sun 31 oct af daily
Hello friends.
It's been a while since I've posted, so you may want to get up and go get a popcorn ball or something to munch on.
What a busy and full week/week end for me! I need today to just chill. Hubby wants to bring the cows in from pasture and wean the calves though, so the boys are waiting to hear when he is ready to do that. He had to repair some corrals first.
I spent almost all day Friday cleaning up the house and getting ready for the candle party. My vow is to keep it picked up and somewhat clean. I will have to stay on the rest of the family to help me out with this. I was a little chapped when hubby decided to be helpful and fix my toilet that was working just fine, and caused it to leak so now I can't use it. Instead of being pissy about that and the fact he couldn't put his tools away, I thanked him for "fixing" it. I'm feeling kind of resentful with him about his communication issues with me, and I need to get over it. He went to his sister's house for the night of our candle party and that was fine with me. Anyway, too much to go into here, just frustrating!
Yesterday started early getting the kids off to various school ventures, including a wrestling tourney for #2 son. He did well, I love to watch wrestling. I can get a little carried away, I grew up with brothers that wrestled, a boyfriend that was a wrestler and I was a wrestling cheerleader. Most of the moms don't care for this sport, and when I start yelling from the stands for my son to "shoot" or "sprawl" or "half" or "cross-face" they look at me in amazement!:H It was fun.
Last evening was our coalition sponsored Jr high dance--after a penny carnival. It was a success, the kids had fun, and they were not on the streets getting into trouble. I was one of the only ones dressed up--I went as Pinky Tuscadaro. I was so tired, but managed to get by by eating lots of crap!!! My punch was yummy, jello added to make it slimey and body parts included.
#1 son drove 45 miles to his cousins for the night last night. It made me nervous, but I guess I have to let go just a little. He made it there and back safe and sound.
#2 son was invited to a halloween party last weekend complete with a maze and haunted house. He went with friends, and we were invited too, but I didn't realize it was an adult party. He came home with some stories about all the drunk people there, slurring there words and being stupid. I really had to bite my tongue, because I think that is super uncool. Now I know we used to have friends over with their kids and we would party and get drunk and they would see some of our friends over the top and hear things kids shouldn't hear, BUT, they invited almost every kid in town, and there were tons of kids out there around that. I can't get over how important alcohol is in our community and society. And as long as it is so acceptable the kids are going to grow up and do the same things they've watched these "grown ups" do all their life. I feel kind of like a hippocrite, but I really do want to teach people it really isn't that cool. Pap--like the story you related about the couple that doesn't drink. That nails it for me. Sure it can make things seem more fun at the time because for me anyway, it was nice to use al to release some inhibitions. But we should be taught from an early age that we don't NEED al to be who we are or in order to have fun, or to relieve stress, or to celebrate......
Anyway, I'll get off the soapbox now.
DG--I have to slap myself into reality sometimes when I get stressed or get to feeling sorry for myself. So many out there that really have a shitty life, or shitty circumstances, who am I to whine. Our pastor gave a wonderful sermon today about how much stress we create for ourselves by wanting so much "stuff" and forgetting what is really important. It's not the "stuff". You are doing a great job of helping others, and what a joy it is to be able to get out of the bottle and out from ourselves and do that. Addiction creates such selfish behavior.
Greenie, it makes me want to cry thinking about your date with your dad.:l Good for you, and isn't it wonderful how natural it felt?!!:h
Bear, I hope you don't feel picked on here today.:l When I read your posts yesterday about your plans for this evening and then saw you started the thread I was so worried it would start out by saying you drank and smoked. Good for you for following through though! EVERY time you don't do those things in those situations it teaches your brain that is the way it is. I do tend to agree, that you'd be better off just staying away from it for awhile though.
Ok, I have tons more to say, but I really need to get my candle order finished before hubby decides it's time to deal with the livestock.
Happy Halloween all, I am looking forward to an evening with my family, complete with popcorn, pop and some spooky movies. We might even have a couple of extra teenage boys here too. It is kinda nice not to have to take them trick or treating anymore. In the past, we would drive around and drink beer, stop and friends for beers and candy. Later we would go to hubby's sisters house and drink beer while the kids trick or treated. Pretty cool, huh? Not! Life just gets better and better sober!!!:h
Hello friends.
