October Optimism - week 1

[Rusty]

October Optimism - week 1

Shelley,

OOPS! Sorry to cause hysteria on the thread ;-)

[Chillgirl]

October Optimism - week 1

Rusty;976732 wrote: Shelley,

OOPS! Sorry to cause hysteria on the thread ;-)

Rusty I can tell you are feeling frisky today, I smiled all the way through reading your post!

[rebirth]

October Optimism - week 1

Chillgirl;976519 wrote:
Im going through one of the toughest times in my life right now and there is no way I could be as mentally strong as I am if I was still drinking, I know for a fact that I would be a complete mess, drinking even more, if thats possible, Id be permanantly hungover and an emotional wreck.

Sigh. You are absolutely right. I just have to tough it out. Chill you are such positive soul in comparison to me.I can be a bit of a grouch when I think that I cant have one... . I have to be honest and say that I miss the buzz from alcohol. but I accept that I am a drunk and cant go there. I just have to be careful not to turn into one of these dry drunks.

I have to focus on rewiring my thoughts. Progression not perfection. slowly but surely.

John- I see where you are coming from but I think you are more patient than I am. I have asked my partner not to get in that state when he is in my company ( we dont live together) cause drunk and sober dont fit. He says he can take it or leave it so I didnt see any issues of him abstaining when we met at the weekends. I think he is a binge drinker and needs to slow down when he drinks...

Sped - It's only happened twice in four months when he has drank uncontrollably in my company. But both times he was nasty to me ( the last session being particularly bad). He has probably suffered from 8 hangovers since my sobriety. He is definitely a binge drinker. I just never realized cause I was always drunk whenever we were together. Or too hungover myself to care.

Rusty -dont cave in. You've got to do bootcamp with us :H x

Dill -I am on a country walk tomorrow with my son's boyscout group so I will try and take some pictures weather permitting.

Well good night my friends. I wont be on here much this weekend. Hopefully will be in a happier mood come monday. Have a lovely lovely weekend all. x

[sdlovespackers]

October Optimism - week 1

URRRRGGGGGGG!!!!!!!

I tried typing a post at work and had it almost complete when I got interrupted and lost everything!! Which I know I should have been doing at work....but then I just sat down, even though I'm so super tired and redid the entire post the best I could remember....pushed send and lost everything....it made me resign in!!!! I know it sounds so stupid but I'm seriously going to cry I'm so frustrated right now!!!!! It's already been a very stressful night...maybe because it's Friday, I don't know...but I'm sorry...I did read all your posts...and did respond to each of you (twice)...now I'm just in a really not happy spot...and for absolutely the dumbest reason...a freakin' post wouldn't go through....urg!! Sorry!! I just need to go to bed...and stop feeling sorry for myself!!:upset:
SD:l

[cyntree]

October Optimism - week 1

OK - just for the record, I wasn't Seriously Sorry for talking about 'normal' - - that was supposed to be a little joke, but because I never use emoticons, nobody knew!

RB- hope you get through the weekend and come out happy on Monday - stay strong!

P3 - Congrats!!!!, travel safely, and have fun at the tourney.

Sped - thanks for all the info, how sad for the mexican family, you are so sweet to give the girls pleasure. RE: HB, I bet the family knows already...when I divorced, I was shocked at the number of my friends that said 'We've been wondering how long it would take".

Speaking of which, Chill (not divorce, but about life changes and scary times), in my forties when I left a long-term relationship, it was a very tenuous time for me. I put my belongings in a storage locker, kept 4 boxes with me, stayed in the basement of a friend's house, was employed at a prestigious theater company but for next to no money, and might have ended up homeless except for the grace of supportive friends and some credit card debt. I slowly made my way, and I don't regret a minute of those 2 years -- now it seems to me like a birth. I so hope that you will feel that same way as you walk through these next challenges. (PS - Have you seen the movie 'Pursuit of Happiness'? Amazing story of transition -- )

Dill - thanks so for the quote. Missing your words, LBH --

Star - beautiful post, much to think about --

At any rate I am patting myself on the back because I just lived through a very long, very exasperating 'party' where the dinner was delayed for 2 hours, and I watched 20 people slowly get sloshed. Managed to steer clear of AL myself, and am so grateful.

Happy Saturday to all - will try to check in earlier tomorrow -

[cyntree]

October Optimism - week 1

SD - cross-post - I'm so sorry!!!! That used to happen to me - so for a long time, I wrote stuff out in Word, and then cut and pasted -- now I sign off and sign on again just before I post, because that happened too many times to me too. I know exactly how you feel - uuuuurgh! Well, please know that your connection here is felt and true and vital -- I'm sending you good lifting energy, don't despair --