My meeting was an unbelievably pleasant surprise. It's funny, I really thought I would just stick with MWO, but I haven't been able to get AA out of my mind. I kept putting it off because I didn't want to deal with the religious part of it. But, by the same token, I think lacking a spiritual component to one's life really fuels alcoholism. I'm going to eventually read a book called the Tao of Sobriety because I think it addresses this exact subjet. My problem with religion is that I don't think anyone has the truth with a capital T. I know AA was founded on Christian principals, and while I think we should all be able to choose how we worship/what we believe in, I was reluctant to go to AA because it's based on a religion that thinks it has the truth with a capital T.
Sorry, to have gone on a diatribe, but I'm trying to give some background into my thinking and how it relates to AA.
NOW, having said all that, I decided to go anyway. I read something by someone in AA (I think it was Bugz) and he talked about just sort of biting the bullet and getting over that and going to AA anyway because he had gotten the benefit of making friends with sober people. THAT'S really what clicked for me. That, regardless of everything else, AA would help me be face to face with others who understood alcoholism and were working to stay sober. Doggygirl's posts also have made me see AA differently and want to try it.
I'm adding a bit more here because it's the AA Thread:
The meeting I went to was all women, and I immediately felt a bond. I got two chips which made me feel wonderful. And, I loved the way they passed the chips around and everyone held them - it felt like they were giving me unconditional love. It made me want to cry and still does. I felt like something transcendent was going on there - a true gift.
So, thank you DG for all of you wonderful posts that inspired me to try this. I think it's going to be a huge part of my recovery - that is real recovery, not just abstaining from drinking alcohol, but the true gratitude of loving my sober life.:l
Choochie
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