September Serenity - week 3

[Lavande]

September Serenity - week 3

Last but not least!!

GM everyone! Nice & cool here this morning Shelley - co on over. SOL = shit out of luck in my world :H

Chicks are happy & real eating machines! They've gone thru the 5lb bag or organic chick starter food already. Good thing I had the 50 lb. bag of regular chick food on standby.
Tomorrow will be one week since they arrived so I'll get some pics.

John - I had that computer virus here a few weeks ago - it locked up my laptop & one of my desk tops :upset: Mr fix-it (my yard boy grass cutting MIA spouse) fixed the problem but had to buy the latest version of Norton Antivirus and go from there. In all it cost me $180 & a weekend's worth of time to the both computers cleared. it was a giant PIA!
Hope you are in better shape than your laptop

It sounds like most of us are facing some huge life issues right now. I hereby call for a re-commitment to handle this stuff AF!!!!!!!
Drinking is no longer an option! It doesn't make your problems go away, it just steals your freedom!

Let's all pull on the TBGP's & TBBP's & take a firm stand :H

Happy Humpday to one & all.
:h Lav

[Chillgirl]

September Serenity - week 3

Evening Guys

Star - Thank you for the reminder to let go, even repeating these words in my head always makes me feel relief.

I got send this poem today and it made me think of us, we have all been through that darkness and some of us are still in it at times including myself,
lets get in that boat and row our hearts out......

THE LONGING
Do not pretend that The Longing has not also lived in you,
swinging like a pendulum.
You have been lost and thieved like a criminal
your heart into the darkness.
But life is tired, Deep Friend, of going on without you.
It is like the hand of the mother who has lost the child.
And if you are anything like me, you have been afraid.
And if you are anything like me, you have known your own courage.
There is room in this boat:
take your seat. Take up your paddle, and all of us
- All of us -
shall row our hearts back home.

[sooty]

September Serenity - week 3

Thanks everyone for words of encouragement and for the call to reaffirm Lav - which I readily and happily do.

Chill I love the poem - thank you for sharing it with us. For the rest of this month we'll travel by boat shall we? I can pilot a boat easy peasy.

I hope you've all had a good day. Things quiet here and I'm off to bed soon.

See you all tomorrow

love Sooty

[Rusty]

September Serenity - week 3

Good Afternoon Serene Sisters and Brothers,

My day is done and I am in the Sky Club....surrounded by fountains of free booze and it does not look the least bit appealing to me!:yay: I am having club soda with lemon and lime wedges. My client was uncharacteristically gracious today...offering to pick up coffee and bagels for me on the way to work. My client was very sick with pleurisy today so Rusty the Brown Noser offered her some of my sliced lemons. Her eyes about popped out of her head, she was so happy. The day went better than I thought today. I will get home about 7:30 tonight because I will stop at the gym for a workout on my way home from the airport.

Chill-I loved your poem. Thank you so much. Another poem for my MWO comfort file.

John-hope you get the computer mess worked out AND be able to get out of bed. How awfully boring that must be! Good thing you have a loving partner and a 4-legged creature to keep you company.

Rebirth-how's the jewelry business? I have never considered going to Cambodia, Laos or Vietnam for vacation. I would consider Greece, though.

Shelley and Cyntree-I don't envy you being in that heat. I know the novelty would wear off for me. Shelley-yup, that's sad when you prefer cleaning over shopping.:H

Star-I admire your attitude of gratitude...you always look at the bright side of things and that's nice.

Lav-glad the chicklets are doing well.

LBH-How are you doing?

Dill-How is school going for you this year? Better than you hoped?

G-where are you? Did we ladies scare you away

Sooty-So sorry about your daughter's relationship issues. My mom felt the same way when my brother married his first wife. She was devastated.

Rustop-How are you?

Papmom-come out, come out wherever you are!

Did I miss anyone? Hopefully not.

Lav-I am reaffirming my commitment to handle any work issues AF.

