December Determination ~ Week 3

[rebirth]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Hi Sooty, chill and Lav,

Ugh. Been eating very badly the past week. I guess I feel very stressed.

My fruit loop stalker will be getting a call from the police because she has sent me another abusive email. They are going to give her a warning and remind her that she could be charged for harassment if she continues. It's a shame it has to be this way but I have to do whats necessary. sigh

[paguy]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Hi Folks, just a quick check in. Just arrived home from work. Very stressful day with last minute end of year challenges and the stress of the season. VERY strong cravings on the drive home. I keep telling myself I WON'T, I WON'T, I WON'T. I'm OK... have to keep myself busy. Gotta' walk the dog, feed him, and sort through some mail and bills..... The demon is always there!

John

[Chillgirl]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Paguy - Im so sorry you have been hit with these cravings, do you think its the time of year?
I suddenly thought tonight "shit i cant have a glass of champagne on Christmas day" :upset:

Lav - keep your protective barrier up for YB's visit, dont let any negativity penatrate, I hope it goes well. I have a brief meeting tomorrow with my ex which will be weird so close to Christmas.

Rebirth - This bloody woman is so tiresome and this is shit you having to put up with her, I really hope the police get rid of her.

Lav, i wondered tonight if i might be changing my mind too As I thought he told me how much he cares about me, poor guy has no plans for Christmas Eve or Christmas day, can I send him over to your place :H I have an early drink arranged on Chrsitmas eve with some girlfriends and nearly told him to come over later but just stopped myself. Christmas day Im at friends for dinner and they were the friends who introduced us but its not my place to invite him...... darn

[Lavande]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Chill,

The YB visit was ok. He stayed all of 45 minutes to hand over the paperwork I needed, had a half a cup of coffee & left. He's looking more pathetic than ever, still not shaving, ugh! I asked him if he had plans for Christmas & his response was I DON"T KNOW! Was I supposed to know what that meant??????
I told him I'm cooking & the kids are coming over Christmas eve & left it at that. You can send your friend here for dinner - I won't hurt him :H

John & Chill - I got thru Christmas just fine last year & totally AF.
It was the year before that I had made an a$$ of myself & I swore it would never happen again. Actually, YB was so fraking miserable last Christmas I just stayed to myself & enjoyed the day. Don't seriously entertain any drinking toughts........it's not worth it!

Time to throw another log on the fire.

[paguy]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Early morning folks. Made it through the night OK - only overindulged on a pizza so feeling a bit bloated but I can deal with that!

Just by coincidence, a friend of ours stopped by the house for a visit last night who we have not seen in months. He is 42, got married a few years ago and now has 2 children less than 2 years old. So, he was sharing with us what fatherhood has done for him and surprisingly, he talked about how little he drinks anymore. He said that although being a parent is the most difficult thing he has ever had to do, it doesn't even compare to being hungover every day. In essence, he was telling us he had no regrets replacing drinking every night and being hung over every morning with fatherhood. It was the perfect opportunity for me to tell him that I have not had a drop of alcohol since July. I felt great and so liberated telling him that. So, despite have a wretched stressful day, it ended up not so bad afterall (aside from the overindulging on pizza!)

Working from home today with a PT session mid-day.... Will be checking in later....

[Stargazerlily]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Good morning to all.

I am so happy I am off work till Monday. I already baked a bit this morning, and have made a list of holiday stuff to do. I have a little bit of shopping, an extra gift or two for family. Just nice to be away from work.

PAguy, glad you made it through the craving. :thumbsup It is not easy, but it is good to know ourselves, as in I know I have to eat something to overcome the feeling.

Chill, he sounds like a nice guy, sometimes the best relationships grow out of friendship. Sometimes, I am not trying to tell you what to do.

Lav, good to hear your meeting with YB was not too painful. What it on your menu for Christmas Eve?

LBH good to hear from you, your trip sounds great. Your babies missed you. Now the catching up for Christmas to do.

All I know is that I feel free, AF and work free. Will probably check in later.

[Lavande]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Good morning kids

Sunny this morning, I like that!

Star, my menu is strange - I make something for everyone. Having two pregnant girls in my midst means extra kitchen time :H So I have a small ham & turkey, macaroni cheese (for the pregnant girls) perogies (for me) & various veggie sides. For dessert I have about 1000 cookies ready & I'm making a German Appel Strudel (for me ) I will have leftovers to eat for days.

John, glad you got thru last night unscathed!
I have to agree with your friend, drinking just wasn't important when the kids are little like that. I started after they were grown & moving on because I really felt the lonliness then.
The grandkid(s) are my savior......if not for them I'd still be sitting here surrounded by wine bottles. Thank God for little kids

I am on my winter break starting today. My shop stays dark until Jan 3. I've learned to say NO to people hounding me for last minute gifts. Sorry, I need the break, mentally. I use my time to seriously clean my shop, get my stock organized, file my sales tax, etc.

So, on that not I wish everyone a terrific AF Thursday!
Lav

[spedteach]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Morning everyone,
Things going surprisingly well here. My new DIL has been in high spirits since they arrived which has made things so much easier around here. In the past she could get very brooding, isolating from everyone. She is a brainiac biochem grad student but we have discovered we are both addicted to the sitcom, The Office. We have been sitting around together watching reruns on my computer. Common ground!
I had a rough time at a neighborhood holiday party last night. It's hard to stand around for hours with people who are ALL holding wine glasses or beer bottles. Ended up leaving early, walking home. Self preservation, folks. Know my family is appreciating my sobriety more than my party attendance.

