AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

[Doggygirl]

Wakey wakey as P3 would say!!!!

Gotta make this fast (ok, I can hear your sigh of relief from here! ).

Deter I have been thinking of you a lot since you posted yesterday. I wish relapse had not happened for you. I'm so grateful that you chose to share about it though. This is truly a one day at a time gig and we can never let down our guards. I was thinking that even now when I am feeling generally strong in sobriety, there are occassional thoughts that pop through my head, seemingly out of nowhere. Nothing like an "urge." I don't feel compelled to act on these thoughts. They are usually really silly. Things like "if you went on that Alaskan cruise someday you could drink and who would know." But I'm seeing every day that these thoughts are not harmless, even though they are brief and in the "now" they do not feel like a threat to my sobriety. AL is always out there doing push ups in the parking lot.

Deter I hope you are feeling better today and just ready to get back on the wagon and move forward. I hope you will share more about what went wrong if / when you feel up to it. I would be grateful for the help.

Hello to all. One thing is for sure. I will NOT be drinking today.

DG

[Lavande]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

GM DG & Abbers!

Back to business today.........oh well.

Thinking about you as well Deter, hope today is much, much better for you!

In addition to getting back to work I'm watching EB grandson today.........he's so helpful - NOT

Wishing a terrific AF Tuesday to one & all!
Lav

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

Morning fabbies!

Thanks DG. I'm getting the occasionals too. Nothing to act on - just a part of my unsettled state.

Auntie, so glad you checked in. If you're drinking every day, what is your goal?

Lav, the knee WAS better! One foot is wierd too, and it was the same. I'm going to keep at it. I bumped into the barefoot guy again. He went with me to the island with little doggie and seemed to enjoy (need) the antics and laughter. Seems he only rents a room and doesn't like to hang out there - hence he frequents the park. He told me his last name. Faithful. Of course Ms. Sensitive here could NOT contain the big bubble of laughter and it came spilling out :H:H

Det - thinking of you today & hope your nerves and all the bad pookie are settling down.

Gotta run!

[Mohun]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

I'm back...Third times a charm? After two successful 4 month runs of sobriety, I am back and hoping I can make this permanent. I checked the site yesterday and saw Det's post and thought this is a good time for me to come back.

It's good to see some familiar names still here.

Mo.

[Determinator]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

hey Mohun, been a while, good to see you. yes takes a few times to stick. and for me the AF periods do get substantially longer at least.

oh crap, just checked my BP and it's still up. 153 over 107 and it's been like that all night.
better make an appointment. be back family,

XXXX

[Lavande]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

Be sure to keep a good eye on that B/P Det - says Nurse Lav
We all know AL screws with your B/P. It ceratinly did with mine!

Hi Mohun, good to meet you!

Greenie, you be nice now to barefoot Larry. With a name like Faithful.....he may turn out to be a gem
I'm going to try to listen to Colin Tipping on the Creating Fulfillment for a Whole Life teleseminar this afternoon - that is if my grandson ever settles down for a nap

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

Welcome back Mo! I love that raspberry avatar. You should have been here earlier this summer for jam making, something I would never have actually followed through with while drinking. I remember you. I think most of us have to go through several tries and some pain to finally figure out where we stand with AL.

Lav, good luck trying to work with EB helping.

Greenie and Barefoot-Larry sittin' in a tree.
K-I-S-S-I-N-G.
G
G
G is going to be mighty jealous. You are a baaaaad fangirl!


Deter, good to see you checking in. Beware the :b&d:. Much easier to just check in than to be hunted down and beaten. Welcome back to you too!

Where are all the other Fabbies today? Is Marshy still at her Mom's? I'm sure Uni is still in rehab healing away. LVT? P3? Auntie? Rusty? PAGuy? G? Pamina? The list is long and my memory is impaired. Come one come all for checkin.

Anyway, one thing is for sure. There will be NOOOOOO drinking AL for this chickypoo today. Home made petiza from a Slovenian client? Yes. At probably 100 points per slice. But yes to that anyway. AL? NO WAY.

