Hey all,
Another day, another 2 meetings. i am having a stressful and confusing day and didn't really want to go at all - which is exactly when you SHOULD go right? So I ended up going to two to spite myself
It's true that you just do feel better after a meeting - whether it's by just not isolating yourself, getting some human contact, keeping yourself safe when you feel vulnerable or whatever, there is a reason why these meetings work.
So I went to the first meeting, which was in a new location to me - it was a newcomers and beginners meeting with the chair focussed on the first 3 steps, so I thought it would be a good one to go to. I didn't expect to see anyone I recognised, but there were quite a few people I knew so I had a chat with some of them and then ended up walking up to the second meeting with a couple of the guys who were going to it too.
The second meeting was quite emotional - a lot of the people sharing were experiencing grieving and pain - but it was good as well. I haven't been to a meeting yet where I haven't heard something useful, whether it's a reminder of the destructive power of drink, a tip on using the programme or the story of someone who has stayed sober through AA and now has peace of mind and a happy life - it's all good.
I'm still not on top of the world but the feelings of distress I felt earlier have lessened to a great degree and I'm just not panicking any more. Because what I'm panicking about today will be ancient news in a couple of months. All I have to do is focus on AA, staying sober, do what I can about the situation, not worry about what I can't change about it and get through it.
Even though it's very early days (my last meeting today was the first ever one I went to last week), I feel already that AA is teaching me a lot. I got the Big Book today and will start reading it tonight.
So another day sober, another day grateful to be able to function and be out of the chaos my drinking caused.
K x
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