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**Sarasmiles** · February 27, 2011, 06:11 AM

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Good morning, everyone! Lavande, your granddaughter is beautiful! Congratulations!

Thanks for the welcome back, Determinator. It's good to be here. Great to start the day with your positive message about being AF, Bear. I feel the same. I'm up early, but well rested. I spent a few minutes this morning reading back over a journal from the summer of 2009, when my drinking was causing me great angst, anxiety and depression. It's hard to understand how I have kept letting it come back into my life, so many times over the years. This time truly feels different, but I know I have said that before. There are some important things I'm doing differently this time, though. I have told my mother, brother and sister about my problem, and that I am committing to abstinence. I have also told my husband much more than he ever knew, about my secret drinking and how bad it got. Now he is finally routing for me to stay sober, instead of telling me he thinks I'm worrying too much about it. I can't imagine turning back now that he knows. Finally, I am going to face to face SMART meetings, and that is a big step, too.

Enjoy your Sunday, everyone! I am starting the day with yoga, and then family time all day...perhaps some hiking in the snow.

Sara

**greeneyes** · February 27, 2011, 08:07 AM

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Morning Fabaroos!

Thanks for the start bear ~ I'm thrilled to see you write "I LOVE being AF"! Yay bear!!

Sara, welcome! Your day sounds great & I'm excited for you to discover how different things are when you have truly let go of AL.

The party last night was fun. I enjoyed reconnecting with my old friend that I rode with. I got a kayaking invite with he and his wife.

Wheeeee! I was aware of only one person who was obviously past their AL limit and that was good for that crowd. A few years ago I would have been one of them. One friend commented to me that she was 4 years sober. It was a refreshing conversation to share the positives with a friend who "gets" it.

LILY!!! Lily is a verrrrry pretty baby, Lav! My artist friend I knock around with has a g-daughter named Lily. Your DIL is next, right?

It's a beautiful sunny chilly morning with a whole day to unfold! And one thing is for sure!

**EnglishWriter77** · February 27, 2011, 08:37 AM

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I fell off

Hey All,

Fell off in a big way the last week. Am on my 2nd day AF again and feeling slightly human but still a bit wobbly for some reason and as I hate about drinking vodka, I 'smell' as much as I scrub and scrub!

I got cocky after a couple of months I think - bad move!

EW

**Lavande** · February 27, 2011, 08:49 AM

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Good morning Abbers!

I am happy but tired this morning ~ emotionally exhausted I think. My daughter did all the work getting that beautiful baby here yesterday. I couldn't believe how good she looked yesterday

bear, you sound good! Stay with your plan & with us!

Sara, so glad you are back & finding success! I kind of like that no one offers me wine anymore ~ saves me the trouble of saying 'no thanks'

Greenie, I will be going through all the baby anxiety again in 5 weeks when my DIL delivers EB's little brother. I think I may double up on my B vits :H

English Writer, sorry to hear you fell off the wagon. Climb back on & hang on, we'll be here.

I hope everyone has a fantastic AF Sunday, I'll be back later after I go visit my girls.
Lav

**jennyneric** · February 27, 2011, 09:07 AM

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Good Morning all!

Lav that baby girl is gorgeous! And her name is too!

EW glad your OK and back. It has happened to most of us if not all of us. What's important is your back!

Bear you sound great! Enjoy your Sunday AF! It's wonderful. . .I know!

Greenie thank you for recommending green tea to me 2 or 3 weeks ago. I drink two cups of organic a day now sweetened with fruit juice and I feel wonderful!

Hi to everyone to come and anyone I missed! Have a great AF Sunday

One things for sure. . . no AL here but lots and lots of Dexter. . . still LOL

**Cassia** · February 27, 2011, 09:09 AM

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Afternoon all,

Lav - enjoy your day with your girls! Give little lily a big hug from us all!

EW - welcome back:hallo: So - what happened? Did you start your new job? Have you got your plan back in order?

Sara - :welcome: I think you have made a fantastic decision by letting the ones closest to you that you are committing to abstinence. Personally, I think that is a massively important part of any successful plan! Have you got a strategy planned for your trigger points?

Greenie - kayaking sounds awesome! What did you used to ride? Horses? Sorry if you have explained before. One of the reasons that I am excited to move back to the US is to do more outdoor activities. My husband and I are really outdoorsy people.

Bear - thanks for getting us started this morning. Like you, I am well rested and feeling good. I was thinking on my way back from mass this morning 'why the hell would I put myself through hangovers.' That awful feeling of being dehydrated, feeling sick to your stomach, the thumping head, the lack of energy. Why o-h why did we do it to ourselves.

