AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

[Gaia]

Hello everyone,

Where is September going? Seems like yesterday was the start of 2010.

I am enjoying doing so many things which would have been stressful had I needed AL. I love not needing it! I love that I feel calm at all hours of the day (except for when I'm stressed of course).

That was a beautiful moon last night, wasn't it?

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

good Morning and Happy Humpday!! I've been off line until last nite due to a computer virus that I picked up on a quilting website of all things!! This one disguises itself as an anitvirus program that you think might have come with your programs and it tells you in very bright red text that you have multiple viruses and threats on your PC. It has a "remove all" button that when you click it it brings you to a page where they want you to choose one of their packages of protection. If you've gone that far they've got you. In reality it's a Malware program, it prevented me from accessing the internet (except through Opera but I didn't know that until last nite), and it's almost impossible to remove unless you have a very knowledgable friend staying with you who knows all these cool anti malware sites that know how to remove this exact virus. John, does this sound familiar?

So inbetween doctors appointments, taking my dad for eye surgery and doing a mad cleaning for these friends who called me Monday nite asking if they could park their RV in my drive on their way home from Newfoundland-they live in NY-I was pulling my hair out trying to figure out why I couldn't get on the web and then when I realized it was a virus, how to get rid of it.

All is well now and I now have a very effective anti-malware program installed that I will run religiously every month. BTW, I had over 800 objects compromised on my PC!!

These are the same friends I was a little afraid to hook up again with as we were massive wine drinkers when we got together. It's been over a year since they visited last and I thought I was safe this year as I hadn't heard from them except for the occassional update on their trip. It all turned out very well tho. I had told them a while ago I didn't drink anymore and I had to repeat that last nite. They asked why and I said it was due to medical issues and told them what was going on with the diabetes and kidney disease. Before I told them that tho, we got take out Pizza (I know but they were paying!) and when we got back they asked if they should bring out the beer or red wine and looked at me. I said: "Bring out whatever you want, I'm having lemonade." Easy peasy. Nice dinner and conversation (pizza was yummy-I had the veggie delux to make up for all the carbs) and we were all turned in early as they have been battling nasty colds for the past few days which is why they couldn't make it all the way home yesterday.

Got up for my morning walk with my neighbor and told her I was thinking of going to an AA meeting in the near future (she's the one I just recently found out had quit drinking around the same time as me). She said she had tried that and warned me against it. Said that you get overwhelmed with creeps when they find out you have a job and a car. That's not the feeling I've gotten from reading the AA thread here so I'm going to find out for myself at some point. She also said they talk behind each other's back (I saw so and so coming out of a bar last nite etc). At least now I know she has no interest in going.

Vacation is half over :upset:. I've got a dentist appointment and then the rest of the day free. Maybe I'll work inside on the office as it's going to be a whopping 83 out today!! :H Tomorrow my dog friend and I are going to try to find a dog friendly ocean beach. it's supposed to be in the 70's and very nice out. Friday I have to work on my shed. Sat is work at the RE office and Sunday, who knows??? then back to the grind.

Have a great day everyone and one thing is for sure for this papmom......

:l

[Lavande]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

GM Abbers,

Happy humpday to all! The hot weather is returning today - I really wish it wouldn't, yuck!

Slept fairly well last night probably because I smudged the house in that moonlight last night. Plan to repeat tonight & tomorrow night. I feel calmer afterwards

Papmom, I ended up spending $180 to rid two computers here of that same virus - what a pain in the butt!

I have lots to do today & will be going out for dinner with YB tonight. Don't know what that's all about.....but it's a free dinner that I don't have to cook.

Wishing everyone a wonderful AF Wednesday!
Lav

[Marshy]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

Lovely and warm here today too. Cycled into work along the canal. Great way to start the day.

papmom3;965220 wrote: Said that you get overwhelmed with creeps when they find out you have a job and a car.

:H:H That's hilarious.

I think depending on where you live there are loads of different types of meetings with loads of different types of people. The first meeting I ever went to was mainly homeless/ex-homeless because it was next door to a homeless hostel. My "usual" evening meeting, if I have such a thing, is full of professionals who have just finished work for the day and complain about their bosses (but not their cars :H). There have also been famous people at meetings I've been to, so it's a whole range. I tried a few different meetings before I settled on the ones I liked.

