November Nuturing - Week 1

[Rusty]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Hi Getting Happy!

It's nice to meet you. Glad to meet you! Congratulations on Day 3! Please join us at whatever stage you're in. We are a wonderful thread here...some of us are continuously sober, some not, some struggle (like me) but the point is, you're here and WELCOME!

[ladybirdheart]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Rebirth, sweetie, I can hear how unsettled you are. You did exactly what I have done (as you know more than once) since I started this process, either out of curiosity or some intense emotional state I didn?t think I could stand for one more minute. The fact that it did not go horribly only served to confuse me, I started thinking all kinds of things, wondering if my extended period of sobriety had ?normalized? me in some way so that I could drink again with immunity. It sure made it easier, more seductive, more probable to take another drink in the days that followed. I now hate being in that frame of mind enough for it to be a deterrent itself. There is a place in my heart that always knows the truth, that I am better off without alcohol ninety-five percent of the time and that is a really big number to mess with. Much of the time I still feel I will never, ever stop turning to alcohol no matter how many days or months or years I may not, and this makes me feel crazy. As people have said today, however, we may be in the dark but we can not stop the dawn from breaking and it will be in our best interests to witness it while awake and free. May it wash over us like a big warm wave. Love to you, Rebirth, and to everybody, welcome gettinghappy, Ladybird.

[rebirth]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Rusty you are just the best. xxx
Ladybird - Intense emotional state is what I have been feeling for nearly 6 weeks. It was very risky of me to drink again but I had a strong desire to see how I would react..whether I would relapse into a drunken heap for weeks or months, or just shrug it off and get back to my sobriety as though I never drank in the first place. But I agree with you, I am better off without alcohol and as long as i am a binge drinker, I am better off not drinking at all.

A couple of my best girlfriends abstain during the week but get very drunk on the weekends. They think they are okay..I dont think they are.

Arghh. Just need to stop thinking.

[Chillgirl]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Good Evening Nurturers

Rebirth - In the perfect world, abstaining all week and having a couple of wines at the weekend *sigh* i'd sign up for that but its just not reality and that voice telling you its maybe possible is the lying little alcohol monster trying to lure you back in... Tell him quite firmly to go **** himself!!!

SD - CONGRATULATIONS ON 1 MONTH AF!!!! HERE"S TO MANY MORE :yougo: :yougo: :yougo:

Its a bank holiday here today "All Saints day" and I have been away all afternoon with my cycle group on a very tough ride. Got home, soaked in the bath, lite the fire and have my pj's on ready for a relaxing night in. Last night I was ready for my 1st quiet night in alone when Mr Libra turned up I have to say I didnt mind one bit.....:h

It looks like I have been offered a job guys and Im so happy I cant believe how fortunate I am. Im meeting my new boss tomorrow morning and will hopefully start later this week. Its to be just 3 days to begin with which is just perfect as the money is excellent, the office is only 5 minutes from where I live and I have the opportunity to earn bonus's.

Its as a PA to an Indepentent Financial Advisor dealing with investments and tax advice for British expats living over here. I know the guy i will be working for from a few years ago and then he turned up on in my cycle group. He offered it to me without even advertizing the job and I am emmensely grateful as he could easily found someone far more qualified for the position than me.

[SpiritGirl]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Today is day one for me...Again... I have been a member of MWO for more than 3 years and have not been able to beat AL... I get embarrassed and disappointed and get afraid to post .... I get tired of writing the same things, and don't feel deserving of the support - since I continue to choose not to use it..

With that being said, I believe I need MWO to make it... So here I am .... Back in the saddle... I pray I can find strength this time... I don't want to go through the holidays full of regrets... I don't want to go through LIFE full of regrets....

[papmom3]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Good Things Come to Those Who Wait (and to good people). Congratulations Chill on the prospect of a new job!! I sincerely hope and pray it is a good fit for you and fulfills you emotionally, mentally as well as financially. See what networking does for one?? :goodjob:

Spirit Girl-Welcome Back. :l :l :l to you. I think your statement that you CHOOSE not to listen or act on the support and advice offered is very telling. Are you now ready to receive help? We are here for you if you are.

SD-way to go on your first month of sobriety!! That is so awesome and I'm glad you are super excited about it!!

RB-:hug:. That is all.

