AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

[Brigitte Bardot]

Morning Lovelies,

Brrr and Brrrr! Still sub artic temps here. I feel so bad for people that have to work outside in temps like this, my Dad and brother are unfortunately one of them, but thankfully yesterday and today they have jobs inside. Hopefully no one has been leaving their pets outside in this weather...

I guess it's coffee time. I actually had a great sleep again last night so maybe I wont have to perk the coffee as strong. Hah.

The last couple days I found I have been thinking about buying some alcohol. I don't really don't know why? I'm wondering if it's because the weather and the cold, that habit is reminding me I haven't had a drink in a while, that the problems I'm having with my car are stressing me out? I don't know, but I have been thinking about it so would someone please give me a little pep talk to remove the glamour.

Thanks everyone, I hope you all have a great day!!

[ItsJustMe]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Wazzzz Up Dudes and good mornin' BB ?

Just wanted to buzz in and say hi to everyone. Today is a big day for me (actually yesterday was but didn?t realize the significance until today) --- 100 Days AF!!!

It seems like the longer I go, the easier it gets. Al pretty much got mad and stopped talking to me. Well, every now and then he shows up to see if I changed my mind. But I?m moving on with my new life and loving it. If you are reading this and have been thinking of putting that bottle down ? let me be the poster boy for you. I have the will power of a gnat. I just had to decided that I was tired of my life revolving around a bottle. So I made up my mind to change. I found a new addiction ? running. I threw all my effort into that ? and it started blocking the need for Al. At first it was not easy. The first 30 days really sucked butt. Days 31-60 didn?t suck butt as much but still sucked. Once I got past 60 day, drinking was a distant memory. The key is that you just have to make up your mind and do it ? no backing down. And if you do slip ? big freaking deal ? dust yourself off and give it another run. Words cannot describe how I feel these days. I?ve dropped 30 pounds so far, run at least every other day, and at night no longer have slurred speech, inability to drive if I need to go somewhere, and the next morning I can remember what I watched on TV as well as not worry about something I may have said but can?t remember?.

Ok, I will get off my soap box. But I do want to thank everyone here for your support during the most difficult times of this journey. This site was a key component in making me accountable.

Now that we have all that serious stuff out of the way, I?ll end this post with??. You guessed it?? The ItsJustMe thought of the day!

It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.

Have an awesome and sober day!

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

IJM! Good morning to you and you're doing fabulous!

It's always such a pleasure to hear from you. I can't believe you're at 100 days already. You've lost weight, exercising daily..look at you go! That is all such wonderful news to hear from a really wonderful man. We really miss seeing you here daily.

[ItsJustMe]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Thanks BB, and I certainly miss you guys as well. In my line of business, end of December thru February is our busiest time. No kidding, I have been averaging 55 to 60 hours a week. I usually log in to work before I go to work, go to work, then log in when I get home from work to do more work!!! Oh well, it’s a living (or it would be before taxes!)

Anyway, it is always great to hear from you. Seems like we have a bond because we both started this journey about the same time. In reading your post you had mentioned the “glamour” of drinking. Here are some of the glamorous points that I can remember.

1. Drinking is awesome! You never have to worry about being shy or what you say….at least until the next day. Did I really tell my best friend last night to F*^% Off?????
2. Visit new places and meet fascinating people. Never seen the drunk tank at the local police station? Hop in your car after drinking. The friendly police officer will introduce you to your new cell mates.
3. Drinking is expensive, but hey, we have a lot of disposable income anyway and everything we need!
4. Enjoy TV? Terrific! TV and drinking go well together. You will get to watch the same episode of a show night after night because you will never remember how it ended.
5. Drinking will allow you to develop close and personal relationships with some professionals in the community. Eventually you will be spending lots of time with your doctor and pharmacist treating the Type 2 diabetes as well as dealing with your liver when it falls out!
6. Hate the mornings? GREAT! Drinking is right up your alley! Hey, you are going to feel like you have been pulled through the cog wheels of hell backwards anyway when you wake up, so don’t wake up. Just sleep that day away….
7. Having friends is overrated anyway. As long as you have Al you can offend the world without a care.
8. Having a job sucks. Hey, Drinking is for you then. Because after a while you will get an invitation to leave anyway.
9. Build new respect with your children! We all know that the drunk is hysterical (at least in his/her mind).
10. That beautiful red blouse really matches those red tired eyes!

Those are the reasons I remember. As I look back on them it makes me ask – WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING ALL THOSE YEARS PAST??????????

Ok, gotta get ready to head for work. Take care!

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Job done perfectly! Just needed to see it in type I guess. I'll have to look back on this when I get those crazy stupid moments. You're right, you're my AF keep me sane and sober partner..lol.

[mauritiusdodo]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Hello

Just popping in and out of threads to look for inspiration - Its just me thank you so much I love your posts (and can identify with so many of the points in your last one :blush: )

BB I love your signature!

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Hi there Mauritiusdodo!

Welcome to the AF Thread! IJM is pretty funny, a great guy..don't tell him I said that though. LOL.

Are you looking at getting some AF time? This is a great place to help give you the drive and determination to do it.

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Morning fabbies!

Thanks for the start BB! Here's a thought.... remember the moment you looked deep inside (through your alcoholic haze) and thougt OMG, I have GOT to stop this madness! Remember that? Remember how you felt physically, emotionally, spiritually? It wasn't glamourous. Buying a bottle will take you there. That is all.
Keep you motivation going with fun with little gia and your wonderful renovations.