Lav - this book comes highly recommended to me but I haven't read it yet (have ordered it from the library). Beating Anger: The Eight-point Plan for Coping with Rage: Amazon.co.uk: Mike Fisher: Books

Gaia - I'm with you on the lovely feeling of calm - except when I'm stressed :H

[universal]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

Hi guys!

Pap, I agree with Marshy - shop around and find a meeting you like. Keep an open mind. I was closed minded going into AA but ended up trying again and now I love it. The feeling of being with people who understand me is what I like.

I am off to the lawyers - still trying to work out this whole DUI issue. BUt I am not worried - what will happen will happen. At least I'm sober!

It's rainy and blah here today - I intend to grab some groceries and putter around the house after my appointment. Maybe read a bit and have a nap or a hot bath after. Just a relaxing day.

One thing is for sure!!!

Love and hugs,
Uni

[Lavande]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

Good luck with the lawyer today Uni!

Thanks for the book suggestion Marshy, I'll take a look at it on Amazon.
I know exactly what my problem is......it's not even a manner of mood swngs or anything like that. The season is changing, I'm still alone & not much progress has been made in Mr Lav's head! I'm just pissed off that he is so damn dense, stubborn & reluctant to let go of his old screwed up thinking patterns. He is stuck - I', seriously considering hiring a tow truck to pull his head out of his ass :H:H

[universal]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

[ seriously considering hiring a tow truck to pull his head out of his ass :H:H
LMAO Lav.

Seriously though, sorry you are having a hard time of it. :l

[bear73]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

Hey there - been out for dinner with girl friends and it was really lovely - they all had wine and I didn't - and it was fine. We're good enough friends for us to howl with laughter anyway.

Cycled home - not happy that leg is still hurting - seems to be getting worse this week.
Feel really inexplicably angry - and I don't know why!
Just found out old member of derby team is leaving - very sad.

One more day at work then off for 4 days - can't wait - away at music festival - sharing room with old friend friday who doesn't drink much - we plan to go home reasonably early and to chat for ages!Told her I'm not drinking and why and she's an old close friend.

I feel confident that I won't want to drink - my reasons not to are crystal clear this week in my mind. I am taking inhalator as cig replacement too. Oh and best thing ever - lost 4lbs in 2 weeks on higher calories - it works!!!Most I've lost in 2 consecutive weeks in a LONG time.

Gonna read some more 'drinking a love story' it's great - identify totally with the having a problem but not totally hitting bottom before you quit.

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

Happy Humpday Fabbies!

Gaia, thanks for kicking us off today. Boy - I sure agree that September is flying by. This whole YEAR seems to be flying by, at least in DoggyLand. (Not to be confused with DisneyLand where time stands still and everyone sings on key and nobody ever gets a zit or anything.....)

Anyway..

P3, I had to laugh at your friend's comment. The first thing I thought about was life back in Florida, and what one of my friends used to say. She was from the south (which is north of Florida, but not as far north as Illinois). So imagine this with a proper southern accent. "I used to want a man with a lot of money and a nice car. Now I'd be happy to find one with a job and a drivers license." :H I guess all those beach bums must have gotten sober and moved to your town, where they are all going to AA now. All kidding aside, I'm glad you decided to put it that way to your friend. Now you know she isn't really interested at this time. My experience has been much like Marshy described - all walks of life are involved and each meeting is different. Sounds like you are way to busy for this to be called "vacation!"

Marshy, what's up with NGF?

Uni, hope all went well at the lawyers today. You have a very good attitude about it from the sound of things. If those legalities move in Canada anything like they move in the US, it's good to stay calm and accept that this is out of your control. One of the guys I give rides to quite often is hoping to get his license reinstated soon. It's been a lot of years and a low bottom for him.

Lav, I managed to pull my own head out of my a$$ this morning, and not have another craptacular day (self induced) like yesterday. Would you like me to come help pull Mr. Lav's out? So what is the purpose of the dinner? A date? I hope it is positive, whatever it is. Order the lobster. And steak. And a table side flaming dessert to go with it. Resist the urge to toss Mr. Lav on the fire.

Bear, sounds like you are still doing well. I think some honesty goes a long long way. Glad to hear you came clean with your good friend you will be staying with over the weekend. Do you have a plan in mind for all situations that might arise?

