AF Daily - Friday 12/17

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Thanks for the great advice everyone. I'm not going to actively call him but if he calls me again I will tell him right away. It has been making me paranoid (in my own house!) and I really don't like it, and I feel like I have no privacy. I really treasure and value my privacy and I feel like he's taking it from me. Or should I just call him and get it off my chest? Because I can't stop thinking about it, it's been bothering me for days now.

[Marshy]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Hello abbers!

Snowing here today and heavy snow forecast for tomorrow. No chance of me being unable to get to work though even if everything does grind to a halt - I could walk it in a couple of hours if necessary.

Pride - very interesting couple of pars there, especially about brain damage and denial. If I ever plough my way through 10 19th-century novels and a book my counsellor has recommended I read about, um, some counselling thing (personality types, I think), I'll look up the full article.

Snowy mojo vibes going out there to all who need them.

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

We are really getting a s*** load of snow here today! It really does look like a winter wonderland here now.

[bear73]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

hey all - am in pjs watching tv writing christmas cards tonight.
i drank on saturday 2 beers - wanted more - felt rubbish and I feel like a failure.I also looked at old work pics when i was thinner than now and realised that I looked huge. very unhappy with how i look physically - really spotty at the moment.

each time i drank recently volume wise i've kept a lid on it but i know that won't last - and it's bee na strugggle. part of me wants to gte totally wasted BUT when i start feelign a bit drunk i don't like it - i feel sulky like i'm just being carried along by something.
I've been feeling very left out of things due to not drinking - went to team party last friday sober as i was driving - felt v awkward everyone v drunk dancing - felt v self conscious.left quite early - need to get over that type of thinking.

part of me is really craving booze and wanting to get pissed and thinking i'll feel really left out if i don't have wine this christmas - maybe i can moderate thoughts etc etc.
The better part of me says I never have been able to moderate before and I know that - I'm proud for not drinking tonight - got my period to so feeling blue.
This is an invite to kick my ass - I plan to trawl through old posts seeing how happy i felt at 2 months af!

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Pride and Lav-I'm getting very nervous about Sunday's storm. Now that I have all wheel drive I'm expected to get into work no matter what. My real fear is all the shoveling. I've been working out but it hasn't been long enough to really build up the stamina I'll need to get through a couple of hours of heavy snow. The good thing (great really) is that I won't have a drop of AL in my body so it won't be fighting those aftereffects as well. Unlike last winter!!

Bear-what can I say? One of my agility friends is about your age and I know she drinks a lot-always commenting on how hungover she is on weekends and how she gets drunk every nite. Now she's suffering from extreme gastric reflux for the past week and she can't eat anything without symptoms. I've been there-one of the many reasons I decided to stop drinking this year-and I put that out there for her. She didn't want to hear it at all. She's not ready to face the facts about her drinking-she still thinks she young enough that it's OK and normal. You at least know it's not normal but you can't seem to come to terms with living a life without AL yet you know without a doubt you can't mod for a long period of time. All I can do is hope both of you come to terms with the truth while you are still young enough to build a wonderful AF life (or should I say a life without poison). Although better late than never, health wise I could have prevented a lot of damage, physically and psychologically, had I faced up to it in my 30's when I knew deep down there was a problem. I can only hope that now in my 50's my body will still have some regenerating and healing abilities.

Green Bean-definitely call the Hospice agency and let them know you are still interested. If you happen to be speaking with the HR person, you can always throw out there the "is there any further info I can give you?" Loved the snippet of the article. I so wish I had hours on end so I could delve into all this wonderful info you guys are always giving us!! Right now if I get my xmas shopping done before xmas I'll be happy!!

DG-very jealous of your treetop bedroom/spa!!

M3-I'm so sorry about your accident!! Lots of ice and rest OK? Keeping positive thoughts for a speedy recovery and sending very gentle hugs.

Gia-tough call about your "friend". I hate confrontation but I guess we do have to protect our boundaries. I do like that homemade sign idea tho-gets the message across without having to explain oneself. Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

Pride-I'm very beige today-haven't done a lick of work and I've got mounds in front of me. Sigh.

LVT-you've got quite the battle on your hands. I do hate FB for just that reason but I do have an account. I'm just really careful what I post and I don't get involved in any discussions. Hope everything turns out OK.

For all of you dealing with the snow-be safe!! I hope we in the NE won't be joining you anytime soon although I think that is very wishful thinking considering the forecast for Sunday nite. Grrrrr.

Have I missed anyone? Hope not!! If so-Hi and hope you're having a fabbie AF day!!

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Pap..LOL..he's not that kind of 'friend'...no thank you! I don't have any friends like that. That made me laugh.

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Thinking about it though I sometimes wish I did...but it definetely would not be him.

[Determinator]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Aloha Friday ABeroooooos!

lets kick this weekend up a notch in true AF style.

privacy issues/4th amendment issues are biggies on my list as well. naturally I was very relieved to see this administrations cell phone tracking bill shot down recently in federal court:

Federal court blocks Obama Administration attempt to spy on cell phones without a warrant | Raw Story

tracking your cell phone location without a warrant? WTF? how incredibly arrogant and elitist!
the really mind blowing thing is that the press hasn't bothered to cover this. I'm stunned and in disbelief.
ok, calming down here....

just made it home last night before this latest snow storm blew in thankfully. Dx is baking brownies and I'm trying to be sugar free. eeeeeeeek. just one eh? oh boy that sounds familiar.

be strong everyone and stay warm xxxxxx

[Marshy]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Hi bear, have you tried counselling (either general or addiction)? You seem to be stuck in this endless loop of saying you won't drink/smoke/eat junk etc, then doing it, and then feeling bad about yourself.

When I saw an addiction counselllor two years ago he said a lot of his work was helping people who felt "stuck" in their lives and couldn't see how to get out of the cycle they were in.

I've recently started seeing a general counsellor (only because it was free!) but am already finding it useful to have someone who gives me a different point of view or has a different perspective on things.

People here and in your life can give you advice but I've found it really does make a difference to talk to a professional about these things - someone who is trained to do this stuff, who is not involved in your life, has no agenda or emotional involvement with you and can help you see things differently and work with you to find a way out of your "stuck" situation.

[Pride before Fall]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

WTF is right, but that policy's been around awhile--remember the consumer privacy lawsuits against AT&T a few years ago for supplying the NSA with call data? Bugged the heck out of me. Go after the agency that gave the illegal order to gather and turn over the data, IMHO, not the companies complying.

NSA warrantless surveillance controversy - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

[Pride before Fall]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

(x-post: Hi Marshy!)

[Chief]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Hi All!

Day 17 and all is well. Getting dug out from the snow and doing last minute Christmas stuff. I feel good. I'm not having any real cravings, just occasional thoughts about drinking....or maybe it's occasional thoughts realizing I'm NOT drinking....

Have a great AF Friday!

Don

[Chief]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Gia,

After reading this thread I would be remiss if I didn't offer you my help. Though it would be a great sacrifice, I would be willing to come and spend a few days (and nights, of course...for security reasons) to let this gentleman know his presence is no longer required.

I'm sure we could make something happen....

Don

[Determinator]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Pride, great link thank you.

Chief, you sound so positive and resolute. great to have you back buddy

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Friday 12/17

Chief;1024379 wrote: Gia,

After reading this thread I would be remiss if I didn't offer you my help. Though it would be a great sacrifice, I would be willing to come and spend a few days (and nights, of course...for security reasons) to let this gentleman know his presence is no longer required.

I'm sure we could make something happen....

Don

Don, you are such a good friend. In the utmost of security reasons ofcourse..I'll even cook for you. :H