IJM Great to see you and hear how well you're doing!

Mauritiusdodo (I considered copy paste on this name), hang around!

Looks like rain here for a couple days. I've spent a week indulging in all too familiar addictive behavior with the snack stuff here. Ugh. Enough!

There is an old-time movie theatre here that only plays family movies. I may go check it out. Oh, I had my first blue-ray experience last night. WOW!

Have a terrific Tuesday!

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Thanks Greenie, you are very right. It's really amazing in a scary way how in just sneaks up on you and you don't even see it coming really. I really have no desire to drink at all right now, so why those thoughts arose I have no idea. The mind works in mysterious ways. I am going to enjoy my time with my Little Gia, she is a pretty cool little kid.

We have a Blue Ray and we absolutely LOVE it! Little Gia is almost 5 and she is very much up on the techno side of things. She loves her BlueRay and only asks for and makes sure she gets new movies in BlueRay. It's very cute. But the difference is amazing! Once I get caught up on things I want to buy a new LED HDTV, right now I have a LCD but I want to upgrade and move this one to the Bedroom.

What movie are you going to watch? We're heading to Ontario this summer and I want to go to the Drive-In. I remember watching 'The Goonies' when it came out at the Drive-in. I can't wait to take Little Gia to one, and maybe a movie at the park outside at night on a blanket..so many things to do.

[Lavande]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Darkest before the dawn - you're not kidding :H:H
It sure as hell was for me - that's why I am never going there again!

Congrats on your 100 AF Days IJM!
It really is a great feeling, a terrfic gift to yourself & family!

Morning BB, Greenie & Mauritis!
Looking forward to today's heatwave as it's heading up to 40 degrees
Somehow snow & rain predicted for tomorrow, oh well.

I need to push myself to get my bussiness tax info together for the accountant. Not my favorite thing to do.

Wishing everyone a terrific AF Tuesday!
Lav

[universal]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Hey abbers!

BB - when are you coming to Ontario and where are you going? Maybe we can hook up for lunch or a coffee?

At my group last night a lot of people seemed to be having a rough time with those "thoughts". It really must be the weather, lack of vitamin D and sunshine etc. I just "remember when" and find that it is not hard to unglamorize the demise alcohol seemed to do to my life.

I found out last night that a friend who was in the program passed away. She was 47. That is also a good motivator for me. I am not going to let this disease take me. Period.

[LVT25]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Hello friends,

Congrats on 100 days IJM! You can be our poster child anytime! I really need to get restarted on a fitness program. Now that my computer is up to speed, I'm going to download the couch to 5k onto my MP3. I don't run, but I'm guessing it could be incorporated into a walking routine. Thanks for popping in and giving us a reason to smile!

Gia, I still get those thoughts once in a great while. They pass quickly, and I guess I have enough AF time under my belt, I am used to "knowing" I don't drink alcohol. I notice it mostly when I'm hungry or thirsty. I think about how it used to feel to be drunk and then hungover--ick! Think about little Gia too. I am such a better mom now (for the most part). And no more guilt or regrets (about drinking anyway)!

Uni--I think you're right about the Vit D too. I started taking supplements and I think it helps. I have a lamp I used some evenings when I'm home too. I'm so sorry about your friend. 47--wow, that is young! I lost a friend from liver failure, she was 50.

Nothing too exciting here in LVT-land. The boys are in the middle of a very busy basketball season. We have games 5 nights this week. They are so much fun to watch, I have gotten used to the idea that this is what we do, and the other stuff will keep. The boys are growing up so fast. In 2 short years our oldest will graduate.:upset: Who, by the way, has all A's and B's in school right now. The ADD meds really seem to be helping him, and he feels so much better about himself. He thinks he needs more, but we will stay where we're at until we see Miss America's dad in a couple of weeks.

Terry is recuperating.....again. I hope and pray THIS time she will go ahead and heal, get her strength back and finally go home! I'm thinking about going to see her soon.

Mauri--stick around if you want to hear about a bunch of people happy and comfortable in their new af skin. We still have struggles, but we're all learning that life is better without al. I saw your thread about giving up drinking and I know what you mean. From a very early age I used alcohol to have lots and lots of fun. I really didn't think I could have fun without it. My fun is very different now, but at this time in my life I'm ok with that. Some would say I'm boring and a bit of a prude, but I'm active and doing things that MATTER now, not just getting drunk and feeling like a slug. It's hard to explain, but give at least 30 days af a try, and you might just see what I mean!:welcome:

Hi Lav and Greenie and all to come today!! Happy soberness!:h

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

Brigitte Bardot;1048263 wrote: What movie are you going to watch?

I found out True Grit is playing. I'd like to see that even though it's really about the theatre itself. Last year I didn't go because it was Alvin & the Chipmunks or something. :H

Hi LAv, uni & LVT, didn't see you there!

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

I really want to see the new version of that movie. It looks great! I took Little Gia too see the new Chipmunk movie when it came out, it was her visit to the Theatre. It was a cute movie.

[Brigitte Bardot]

AF Daily - Tuesday January 25th, 2011

I honestly don't believe I was going to carry through with the drinking thoughts and turn them into action, but it was good to get them out there and acknowledge them. I think it's healthy for me to do that, instead of pushing them just to the side and pretend I don't have them. That seems to work for me, so if it's not broke..why fix it, right?