Take care, everybody!

Rusty

[rebirth]

September Serenity - week 3

Lavande;959761 wrote: Last but not least!!

Drinking is no longer an option! It doesn't make your problems go away, it just steals your freedom!

:h Lav

Hear! Hear!
Very grateful to be sober today. Just a quick post to say goodnight my lovely cyber friends. Will catch up tomorrow.
xxx

[dill]

September Serenity - week 3

Yes, I agree with Rebirth, Rusty and Sooty, Lav. It's time we reaffirm. Actually good to do everyday!

Chill, thanks for the poem. I liked it very much.

Has anyone had this experience: I went to the doctor for a check up today and to get some prescriptions renewed which required a liver panel. Towards the end of the visit she asked me if I had any other issues. I said no, everything seemed fine. Then she point blank asked me if I had any issues with alcohol! I was kind of taken aback. She reassured me that she asked that of all her patients, not to take offense or take it personally. I didn't take offense, but I must admit, I was taken aback by the question. I should mention that this was not my regular physician but one of her partners. This is the first time I was ever seen by her. My doctor is on maternity leave.

Well, good night Sereners.

[Rusty]

September Serenity - week 3

Dill,

Yes, I have experienced this. I have had a few doctors over the last 8 years (way before I drank regularly) who asked me that question.

I can imagine you were surprised when the doctor asked you if you had any issues with alcohol but she was being honest with you. Doctors do ask all their patients that question. It's important because they can't prescribe a lot of medications if a patient abuses alcohol, and doctors have to be sooo careful that they don't prescribe something that could become addictive, like Xanax, etc. if a patient is already struggling with alcohol addiction.

Regarding the liver panel test, I asked another doctor friend of mine about how specific those tests are and he said that a liver panel test can detect any alcohol in a person's system up to six days before the test. This includes things like Nyquil, mouthwash, etc. He was right. When I was drinking at my heaviest, my liver enzymes were elevated. When I went for my check-up last year, I hadn't had a drop of alcohol in a week and my liver panel tests came out normal.

Don't fret about this, Dill. We all know you're fine.

Sleep well, friend.

[Lavande]

September Serenity - week 3

Evening friends!

Had a nice afternoon out with my friends - they always make me happy.
Unfortunately I came home to a dead chick :upset:
This has happened the last two times as well but it's always sad. One minute they are fine & the next they're not. There may be a few more before this group grows up

Tomorrow & Friday will be the last major push before the yard sale. I WILL be happy when it is over - no kidding.

Hope everyone has a peaceful night - nice poem Chill!

[Rusty]

September Serenity - week 3

Hi Lav,

So sorry about the dead chick!:l

Good luck with the yard sale preparations. Is Mr. Lav planning on making an appearance?

[cyntree]

September Serenity - week 3

Quick check-in tonight - good night, good morning all. Chill - big, gigantic hugs and support - you are doing great, keep it up. Something good is just around the corner. Sorry my business idea doesn't help...we'll keep our thinking caps on.

LBH - thank you tons for your honesty. A great reminder of how sly the beast can be - I've been there, and now am feeling strong again, as of course you will as well. A gentle embrace for you friend.

Sped - I would rather clean toilets than shop for clothes.

Everyone, thank you...coming together for seeking is a good thing. Cap'n Sooty - let's cast off -

[Stargazerlily]

September Serenity - week 3

Sounds like we are all doing our best in life and particularly in our AF journey.

Chill, just want you to know I'm here if you need to talk. With all the stuff I have going on it is good to go to work and get my mind on other things, so hope you can cycle today or do something to get out of the house for a time.

Sooty, I always felt like a knife in my heart when my kids were hurt emotionally. But I noticed with my daughter, she had to have the bad relationship to know a good one when she found it. Just as with us adults, it is all a learning process, but really painful.

