AF Wednesday, October 6th

[Accountable for Me]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

Good morning all!

Greenie, a break away from my daughter is probably a good thing given I have no 'emotional' energy left having to see my dad like this every couple of days. He lives over an hour's drive and when I leave; I don't remember driving home, I am so numb. Teenagers are selfish people; and she doesn't understand, so maybe her dad can occupy her for a while. At least he is a good father and is married to a good woman. She will be OK. I am truly hurt as she screwed up and then bailed out; but I think I did the same when I was her age as well. I am sure.

I am going to drop my little one off at school this morning and then head to the big city for coffee with an old friend. I am looking forward to this. It will be nice driving the 'other' way on the island. Need to clear my head and just regroup.

Slept like crapola last night. I certainly DO NOT miss what drinking does (or when you stop) to my sleep and all over feelings of emotional and physical well being! Sober is definitely the ONLY way, I feel good.

Have a great day everyone!! Thanks for your support. I love ya all! xo

[rebirth]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

DG- I am moderating on the sugar. Hardly any processed sugar during the week, kickboxing three times a week, then eating what I want on the weekends. I have lost half a pond in two weeks. Not much I know but it's better than a crash diet. I will try this approach for a few months to see what weight I lose. Hopefully four..

Greenie thats what I got to do..relax. And I am grateful that I am not drinking on it. I would have blown this whole situation out of proportion if I was drinking.

[Determinator]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

for anyone that wants to know the 'bitter truth' about sugar this video will blow your mind:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBnniua6-oM[/video]]YouTube - Sugar: The Bitter Truth

in other news: happy Wed ABerooooooos!

I see the dreary weather has many of us a bit down. the sun has finally popped out here so I'm running with glee to my noon martial arts class (it's held outside in a park). the previous classes have been canceled due to lighting.

Rebirth, sorry to hear about butthead BF. please nurture yourself and be healthy as #1.

off to make a protein smoothie

be well

[Doggygirl]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

rebirth;974950 wrote: DG- I am moderating on the sugar. Hardly any processed sugar during the week, kickboxing three times a week, then eating what I want on the weekends. I have lost half a pond in two weeks. Not much I know but it's better than a crash diet. I will try this approach for a few months to see what weight I lose. Hopefully four..

I should have given more info...

When I first quit drinking I was exremely faithful (to the level of "AF") to my low carb plan. NO processed sugar foods at.all. Under 50G carbs per day mainly from vegetables and a little low GI fruit. Protein a big source of nutrition.

My eating has changed quite a bit over the last year. Sugar (and other processed and carby foods) have krept in, and protein is lower.

My point is that my weight is slightly up, but the more dramatic change is in body composition. More fat and by default, I believe less muscle.

Of course I understand the science behind this (the non-scientist version of course! :H). Never really experienced it in practice - at least not when I've been really looking.

Would like to exchange the new found extra flab for some muscle again. And that's diet - not exercise in my case. (and body builders all know this....)

Deter - great to see you my garlicky low carbin' friend.

DG

[rebirth]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

Deter - Very insightful thread about sugar.

[bear73]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

hello all - I'm sticking to sugar for now - can't give something else up just yet - I tried Atkins and felt dreadful -I guess we're all different do what makes you feel healthy I say.
DG - fanny warmer made me smile - the British meaning is different to the American - sorry I am being very very childish and a bit cheeky!!!