So, today is another decorating day although its on hold at the mo while we wait for my dad to bring in plaster. After that, it's a coat of white paint on the walls and and then the roof and that's us.

Today is a bit of a sad day for me. It was my Uncle's birthday - we lost him in July this year after a ten year struggle with cancer. My uncle was the most incredible man - he also had a problem with drink but I never saw it as he quit before my time. My Uncle was a great champion of his kids, his grankids and me and my sis. He believed that anything was possible with hard work, determination and a bit of faith. He was the eternal optimist. I miss him. I send my Aunt flowers today as I knew it would be hard and I wanted her to know that we were thinking of her and him. I also lit a candle for him at mass. I will pay him a visit when I am home in a few weeks.

have a great day all.

x

**EnglishWriter77** · February 27, 2011, 09:21 AM

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Hi Jenny, Lavande, Cassia and all those yet to drop in.

Well, to be honest no I didnt start the job because I had an anxiety attack on the way there and never showed up - BIG mistake.

Thanks for all your well wishes. Here we go again!

Enjoy your Sunday afternoons. I have a roast dinner coming up, which will hopefully help start replacing my body with the nutrients I have starved it of for a week now.

EW

**papmom3** · February 27, 2011, 09:28 AM

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good Morning Fabbers!! Our last sunday in February-good riddance I say!! We just have to get past the lion's den and then lambing time!!

Welcome back Sara, my "neighbor"!! Good to meet you! I'm glad to hear you have been going to SMART meetings and that they are working for you. I had an unfortunate first meeting this past summer-no one but the leader showed up and all he did was talk about himself and put down AA. Didn't ask me one single question! I won't be going back but i'm in a different part of the state and I'm sure every group is different. I do need to check out Women in Sobriety however-just been dragging my feet. I too came clean to my family as soon as I started this journey almost a year ago. I may have done my drinking in secret most of the time but I knew I had to do my recovery in public. Well done!!

Welcome back EW! We've missed you! It is very easy to get cocky after a few months so I'm glad you're back with us again. What is your plan this time and how is it different from your last one?

Bear-you sound very good today. Good luck with your meetings next week and with the career coach. Sounds like very positive, self affirming steps to take. Have fun tonite with the skating-I know how much you love it!!

Greenie-kayacking! Have you ever done it? It's on my bucket list! Maybe this summer? Glad your evening was so much fun!!

Jennie-good to see you this morning as well! Enjoy your Dexter time!!

Cassia-condolences on the loss of your uncle. He is with you in spirit and proud of you. You are a wonderful neice to think of your aunt in that way.

DG-hope you're feeling even better today. We all have those crawl under the covers days. The important thing is you didn't let it go into day number 2. Yesterday was my day to swear at my house because I couldn't find the new mayo I bought. Yep, it's the house's fault my cupboards are so disorganized :H !!

Lav-Lily is just adorable!! can't wait for more pics!! Now for round two

Lost another fish last nite-one of the orange platys. I now know all 3 were infected with Ick but getting rid of it is another matter. It's only a matter of time for Pinky and the other platy to nose dive to the bottom I'm afraid. I'm hoping the two new ones are pretty resistant to it (some fish can be) but if not, I'm going back to cold water fish but not the super sensitive fancy goldfish. Or maybe I'll look into a saltwater tank to see if that is any easier to maintain.

We've gotten about 5 inches of snow so far this morning but should let up soon. I'll make a quick swipe of the drive and walks later but won't put too much effort in as rain is forecast for tomorrow (and sleet and ice.....)

I spent yesterday shopping then trying to shore up my desk area. The corner support needed to be replaced as it was one of those 4 drawer plastic organizers that needed to be raised up about 6 inches which I did with drideck panels. I took the whole desk apart, put the new plastic taller cubes in its place, got every thing back together then realized there is too much weight on that new cube. Why didn't I put the wood cube in the corner in the first place? So, I have to do it all over again and switch out the cubes. Then, maybe I can work on my taxes!!

Thank god I had both days off!! No money coming in but the time factor is precious!!

Have a good day everyone!!
:l

**papmom3** · February 27, 2011, 09:31 AM

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Xpost EW. Hang in there. Drink lots of lemon water and eat to your heart's content. So sorry you lost out on the new job. Are you seeking help for the anxiety issue? We're here for you!!
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**EnglishWriter77** · February 27, 2011, 09:33 AM

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Thanks Pap!

