October Optimism - Week 2

[rustop61]

Good morning everyone

Just thought I would kick us off for week 2. Very, very tired this morning. My daughter was at a party last night and I did not get to bed until 2 a.m. Had to be up this morning as she has something on!!!!

Will practice my deep breathing. Anyway hope you all have a wonderful AF Saturday.

Rustop

[bear73]

October Optimism - Week 2

Morning Rustop - I am feeling good today - slept for about 9 hours and a nice day ahead - watching roller derby/pottering doing some washing/cleaning and feeling pleased that my cold seems to be lifting. 2 weeks that's good value!

I'm on week 5 af here/week 1 smoke free and feeling like I've really been doing a lot of soul searching this week re how I feel/behave and how alcohol/cigs/food have kept me stuck rather than comforted me.

It's nice to get some clarity - a friend's ex boyfriend also died last week - in his sleep.
He was 51 - most probably alcohol related,sobering thought - he could be me..

[Chillgirl]

October Optimism - Week 2

Good Morning Optimizers!

Rustop - Thanks for starting week two and please keep breathing

Bear - Lovely to see you, nearly didnt recognize you with the new flower avatar, congrats on getting to week 5 AF! :goodjob:

Cyn - Thank you so so much for your post about boxes and basements it gave me a lump in my throat and was a real comfort. Of course im not going to be homeless Im blessed to know some amazing people who will help me. And I know one day I will look back on this time like you say as my rebirth, there is something peversely freeing about loosing everything.

SD - Please dont fret over losing your post, your here and thats what matters :l

We had a big thunder storm last night and its like God has given everything a good wash, when I walked my dog this morning the earth smelt divine!

[Stargazerlily]

October Optimism - Week 2

Good morning all.

Rustop, thanks for starting week two. Maybe you can fit in a nap later.

Bear, it really seems that the effects of alcohol hit in the late 40's, early 50's. I noticed that older folk, in their 70's and 80's, normally are not big drinkers. I went to a wake last night for a person who died in their sleep, 46 years old. That unsettled me. I want to make sure the rest of my time here is AF. No more regrets.

Chill, good to hear you have people to help you out if you need it. You are amazingly strong, and truly it is a gift that you are AF. Is your date tonight?

Dill, I will have to see if I can find that book you mentioned. Thanks.

We are supposed to have another picture perfect fall day. I have some running around to do and want to work in the yard. The nice days here are probably numbered, so it is important to get out there and enjoy the nice weather while I can. Will try to check in later.

[dill]

October Optimism - Week 2

Good morning Rustop, Bear and Chill, and all to come. Thanks for starting the week, Rustop! And it's nice to have you pop in, Bear. Congrats on your 5 weeks
Chill, we are in need of a good downpour here. Everything is so dry and dusty. But, the Autumn colors are really coming on right now and driving to and from work is the highlight of the day!
Sped, I have a difficult time having heart to heart conversations with my son, too. I think there are many reasons. It's a complex relationship sometimes with adult children.
Rebirth, I'm looking forward to seeing your pics.
SD, I used to have that same problem. Now when I send I click on the Go Advanced button first to preview the post. If I have been logged off the site I get a window that tells me that I need to log in to perform that action. I reenter my log in information and it goes to the Advanced screen. Then I click on the Post Reply button. I'm sorry you had that happen....TWICE! Don't worry about addressing each of us. As Sped said, it can be daunting! The important thing is that that you are with us.
Cyn, that was interesting what you said about people already knowing. (re: divorce) My son's marriage is very unhappy and if one day he announces that they are divorcing, I will have the same reaction your friends had.
Star, I mentioned that book to you because I think you and I are both "seekers" and have a common religious up bringing. The book points out the commonalities between Hinduism, Buddhism and Christianity.
Have a great AF Saturday!