It's been a while since I've posted, so you may want to get up and go get a popcorn ball or something to munch on.
What a busy and full week/week end for me! I need today to just chill. Hubby wants to bring the cows in from pasture and wean the calves though, so the boys are waiting to hear when he is ready to do that. He had to repair some corrals first.
I spent almost all day Friday cleaning up the house and getting ready for the candle party. My vow is to keep it picked up and somewhat clean. I will have to stay on the rest of the family to help me out with this. I was a little chapped when hubby decided to be helpful and fix my toilet that was working just fine, and caused it to leak so now I can't use it. Instead of being pissy about that and the fact he couldn't put his tools away, I thanked him for "fixing" it. I'm feeling kind of resentful with him about his communication issues with me, and I need to get over it. He went to his sister's house for the night of our candle party and that was fine with me. Anyway, too much to go into here, just frustrating!
Yesterday started early getting the kids off to various school ventures, including a wrestling tourney for #2 son. He did well, I love to watch wrestling. I can get a little carried away, I grew up with brothers that wrestled, a boyfriend that was a wrestler and I was a wrestling cheerleader. Most of the moms don't care for this sport, and when I start yelling from the stands for my son to "shoot" or "sprawl" or "half" or "cross-face" they look at me in amazement!:H It was fun.
Last evening was our coalition sponsored Jr high dance--after a penny carnival. It was a success, the kids had fun, and they were not on the streets getting into trouble. I was one of the only ones dressed up--I went as Pinky Tuscadaro. I was so tired, but managed to get by by eating lots of crap!!! My punch was yummy, jello added to make it slimey and body parts included.
#1 son drove 45 miles to his cousins for the night last night. It made me nervous, but I guess I have to let go just a little. He made it there and back safe and sound.
#2 son was invited to a halloween party last weekend complete with a maze and haunted house. He went with friends, and we were invited too, but I didn't realize it was an adult party. He came home with some stories about all the drunk people there, slurring there words and being stupid. I really had to bite my tongue, because I think that is super uncool. Now I know we used to have friends over with their kids and we would party and get drunk and they would see some of our friends over the top and hear things kids shouldn't hear, BUT, they invited almost every kid in town, and there were tons of kids out there around that. I can't get over how important alcohol is in our community and society. And as long as it is so acceptable the kids are going to grow up and do the same things they've watched these "grown ups" do all their life. I feel kind of like a hippocrite, but I really do want to teach people it really isn't that cool. Pap--like the story you related about the couple that doesn't drink. That nails it for me. Sure it can make things seem more fun at the time because for me anyway, it was nice to use al to release some inhibitions. But we should be taught from an early age that we don't NEED al to be who we are or in order to have fun, or to relieve stress, or to celebrate......
Anyway, I'll get off the soapbox now.
DG--I have to slap myself into reality sometimes when I get stressed or get to feeling sorry for myself. So many out there that really have a shitty life, or shitty circumstances, who am I to whine. Our pastor gave a wonderful sermon today about how much stress we create for ourselves by wanting so much "stuff" and forgetting what is really important. It's not the "stuff". You are doing a great job of helping others, and what a joy it is to be able to get out of the bottle and out from ourselves and do that. Addiction creates such selfish behavior.
Greenie, it makes me want to cry thinking about your date with your dad.:l Good for you, and isn't it wonderful how natural it felt?!!:h
Bear, I hope you don't feel picked on here today.:l When I read your posts yesterday about your plans for this evening and then saw you started the thread I was so worried it would start out by saying you drank and smoked. Good for you for following through though! EVERY time you don't do those things in those situations it teaches your brain that is the way it is. I do tend to agree, that you'd be better off just staying away from it for awhile though.
Ok, I have tons more to say, but I really need to get my candle order finished before hubby decides it's time to deal with the livestock.
Happy Halloween all, I am looking forward to an evening with my family, complete with popcorn, pop and some spooky movies. We might even have a couple of extra teenage boys here too. It is kinda nice not to have to take them trick or treating anymore. In the past, we would drive around and drink beer, stop and friends for beers and candy. Later we would go to hubby's sisters house and drink beer while the kids trick or treated. Pretty cool, huh? Not! Life just gets better and better sober!!!:h
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