OK, gotta run but wanted to check in.

[Chillgirl]

November Nuturing - Week 1

:welcome: Spiritgirl to our nurturing thread...
1st off get these "embarrassed, disappointed and non deserving" thoughts right out your head! They do us no good, replace them with loving thought about yourself which will make you want to nurture yourself by being AF instead of negative thoughts that you are not worthy of being sober... You CAN do this and the fact you keep coming back shows you want this and believe you can with the help of MWO.

Today's calendar affirmation reads I feel so much gratitude for all the joy I've experienced this year. I've learned that expressing joy brings more joy into my life. The secrets of life are simple and easy. When I think back to Nov 2009 I shudder at the depths I'd reached and the hopelessness I was feeling. But I'm grateful for sinking so low that I finally saw the truth, today I'm 10 months sober, finally double figures and I wouldn't have missed this journey for the world!

Papmom x posts :l

[rebirth]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Chill - Well done! You deserve all these wonderful things happening to you :l

Hi Spirit. Guess I will be joining you on Day one. Its not an easy battle. :l

Hi P3:l

Feel like hugging everyone today cause it was a close call!!

[paguy]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Rebirth, our dear friend. Don't beat yourself up - I know you have been struggling lately and maybe you felt you needed to test yourself. It sounds like you know what you need to do. As Rusty said, this is all a part of the recovery process and we learn each day along the way. We are here for you. :l

Chill - Way to go and Congratulations on the job! You sound so positive and content - it really shines through and I'm happy for you.

SpiritGirl - Welcome! I think you will find this thread is very welcoming and non-judgemental. Feel free to be yourself and DO NOT feel embarassed to post here. You are amongst friends.

Since several of us have admitted to being perfectionists and having 'control' issues (including yours truly), I thought I would share today's meditation from The Promise of a New Day as it resonated with me:

Things and events have their own order. It's human to want to impose order from the outside - our order; but often, our attempt to put things in order resembles the old man who tried to push the river. It never went any faster, and if he stopped pushing, it got there just the same.

Some people seem to have a knack for order. It could be that they've learned to let things take their own shape. If order is natural, then maybe disorder is what we create with our human fussing. It could be, too, that disorder is in the eye of the beholder - especially if the beholder is a perfectionist.

Serenity is the ability to appreciate natural order.

[papmom3]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Good evening November Nurturers!!

Chill, I forgot to say thank you for that wonderful summary of October!!
CONGRATULATIONS ON 10 MONTHS!!
You should be very proud of yourself!! You have been through so much in the past year and have dealt with all of it with grace and dignity. Now the yellow brick road opens before you!

John-thanks for the meditation for today. Very nice and so true!

Below is from an email my agility trainer sent to us today. It was in an article written by another dog trainer about being a good student.

Failure should be our teacher, not our undertaker. Failure is delay, not defeat. It is a temporary detour, not a dead end. Failure can be avoided only by saying nothing, doing nothing, and in the end, being nothing.
~ Denis Waitley

Notice the difference between what happens when a man says to himself, "I have failed three times," and what happens when he says, "I am a failure."
~ S.I. Hayakawa

Have a great nite all!!

:l

[Lavande]

November Nuturing - Week 1

WOW!

So much activity here today.
Chill, congrats on the new job offer & congrats on your AF 10 months - WTG!!

Rebirth, sorry you felt the need to test yourself yesterday BUT I think quite possibly you've learned a lot about yourself. You have had a rough time lately on the personal front - I really do understand. Brush yourself off & hop back on the Sooty bus with the rest of us

Hello & welcome SpiritGirl! Drop the negativity asap - really! Think positively about yourself & what you want to achieve! I did it & have never been sorry. Stick with us, we have a strong crowd here.

John, we're the same age (I think) & I find my inborn need for perfection dwindling away with the years. It's just basically easier to sit back & let most stuff happen as it may. Old age = wisdom

P3 - failure has always been my best teacher!!!

Greetings to everyone & wishes for a peaceful night.
I had a better day today than I've had in weeks

[papmom3]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Yea Lav!! :h :l You sound good girl! You're such an inspiration to us all and for me personally you were one of the first people to welcome me to MWO. When you're hurting we're all hurting and just want to make it better for you even tho we can't.

Sleep tight!!