Good and bad day today coaching session today where I cried - when I realised that all my pressure to be perfect/not make mistakes comes from me. This feels sad but I also feel like by acknowledging/realising that I can let it go. She asked me what it would feel like not to worry all the time and to carry all that extra stress - I cried.I'm sure that all these revelations are in part due to not drinking - think my pink cloud has popped a bit.Someone said it was like layers of an onion I think.:upset:

'Dry' turned up in the post today - I ordered as well 'when all that changes is everything,first year sobriety' anyone read it? Had lovely evening at skating - so nice to see everyone again and I LOVED skating - fell over and my leg was fine -yay!!
Off to read and eat some chocolate - but no booze for this bear - more onion peeling tomorrow

[Doggygirl]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

Bear, a good cry can be a very wonderful thing. Yes for me sobriety has defnitely involved peeling the layers off the onion for sure. (and some tears to go with it! :H) LOL on fanny warmer. Maybe someone can tell me exactly how cheeky it is!! :H

Lots of chaos at lunch over at the mission today. Probably a good thing the Mary Kay thing was cancelled (too much flu going around!!! yikes!!). Lunch ran late and had probably twice as many people as usual for lunch. So the line was long and people were testy. But we all got through it.

DG

[rebirth]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

Ha ha . I grinned too when I read fanny warmer.:H Quite like the expression.
DG fanny means a woman's private parts in the UK. Fanny means bum in the US right? Say fanny warmer to any british person and you will get them laughing.

[rebirth]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

Bear I cry alot too. This journey can be overwhelming at times.

Off to read too. Just ate a rice cake with a slither of choclate on it. Now i want more....Not good. I wont.
Good night folks.x

[rebirth]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

Okay maybe half

[Doggygirl]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

Yes, it's bum in the US. I think I'll start calling my seat warmer the Bummy Warmer.

DG

[Accountable for Me]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

bear, crying is a good thing! Peeling of the layers helps us get to know who we are; and what we really need (other than alcohol, or other substances) to become the people we really want to be.

I know that when I had a great deal amount of sobriety, went to counseling; I cried a lot! So many emotions suppressed over the years. Also, I had a very hard time with the whole, 'need to be perfect' thing.

It does get better. Just let those feelings flow. xo

rebirth, I hope you can find peace with your issues surrounding your bf. Everyone's advice is great. Take care of you; and let the chips fall where they may. I was talking with an old friend today and we were discussing 'relationships'. The conclusion we came to is that they can be a lot of work and exhausting.

Also, as we get 'healthy' and leave those vices behind, we start to realize a change in priorities for ourselves. I hope you feel better soon. xo

[Doggygirl]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

Very wise post AFM. When I read this part

Also, as we get 'healthy' and leave those vices behind, we start to realize a change in priorities for ourselves.

I had an "aha" moment. When I started dating Mr. Doggy about 13 years ago, a VERY high criteria for me that I would never had admitted to myself, let alone another human being, was that he had to tolerate being with a heavy drinker without complaint. (and he had to have a decent job and a couple things like that...)

Now that drinking is not longer MY highest priority (nor any priority), so his tolerance of it doesn't factor into the equation, it's good that we are still OK with the rest of the packages.

I really am very lucky that things have worked out OK for me and Mr. Doggy through both of us getting sober.

Thanks again!

DG

[papmom3]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

NO BOOTCAMP FOR YOU!! that's what my chiropractor said tonite when I mentioned it. I think i heard the soup nazi's voice!! Turns out my spine is a mess! All rotated and twisted and humped and S shaped!! Geez! Just put me in a movie!! yesh, masta.
So, I've got some work to do. 3x/week for now. Not sure I can afford more than 3 or 4 weeks at $20 a copay but we'll see. Tell the truth, i'm kind of relieved she does't want me to do the boot camp. I was getting very apprehensive about getting up so early and of course the intensity of the exercise for someone my age and in such horrible shape. I do need to start abdominal exercises which I knew i had to do-just was putting it off. The good news is this is all biomechanical and can be corrected or at least greatly improved.
Still raining and cold here today/tonite. I've got so much to do before I leave at 8am on friday and there's agility class in the middle of it all never mind working tomorrow. I promise pics of the new and improved Outback at somepoint this weekend. I want sunshine and it all packed up so you get the full effect.
Have a great nite all. I'm tottering off to bed with my knuckles dragging :H.

[greeneyes]

AF Wednesday, October 6th

papmom3;975456 wrote: I'm tottering off to bed with my knuckles dragging

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