[sdlovespackers]

October Optimism - Week 2

Good Morning All!
I'm no longer in my terrible pouty mood!! Man do I hate feeling like that!! I'm such a baby sometimes :H
Shelley- I enjoyed reading about the wedding a few days ago..it sounded really nice!! I hope someday again to get married...I think...it would most definitely take a VERY special person to get me to walk down the isle again...and an even MORE SPECIAL person to put up with me!! HAHAHA!!!!
Thanks DIll for your advice on NOT losing my posts! I think maybe weekends might be hard again for awhile...didn't help that my staff went out to happy hour (which only happens like twice a year) last night and they called me from the bar "come on down!" Like I said I was pouting!
Chill...sounds like it's date night for you (lucky!!) I haven't dated in in almost a year and a half...although my counselor told me I should hold off...it's more I haven't really wanted to be around anyone. Maybe if I get my yucky sh*t figured out and can keep it figured out, I'd change my mind on the dating subject! Have fun tonight!!!
RB--I don't mean to be nosey but what kind of business do you own and how old is your son? Some of the things you've posted have really hit home with me...having to do with my life with my son. I had to end a relationship with a guy (a cop actually) that LOVED his whiskey...and he was just plain toxic to me and my son...he's just a toxic person in general....but I won't go there...best thing I ever did!!! Not at saying, THAT part is similar to you...but how other people in our lives affect our little ones...it's like we are now "dating for two!"
PAPA3--Congrats on 5 MONTHS!! WAY TO GO!!!!
Bear--CONGRATS on WEEK 5!! It's the week of 5's around here!! Both amazing accomplishments!! I look forward to the day to feel like LAV, and not have those cravings anymore!! LUCKY GIRL!! PAPA3....what are the cravings like at 5months???
I want to keep typing but I'm afraid it will boot my off again...so I'll stop for now and hop back on later...off to pick up leaves in the yard!! Have a great Saturday to everyone yet to stop by!!
SD:l

[ladybirdheart]

October Optimism - Week 2

Hello Week Two. I didn?t make it online the past couple of days and just now read everyone?s posts. I fear I am joining the ranks of people who are not doing very well emotionally right now and the only reason I am not drinking over it is I can?t stand the thought of how much more anxious I would be when the booze wore off. I hate that autonomic rebound; even when life is good my body after excess alcohol acts as though there is a hungry tiger chasing it. I have hit the first major rough patch of my thirteen year marriage and it is a doozy. I caught Lord Bird Heart in a big long lie, actually a whopper. It?s not an affair or anything like that which actually would be preferable, far less threatening. We had a shattering confrontation and now I need to see what he does. I know he is scared and that he tends to ignore things in that state rather than take control and deal with them which will not work in this case. I never thought I could actually threaten a divorce but if he doesn?t put things right, it will be a flat out deal breaker. I am so distracted, I nearly had an accident driving this morning so I am going to spend the day outside safely taking care of things that are in my control. I thank all of you for leading the way with not drinking when things get awful. I will get past this, and I don?t want to find myself in the gutter when I do. Love, Ladybird.

[Rusty]

October Optimism - Week 2

Ladybird,

So sorry:l I hope you and Lord Birdheart can work things out after this horrible experience. I am sure you are devastated and just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you.

Take care of you, and I so admire for getting through this without the chain of AL around your neck.

xoxo

Rusty

[paguy]

October Optimism - Week 2

LBH - Sorry to hear you have hit a rough patch with your husband. Hopefully spending the day outside will help you relax and keep your emotions in check. Sending :l your way.

I am feeling a bit melancholy today - not my usual perky self. It is a gorgeous Fall day outside and I'm feeling very frustrated with my limited mobility. Just 8 more days and I will no longer be a prisoner! (sorry for the drama)

I do plan to sit outside on the patio in a bit and continue to read my latest book.

SD - I have been burned so many times because of the time-out issues on this site, I generally type my message in Microsoft Word and then paste it in here. It has saved me lots of time and frustration!

Peace to everyone....