My biggest news for the day has already been shared - I decided to pull my head out. I was upset over stuff that is out of my control. Self induced misery right there. Why did that state seem so wonderful when I was drunk? I suppose keeping myself miserable "justified" all the drinking in my own mind. Whatever. It sucks to be in that mode while sober, that is for sure!

Today is a laid back one and I should have got more "stuff" done. But oh well. I went to AA, then worked out, then got a blood draw for upcoming doc appointment, (part of it anyway - have to go back as I didn't know they needed some of it fasted...but whatever), volunteerd on the lunch shift at the mission. Had fun serving and I still can't believe it's like being a princess - don't have to help them clean up. Life is good. Sick dog had a small poop today and I thought Mr. Doggy was going to break out in song.

One thing is for sure...

DG

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

DG-I totally get Mr. D's happiness!! Does sick doggie have to have surgery?

Dentist appt did not go well today. Well, part of it didn't. The hygenist was awesome-gentle but thorough and I'm no longer scared of going for a cleaning. However, found out that I need extensive work done that my meager dental insurance will not cover as I have reached the max already (had a tooth pulled in March). :upset: It's going to be a $1500 bill that I can ill afford. I spent the afternoon searching for more part time jobs rather than walking doggies or tackling my home office space. I applied for 2 but not feeling very optimistic. About to head out to the store to pick up the dental supplies the hygenist recommended and since I won't buy a bottle of wine I'm going to get something really chocolate. So there.
Planning on going to the beach with doggie friend tomorrow(think I can handle that)so hopefully can get my mind off financial woes for a few hours. This is getting really scary. I have less than $1000 in savings now and cannot for the life of me make my full time salary work. No matter what I cut, it's still not enough. I do want a bottle of wine right now but I will not give in. I will ride the crave wave (all psycho that's for sure) and will wake up tomorrow very glad that I did and ready to have a fabulous day outdoors.
I've made appts with a MH counselor for next Wed nite and a chiropractor for my back and hip pain Oct 1. I'm crossing my fingers that my blood tests did not change drastically for the worse. Hopefully I'll get the results tomorrow or Friday. I see the nutritionist on Wednesday morning. Why bother going to work that day??? But I will be a good worker bee.

Sorry to be such a Debbie Downer but I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed right now and not sure what can be done about it.

Oh BTW, the poll is closed for the pics and the winners are # 0027 and 0801. Thanks everyone for chiming in and I'll post those when I get them.

:l

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

P3, excellent choice of pictures!! :yougo::yougo:

I feel your wallet pain on the dental front. I spent yesterday afternoon with the hygenist myself. I badly badly badly neglected my teeth through my drinking life and only a few momths ago started the process of cleaning my teeth for (embarrassed to admit) the first time in over 20 years. We have been taking in one quadrant at a time and I still have one left to go. I am really lucky that with all that neglect, I don't seem to have any major issues. I do have a few loose teeth but we are hoping that the gums will tighten up over them and they will be OK for the time being. (fingers crossed)

I am so fortunate that my body has held up as good as it has with all those years of neglect and mistreatment.

I have this belief that all things work out in the end. I believe that will be true for you too. I really believe that if you keep doing the best you can, things will somehow work out. Maybe an even better full time job. Maybe a great part time job. Maybe a hottie Johnny Depp look-a-like who is single, and also a dentist. I don't know but please just keep soldiering on with that beautiful attitude. And a reasonable amount of chocolate.

DG

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

thanks DG :l!! sure wish I could join the meetup in Mexico!!

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

papmom3;965667 wrote: thanks DG :l!! sure wish I could join the meetup in Mexico!!

I don't know if I'm going to join the meetup in Mexico yet. I just hadn't seen talk around these parts of these Sober Vacation opportunities. Now that I have fulfilled my duty to share this knowledge, I'm fully expecting a MWO sponsor to be sending me a PM right away. :H

DG

[momof3]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

Hello All,

Just checking in to say hi. I've been in a bit of a pissy mood (which seems to be a theme for some of us here today) so I've been keeping quiet on all fronts. When I drank, I used to make everyone miserable when I was in such a state. Now, I keep it to myself for the most part.

Another benefit of being AF!!

M3

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Wednesday September 22

you will share won't you DG??

M3-I'm so sorry you are still looking for your mojo. We like you pissy or not so feel free to vent and rant and cry or whatever. You'll get lots of cyberhugs and they really do feel good!!

:l:l