[sdlovespackers]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Hey All!
Just poppin' on to say good night!! Total headache tonight...not sure how my writing exam went tonight...had a complete brain fart after I got done reading the first question...wasn't sure if I was going to cry or get up and walk out....seriously anything "education" related went right out the window!! :H I honestly told myself to just start writing down any "school or education" words I could think of....I started...desk, chair, teacher, principal....slowly I kicked my butt into gear...What the heck??? Major test anxiety or what? I'm sure I did fine in the end....I was there writing the entire two hours though!!

Ok...I need your guys' HONEST opinion!!! I have to read a book on a Transformational Leader for this class and then do a short report on it. I REALLY want to do my report on Roberta Jewell. I think her approach and method to AL is one that will continue to catch on and I can see becoming a "new way" in which therapist help clients overcome this battle...more privately. I don't think it's widely known in the US right now....or even AL medications being used outside treatment facilities are all that common unless you know to ask for them from a doctor (or perhaps I'm speaking from small town USA). But I was reading an article that said that in school age kids that 1 in 4 has a parent that suffers for alcohol abuse....and that in the past decade the misuse of prescription meds has increased 400%!!! I don't want to state the fact it said regarding women/moms and AL abuse but it was very alarming as well...another reason why I see Roberta's program taking off in years to come!! Anyway...I really feel she is going to transform how people seek therapy for some of these "problems"....rather than the traditional methods of treatment facilities, AA, etc. So what do you guys think??? I hope this all made sense...

Chill--CONGRATS ON 10 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!! :yay::yay::yay: You rock girl!!! Way to go the job too!!!

RB--you are not on Day one....you slipped....you can't think of yourself as starting over....don't negate all you've done!!!!

Lav--I'm so glad you've had such a great day!! That's so great to hear!!!

Paguy-I loved your meditation...it was awesome!!
:welcome: Spiritgirl! You'll find lots of strength here!!!
I'm off to bed!! This girl is beat!!!
G'd nite!
SD

[Chillgirl]

November Nuturing - Week 1

Good morning nurturers

Rebirth - when a top tennis player looses a match they don't go back to tennis academy, they regroup and work on they're weaknesses. You are already a high ranker so get back on top girl!

Paguy - I loved you reading on order, I'm slowly learning at accept natures order, I'm a great lover of Byron Katie's work and she always says when we argue against reality we loose 100% of the time, swimming against that tide is also pretty exhausting.

Papmom - your quotes on failure gave me goosebumps, especially "should be our teacher, not our undertaker", thank you :l

Lav - I echo Papmom, you are the backbone here for us and your strength can be felt so clearly.

SD - re your report on transformational leaders, I think it would be wonderful to use Roberta Jewell! It's all over the headline news here at the moment how AL is the most destructive substance over some pretty hard illegal drugs. It destroys more families and relationships than cocaine or heroin. It's the single most cause of accidents and emergency in our hospitals. I can totally believe it's a problem to 1 in 4 parents! I think in the next ten years society is going to have to wake up to just how bad this is and make huge changes in how AL is seen. Maybe one day it will be treated with the leprosy of smoking..... Here's hoping!

Woke up after a much needed good nights sleep, feeling on top of the world, I have a spin class 1st at the gym which will get me pumped up, then my interview! I will check in later.....

[rebirth]

November Nuturing - Week 1

paguy;994576 wrote: Serenity is the ability to appreciate natural order.[/I][/B]

I need to implant that one in my head John.A lovely message, thank you.I think it was a test John. I was forgettiing why I had given up AL and needed to see what the commotion was all about. I didnt even enjoy my drink. I didnt think " Ah...This is what I have been missing for the past five months".. I actuelly feel better for it? If that makes sense.

P3- I shall be requoting your message over and over in my head. It's such s positive message and perfect for how i am feeling right now. I do see my slip as a learning process as its shown me that my preference is to lead a sober life.

SO MUCH WISDOM ON THIS THREAD!!!!

SD I would definitely tell people about this site. I think that the more options an addict has, the better. Some people are too freaked out by AA so this is a very good option. Go for it girl!

Lav Bless yah. I have picked myslef up. This is Day two of my recovery and i am feeling GOOD!! xx

Hello to everyone who visits this thread. Have a lovely tuesday