Chill, Libya sounds pretty interesting. Do you know what city you would live in? Girl, you are really on the fence with Mr. McWhateverhisname is!

Cyn, I love the phrase,loving detachment. Hope you have a white Christmas in Nebraska. Will you be in Lincoln? Great quilt museum there.

Star, so happy you're finally off work. Believe me, the clean sheets comment elicited plenty of brotherly ribbing.

LBH, welcome home. I saw that sunrise. Hope we can see each other before I leave again mid January. Glad you are reunited with your animal family.

Lav, think everyone thought you were actually spending Christmas alone. My Christmas dinner is going to be vegetarian, that's as far as I've gotten.

Gotta dash, wish I had snow to dash through.

[sooty]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Hello everyone, hope we're all doing ok and managing to keep warm and safe.

I went for a "proper" walk using the yak track things this morning - what a difference and why had I never heard of them before? They are amazing. I didn't do any tricks or anything but it was possible to walk across ice without even slipping! Mr S (who is far too macho to need anything like them) and the dog were slipping all over the place - but I soldiered on. You would have been proud of me.

Well only 2 more sleeps till the man in red appears. Boy will I be glad when its all over.

Have a good Thursday everyone
from a very bah humbuggy Sooty

[Chillgirl]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Hi Guys

Lav - love apple strudel especially with a dollop of double cream on top.... Im going to enjoy the last of my sweet tooth over the next week, I have allowed this over indulgence as a treat for giving up AL but the New Year is going to see some healthier habits.

Sooty Im laughing at Mr Macho slip sliding away while you march out in your yak tracks :H

I never got to see my ex today, I called by the office but he was out and had left me 300 euros. I so wanted to give him a Christmas hug, I have an over whelming urge to tell him he may be down but he is loved. He leaves 1st thing for Holland so it will need to wait......

Sped - The job in Libya would be in the capital, Tripoli but Im having very mixed feelings about it. Love the thought of you and DIL sharing laughter at "the office", I used to love the British version.

I feel I have reached a good compromise with McNotdreamy and have invited him round on Christmas morning for brunch and a walk on the beach before we both go elsewhere for dinner. He was delighted! Maybe I should give this relationship a go, I feel with everything else going on I havent really got the frame of mind to deal with it but the distraction could be welcome. What is it they say? If you cant have the one you love, love the one you're with.......

[Chillgirl]

December Determination ~ Week 3

I sent Oliver (my ex) a text wishing him the best and saying that im here if ever he needs me, he replied saying he always there for me too and added a private joke we used to share :upset: im a stupid sentimental wee girl but I just had to tell him.......

[Lavande]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Good afternoon folks!

Shelley, glad you found common ground with your DIL.
I AM spending Christmas Day alone as far as I know. Not a damn thing I can do about it. I'll make myself happy with tomorrow night's event.

Sooty, your Yak Tracks sound pretty cool. I should think about getting myself a pair so I can make it to the chicken house & mail box without fear of falling!

Chill, I just picked up some reduced fat vanilla ice cream to top the strudel......that will have to do.
That reminds me - this is for Papmom:
https://www.giantfoodstores.com/shareddev/greatent/index.html?item_id=2081

[papmom3]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Awww Chill-that's OK. It's good to be sentimental and a wee girl !! It's obvious that you and Oliver care very much for each other even tho the marriage didn't survive. I hope you two will continue to be there for each other as very good friends. How nice that he left you some money-should help a little right?

As far as McDreamy/Libra goes, just go with the flow, don't force anything. If it feels right, go for it. I think it's sweet you two will share xmas brunch and a walk on the beach together. Very fitting.

I do see things coming together for you at the new year. And I'm with you all the way with the healthier habits. I think I need to find that Potatoes not Prozac book and give it a good read. May hold the key for me with this horrible sugar addiction.

LBH-welcome back!! So glad you had a great time and enjoyed yourself and stayed AF!! Oh my, your poor pets! How they do let us know their feelings :H.

Cyn-glad things are getting back to normal for you. I forget-did the house actually sell or was it a false alarm?

Rusty-we miss you but hoping you're enjoying some down time.

Sped-so happy you and your DIL have found some common ground and the visit is so much more pleasant than you thought it would be. Just a few more days right? Oh, we only have about an inch of snow but you can have it!!

Sooty-you rock with the Yak Traks!! I bet your hubby is dying to get a pair after watching you on the ice this morning. I don't think they make them for doggies tho! :H

John-way to go on resisting the craving! WE CAN do this! All it takes in one and if we don't let that one pass our lips we are golden!! Hope you PT session went well.

Star, Lav, Rustop-enjoy your down time and the rest of the season. I'm up for a chat on xmas morning as long as I get my gifts wrapped early. I'm due at my sister's around 2pm I think but it might be earlier.

One more day of work (hoping the powers to be will let us go early tomorrow) and then technically a week off but I have so much work to do in prep for the incoming January class I'll actually be working but from home with the pups at my feet and the TV on in the background. I'll take it!!

[papmom3]

December Determination ~ Week 3

xpost Lav! What is the link supposed to do? It's asking for my zip code and we don't have any Giant stores in my area.

[Chillgirl]

December Determination ~ Week 3

Papmom - I have heard great things about Potatoes not prozac, would love you to share some tips from it after the holidays!