My change of plan is not to get cocky and also to let my friend manage my finances for a bit by having me pay them into their account so I can't spend it willy-nilly!

I also need to get out of the house more and start the plan for what to do when the house goes itself.

EW

**Doggygirl** · February 27, 2011, 10:13 AM

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Hey Fabbies! Or should I say YB!!!

LilyLilyLilyLilyLily

We demand more pictures Lav! Let us know when to start Storking for the next one!

Bear, thanks for getting us started today. I love your enthusiasm for your current approach - that is FABULOUS. Enjoy skating today. I know that is important to you!!

Sara it is wonderful to see you back. I think both my acceptance of my alcohol problem AND my acceptance of the needed solution (for me, abstinence) became so much more "real" when I became willing to talk to my closest peeps about it. As long as it was "my little secret" (or so I thought anyway) I could play all kinds of denial games with myself. I love how you share about your thinking and your experiences - am very glad you decided to come back! I am also glad to hear that the SMART meetings in your area are helpful. Sadly, my experience was a bit like P3s. Only a couple of regular participants, and a lot more AA bashing than anything else being discussed. That actually served to get me more curious about AA though, which has worked well for me. So I'm grateful!

Anyway, have a fabulous sober sunday.

Hi Greenie! Kayaking! I've never done that. It sounds like fun the way you guys talk about it. I always find it interesting these days to observe how often it really IS the minority getting shit faced at these parties. I used to think it was "everyone." My face turns red just thinking about the old days!

EW, welcome back. Hang in there through these miserable early days. I know what you mean about that "couple months" mark. It was at 60 Days AF when I relapsed the first time around. I am determined these days that I NEVER forget I am an alcoholic. I will NEVER be fixed. I will NEVER be able to drink safely. There will ALWAYS be a risk of hangovers and far worse consequences if I drink. That's just the way it is with me. Accepting that was so difficult, and yet so freeing. I hope you find your place of acceptance too. Life sure got a lot easier for me when I finally "got it." (much as my addicted brain did NOT want to "get it" at all!)

Jenny, I'm going to google Dexter so I can know what the fuss is all about!

So glad you are AFing it one day at a time! You are doing great!

Cassia, your Uncle sounds like a very special person. It is so nice of you to think of your aunt and do something so nice for her on this day.

P3, I love your energy! I am sorry about the fish. I hope you get that figured out! Good luck getting your desk reconstructed. I'm sure you can't WAIT to get at your taxes!!!!!! May a huge return be in your near future! Definitely want you to be able to meet the goals you described yesterday with the funds. Especially your agility plans!!!

Well, we've been up since about 4:30AM. That's my normal time to get up except for Sundays when I try to stay in bed until 5 or 5:30. One of our dogs has had a digestive issue for years. Mr. Doggy diligently manages this issue but sometimes it gets out of whack. Well, last night it got WAY out of whack. There was liquid dog shit everywhere. EVERYWHERE. There was some near my face and I have no recollection of her ass ever being anywhere near my face. So how did it get THERE??? Anyway, the main cleanup is done but the laundry will be going on all day between the bedding and throw rugs from nearly every room in the house. I am SO GLAD we don't have any carpeted rooms any more. We do have 2 area rugs and somehow, those were spared. Thank Dog for that! I think her days of being in the house over night are over. (all the dogs have indoor kennels and enjoy lots of free roam on 6 fenced in acres, so they lead a good life even if they don't get to sleep in the bed at night!)

Anyway...can you just IMAGINE how drunk I would be by now in the old days over this? It's pretty scary to think about it. I'm sure I'd be passed out by now, then awake early in the afternoon for round two of heavy drinking.

I used to thrive on chaos as it always gave me reason to drink. These days I much prefer peace.

One thing is for sure..

DG

**EnglishWriter77** · February 27, 2011, 10:16 AM

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Hi DG,

Sorry your dog is unwell!

Thanks for your kind words.....I AM having the hardest time accepting there won't ONE day again be a time I can enjoy a glass of wine with friends or celebrate getting a new job (how silly of me!)

EW

**universal** · February 27, 2011, 10:26 AM

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Morning guys! I slept in - another amazing sleep - feels so good!

Jenny - I too am a Dexter addict. I love it! Can't wait for season 6 to start - they are so long between seasons that it sucks.

Okay, I'm off, just a quick check in today, I have to zoom zoom this morning!

Love and hugs,
Uni

**Cassia** · February 27, 2011, 10:29 AM

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Papmom...I worry about those fish! Tropical fish can be so expensive!

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