AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

[Brigitte Bardot]

Good morning Abbers!

Today my little girl goes with her father. My parents and I have been talking to her and she has helped packed her over night bag, jammies, extra clothes, books to read, a few toys. I really hope she has a good visit. She doesn't want to take her books with her because she says she's coming home for bedtime..so we'll see how this all pans out. I'll be sticking close to the phones anyway.

Now much else to report, that's the only thing I can think about right now...time to decorate her princess cupcakes since she wants to take some of them with her.

Have a great day everyone!

[greeneyes]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

Morning Fabbies!

BB, she'll be fine... A project would be good for you today. Or some good movies? Whassa princess cupcake?

AFM, thinking of you!

LVT you too... chin up ~ you take care of YOU!

Lunch with friends was fun, but I was charged the "drink" price for a virgin mary. I guess that means they were giving away vodka yesterday. Pissed me off as I would not have ordered a $6 spicy tomato juice.

Make sure you buy your aspirin and saline, etc before the end of the year if you have an HSA. You'll need a prescription next year. idiots

Zooming off to get a head start on the to do list!

Have a happy AF day!

[Lavande]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

Good morning BB & Greenie!

Spent a nice time celebrating my BD with my kids & EB yesterday
No YB sightings, phone calls or emails.........apparently I am invisible!

My to do list is growing so I 'd better get going.
Thinking of you AFM, LVT & everyone.

Have a sane AF Monday.
Lav

[universal]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

Morning abbers!

BB - chin up - she'll be fine! I agree with Greeny - find a project for today to keep yourself busy.

Today is my therapy day (yeah!) We will have to start filling out the paperwork etc. for my LTD claim. Pain in the arse but necessary. At least I'll feel better knowing that we have gotten the process going.

Other than that a pretty chilled out day for us here. Going to do a puzzle with my little one, clean the kitchen and that's about it!

Have a great one everyone.

Love and hugs,
Uni

[Accountable for Me]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

Good morning,

I am still around... still sober

Dad hasn't passed yet. The doctor's say it can be days once a person goes into a coma. I am amazed that he is hanging on. He is a very strong man. However, it has been a horrible ride from Hell. I go and see him everyday still. I sat with him for 6 hours on Saturday. Little AFM had a birthday party yesterday, so I stayed with dad for 2 hours. She is on holidays now, so I am kind of stressed how I am going to make a visit work. She is a very antsy child, and I have no one to take her, so I guess we will have to make the visits short. They have volunteers there and a family room, so hopefully I can wrangle up something???

I hope he doesn't wait until Christmas Day to pass. I don't know how I would feel about Christmas after that....?? It is hard enough trying to pull Christmas off this year.

Sorry I haven't been around the boards much. I will check in when I can.

Lots of love to you all. xoxo

[greeneyes]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

AFm, whatever you do will be enough. I buried my mothers ashes on my birthday. I'm fine with that ~ it seemed appropriate somehow. She ushered me in, I ushered her out. I sort of celebrate both our lives on my birthday. I don't view death as a finality; just a parting from that particular physical body. I smile when I feel her presence and even laugh out loud when something happens that I know would amuse her ~ especially in an "I told you so" way. Try to put worry aside and focus on honoring his life and the gratitude you feel for being a part of his journey. :l

[lucky 2.0]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

AFM,

Just wanted to let you know I am holding you close in my heart. I know this is a tough time. So glad you are sober!

I really liked greenies response. She always seems to know the right thing to say.

Wishing you some peace.

[Lavande]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

AFM,
Glad you are hanging in & I just want you to know my Mom has been gone nearly 25 years & I can still see her face, hear her voice. She's still close to me, that comforts me.

I would like to ask for a show of hands -
How many people here had a GOAT run in front of their car today????? I DID :H:H
No kidding! I didn't hit him but it was pretty close. Since moving to cow country 7 years ago I have seen many, many deer on the road, 1 loose cow & the occasional loose horse but a goat???? No way!!

That was all the excitement I needed for a Monday.
I wonder what's in the cards for tomorrow........

[Accountable for Me]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

greeneyes;1026049 wrote: AFm, whatever you do will be enough. I buried my mothers ashes on my birthday. I'm fine with that ~ it seemed appropriate somehow. She ushered me in, I ushered her out. I sort of celebrate both our lives on my birthday. I don't view death as a finality; just a parting from that particular physical body. I smile when I feel her presence and even laugh out loud when something happens that I know would amuse her ~ especially in an "I told you so" way. Try to put worry aside and focus on honoring his life and the gratitude you feel for being a part of his journey. :l

:l Love it, Greenie! Thank you!

xoxo to luCKy and Lav; and all to the rest of you.

Funny thing is that on Wednesday, when I had that total breakdown and drank, and cried, and cried some more, I have felt somewhat at peace since then. I am starting to accept he will no longer be with us soon. It is high time for his suffering to end. I think I will feel relieved for him. He is no longer the 'dad' I have wonderful memories of. Yet, I will always hold him in extremely high regard, and will cherish those wonderful times together.

I did get to see him today very briefly as Little AFM came along. I gave her a couple of Popsicles (the hospital is always loaded with those ) and held his hand and told him how much I love him. It was short, peaceful, and enough for today.

I've been 'OK' for the most part the past couple of days. I still get these waves of 'Holy Shit, this is really happening' come over me, but the gut wrenching crying has ceased. At least for now.

Thank you all for being so good to me. I love you all. xoxo

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

AFM, my heart goes out to you. The one person I lost who I loved with all my heart was my Nana, and I still feel her with us, and sometimes I swear I can smell her perfume at certain times. I really don't believe that the ones you love truly ever leave, I believe souls become connected through love. This thought always stays with me at times when I miss her the most. I love yah girl, and crying is healthy and healing..popsicles are good too. I wish I could give you both a squeeze.

[Accountable for Me]

AF Daily ~ Monday December 20th

Brigitte Bardot;1026071 wrote: AFM, my heart goes out to you. The one person I lost who I loved with all my heart was my Nana, and I still feel her with us, and sometimes I swear I can smell her perfume at certain times. I really don't believe that the ones you love truly ever leave, I believe souls become connected through love. This thought always stays with me at times when I miss her the most. I love yah girl, and crying is healthy and healing..popsicles are good too. I wish I could give you both a squeeze.

Thanks. I love ya too. I hope your daughter is doing well with her father tonight. A new thing for the both of you.

xoxo