Rusty, thanks for taking the time to post, you are so enthusiastic and fun. I would love to go to Greece, love greektown in Chicago, and the movie, My Big Fat Greek Wedding. Greek food, music, the scenery, it would be a trip to remember. It is on my bucket list.

Lav, sorry about your little chick. Computer virus's are scarey and really harmful. I also wonder who the weirdo's are that sit around wanting to mess with people's lives like that.

Sped, are you going shopping for the mil wedding outfit? Go to a store and try on 20-30 outfits to get an idea, and hope for the best. After trying on that many dresses, you'll know when you find the right one. It will fit, be comfortable, and you get a good idea about colors. Hope this helps. I too hate shopping for stuff like that and had not done it for over 20 years. It was not fun until I found the right dress, then it was fun. I was going to comment about your son's personal items from childhood. I gave my kids most of their stuff, but bought one plastic container, pretty big, with things they want to give to their future kids. I store the container in the basement. But that's it, one container.

Have to go to work, so have a great AF day.

[dill]

September Serenity - week 3

DENIAL

"The worst vice of the fanatic is
his sincerity."
-- Oscar Wilde

The disease of alcoholism is "cunning, baffling and powerful", and it
manipulates us to believe "the lie". There is a point that we reach in
our disease where we believe that crazy behavior is acceptable.
Insanity becomes the order of the day. And when friends or therapists
try to give us a message, we discount them.

How can we break down this wall of denial? Well, there is strength in
numbers. If everybody we respect is disagreeing with us, then it is time
that we change. If our isolation has become a source of martyrdom,
then we need to reorganize our attitude for living. Insanity and
isolation are often companions; they feed off each other.

We need always to stay close to our recovering community. Strength
and sobriety is in numbers. - Recovery Readings

What to do with the kid's stuff? I too whittled mine down to about 4 boxes, but it still sits in my storage closet. I thought when they grew up and had their own places I would give it to them, but as yet, it remains here. It's OK, as we have a large house. When the day comes that we have to move, it will be dealt with then.

It's an early departure for me today as I have a long drive to get to a two day work shop on Autism Identification. It will be out of my ordinary routine, but I am very much looking forward to the learning opportunity.

Have a great day Serene Ones.

[Guitarista]

September Serenity - week 3

Greeting's folk's,

Nice word's Dill and Chill, thankyou.

A safe, sober, and magical day to all.

[Chillgirl]

September Serenity - week 3

Hello from me
Im sorry I dont have much positive to say today guys, im hosting my own self indulgent pity party at the moment. Im even fantisizing about that "insanity" in your quote Dill and remembering that wonderful false place that AL takes us where temporarily our worries disappear. Yesterday I had a leak under my patio, I had to call the builder and he dug up the tiles and repaired the pipe. Of course promising to come today and repair the broken patio but so far hasnt turned up. The garden is a mess of mud and rubble and my parents arrive to stay at the weekend. This morning the dishwasher and the washing machine broke down and I know how they feel...

I had been invited over to dinner last night at a girlfriends and had an anxiety episode on the way there, i didnt want to go, i didnt want to have to paint on the smile and pretend all is well. But I went. She is very dear and has been a good friend but I dont belong in that world any more. I have mixed in very prosperous circles but sitting in her mansion with her other girlfriends discussing what caterers they used and where they went shopping made me feel like an impostor.

Its my birthday next week and my girlfriends are all taking me out to lunch tomorrow. When I quit drinking in Jan, my birthday was one of the biggest deals to me, i couldnt imagine it without champagne! Now that seems the least of my worries, I dont even want to go... I cant enjoy myself anymore, i just want to curl up in a ball and make the world go away.

Im so sorry for all this, i loathe not being my positive self but maybe this little vent will help.

[Guitarista]

September Serenity - week 3

I'm hearing you Chilli. Hey! You're allowed to feel like curling up in a ball now and then. We can't be up and at em and positive ALL the time. How do you think you'll go tomorrow at lunch?.