DG

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

PAGuy's foot surgery is today. Positive healing vibes to you our friend.

DG

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

I thought about PA's surgery earlier, DG and sent out vibes. Thanks for posting it!

Lav, I downloaded that meditation and I cannot find that sucker anywhere on my computer. GRRRRRR!!!!

FH is really applying pressure (begging) for some financial assistance. I HATE HATE HATE IT! Why can't he hear "I'm sorry, I'm not able to do that?" It makes me want to drink. I won't, but I am angry that it has that effect. This would be a good time to go to the river. Or eat ice cream.

WB Mohun! Good for you for keeping at it!

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

Or get a big thing of ice cream and take it to the river.

NO NO NO NO NO. FH is not your responsibility. His financial needs have nothing to do with you. NO NO NO NO NO.

Would you like my opinion?

DG

[Gaia]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

Hi everyone,

Thanks for starting us off DG.

Deter I am sorry to hear about your relapse, and wonder what triggered it. Was it something big or just a WTF feeling? You can get back on the wagon, just hop on.

Hi Mo, don't know you yet but I look forward to it.

Greenie what's getting you down girl? I want to try the tapping thing.

Hi Lav, big hug to you!

PAguy sending good vibes your way.

M3 hope you are out of the funk and feeling better. Fresh air is here! Cool air is here! Homeowrk is here! (oops didn't mean to drag it back down again....)

I'm ok here. No AL yesterday today nor tomorrow. Not letting DH's fussing pull me down. I tell myself, I am a capable woman and I am strong enough to get through this. Just working on MYSELF for a year.

Gotta run..

[Gaia]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

Greenie you deserve it for yourself to say no. You don't have to save him. Did you ever think that you might be enabling his own failures by letting him fall back on you? Farbeit for me to give advice on relationships though...

If I had a dime for every piece of advice I gave but did not follow...

[Cinders]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

Greenie,

FH is really applying pressure (begging) for some financial assistance. I HATE HATE HATE IT! Why can't he hear "I'm sorry, I'm not able to do that?" It makes me want to drink. I won't, but I am angry that it has that effect. This would be a good time to go to the river. Or eat ice cream.

I have the same issue with my husband so I am uber sensitive to it. We feel guilty when we have done absolutely nothing wrong. That is our problem.

Just tell FH to FO and smile. Eat some peppermint ice cream.

:l:l

Hi to everyone else!!

Love,
Cindi

ps Det, please let us know how the doctor's appt went and if you are feeling better.

[Mohun]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

Thanks for the welcome back. :welcome: I think one of the most important aspects is logging in every day to declare an af day. It's actually day 3 for me. Now I have a stomach bug (just to support DET is guess?).

Mo.

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Tuesday September 7

Hey Everyone!!

Welcome Mo!! Your avatar is delish and is the ONLY thing making me wish summer would stick around .

Gaia- CONGRATULATIONS ON 4 MONTHS AF!! you go girl!! I'm right behind you, celebrating tomorrow.

Deter-I sure hope you are OK! Please check in and let us know what the doc said. :h :l

Greenie-I echo what everyone else said about FH and I know you agree. Be strong OK?

DG-how was that slovanian pizza -yummie I bet!!

Hi LAV-did you hear from PAGuys partner yet? How is he?, M3, Cinders, G (where are you? Your fangirls are in withdrawal!!), Uni (hope it's still going well in rehab) and anyone else that stops in.

I'm trying very hard to get over what a crappy weekend it was with all the disappointment and the feeling that this friendship might have to wither away. And I'm trying very hard to understand that what happened happened, it's in the past and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. Yes it was a waste of my time for the most part but it's done. I keep thinking however how sad it was eating my defrosted mushy lobster all by my onsies last nite. Eating 'sters (as we call them) has always been a big family social thing and something saved for special occasions. It just wasn't the same eating one by myself. That is all. BGP are on.

Have a great nite all and here's to another AF day tomorrow.