[sdlovespackers]

October Optimism - Week 2

Thanks Cyn and Paguy for the advice...I will do that when i have my next lengthy one!!
:hug: Group Hug LBH!!! I'm sorry for the hard time in your life right now...you are a complete inspiration for continuing on AF! Tonight I promise to join you....and I can tell you honestly, I was about 90% certain I was going to crack today!! Continue to be strong...we are all here for you!! :h
I really want something super good for dinner...off to search the web for recipes! Peace and sobriety to all!
SD...and GO TWINS!:yougo:

[paguy]

October Optimism - Week 2

sdlovespackers;977985 wrote: SD...and GO TWINS!:yougo:

Oh boy.. PHILLIES fan here!

[Lavande]

October Optimism - Week 2

Good evening kids!

Home from the craft fair exhausted but with some $$ in my pocket
I don't do these sort of things often but they can be interesting. The best part is I came home with business cards from 5 people looking for embroidery services for their businesses :yay:
I only made one purchase myself - it's a 'portrait' of 3 chickens handpainted on rustic wood. I love it, they look just my my chickens

John, I think we went thru this team thing with SD last year too - GO PHILLIES!

LBH, so sorry to hear you're unhappy. Lying, bending the truth, telling half-truths, etc. are all disrespectful behaviors IMHO - you have every right to feel hurt. Hope you get some clarity soon :l

Greetings to Dill, Cyn, Chill, bear (congrats to you on your 5 weeks), rebirth, Red(Star), Shelley, Sooty, Rustop & everyone!!!!

Looking forward to putting these tired feet up soon
Wishing everyone a peaceful & restful evening.
Lav

[dill]

October Optimism - Week 2

LBH, so sorry to hear you are in a bad place right now. Your strength and determination to stay sober in spite of it is inspirational. I sincerely hope that LordBH is able to step up and do what it takes to make things right again. I'll be thinking of you.

Group Hug LBH!!! I'm sorry for the hard time in your life right now...you are a complete inspiration for continuing on AF! Tonight I promise to join you....and I can tell you honestly, I was about 90% certain I was going to crack today!!

SD, good for you letting yourself be inspired this way!

Paguy, I'm sorry you are so frustrated by your situation right now, but I completely understand your feelings. The only thing I can say as consolation is that there will be plenty of good Fall weather left 8 days from now for you to get out and enjoy. Hang in there!

AF greetings Lav, Chill, Papmom, Rusty, Rustop, Sooty, G., RB, Cyn, Bear, Star and Sped.

[cyntree]

October Optimism - Week 2

LBH!!!!! I felt the shock of your situation right down to my toes as I read your post. Bless you for thinking so highly of yourself that you will not 1) stand for whatever has caused this situation, and 2) allow yourself the dreadful, false escape of AL. You really are an INSPIRATION. Just so sorry for the shock and the hurt....

SD - great job on taking on LBH's inspiration - you are doing GREAT to sidestep those early thoughts of 'oh it won't hurt' -- yes it will! (Speaking from personal experience.) And by the way: GO TWINS!!

Dill, our own tech advisor - thanks for posting that info on the Go Advanced. I don't know why I've never clicked on it - some vague fear that I would be found lacking or something...not 'advanced' material...

Lav - glad that your day was fruitful. BTW, I saw a bumper sticker that made me think that you should have it as a quote for one of your blankets: "Horn broken, Watch for finger".

OK, on that slightly naughty note - I wish everyone a good Saturday eve, and I hope that you can take good care of yourselves.

[Guitarista]

October Optimism - Week 2

Greeting's Optomiser's!

Sorry to hear of your troubles LBH. You display a very gutsy attitude not entertaining al, but as you say, it won't help your emotional state, in fact would just escalate thing's. I hope Lord B doeas what he has to do. Hang in there friend, and don't forget the 'Toolbox' thread if you need it.

Congratulation's on 5 weeks af Bear! Keep it going.
Well done on your craft market haul Lav. I'm hoping to do some busking at some market's here over summer, with a few C.D's with me, and who know's where that lead's? It's just great to communicate face to face with the punter's and our art.

A big hello, and warmest, most warmest regard's, to everyone else.