom-I plan on making your chicken broccoli foils today. Can't wait! I'll let you know how they turn out.

Lav-if you're going to toss Mr. Lav's stuff in Greenie's campfire, make sure you take Mr. Sped's stuff, too!

Hello to Dill, Sooty, Rustop, Cyn and anyone I may have missed....have a great Saturday!

xoxox

Rusty

[Chillgirl]

AF August - Week 4

Rusty - Im so sorry to hear about your twisted knee... ouch! If you see the army thread today Mario has a similar injury, if it werent you were on different continents Id say you two had been up dancing all night together :H

Guys we are approaching the end of August and need suggestions for our Sept name...
the obvious being Sober September or September Sobriety. I like sobriety best as it always sounds more fun than sober... More ideas please

[Lavande]

AF August - Week 4

Lav here - smartly dressed in her TBGP's awaiting the arrival of FH :H:H

Chill, the 'white night' sounds like fun, enjoy it

Rusty, sorry to hear about the knee injury! Nurse Lav suggests icing & elevating it for a while
Glad you met some friendly people - that's something I need to do as well. Not sure if I could handle a glass of wine though. Maybe in my next lifetime!

The weather is quite pleasant right now but will be turning hot soon. Heatwave #8 of the season is on the way - ugh!

Wishing everyone a great Saturday. I'm sure I'll be back later.
Lav

[Rusty]

AF August - Week 4

Chill-dancing with Mario? What a combo....since we're both Irish. Chill, I thought of you yesterday. I met this lovely couple in the Atlanta Airport who were from Manchester. They mentioned a holiday this weekend....is it the same in Portugal....the end of summer holidays?

[Rusty]

AF August - Week 4

Hi Lav-

Sorry....cross post! Yup, I took Nurse Lav's advice....with a little help from Advil and it's feeling a little better. I had it wrapped in ice from Montgomery-Atlanta-Milwaukee.

What does TGBP mean?