-hiding the drinking.
-not admitting to being an alcoholic.
-having alcohol gradually take over your life.
-keeping up a front.
-not losing everything (except for your self-respect).
-etc.
Every story has relevance for me, but these particular ones were just what I needed to see. It was a good meeting w/some great discussion.
One guy talked about the fact that whenever he did anything around the house, he always drank while doing it. I used to do that.
-clean the garage: drink.
-cook: drink.
-garden: drink.
-etc.
Did I think drinking made everything easier? The stinkin' thinkin' just went on & on. There was not logic.
For me, sobriety is freedom.
-freedom from the vicious cycle of preparing to drink, drinking, & recovering.
-freedom from lying & hiding.
-freedom from destroying myself.
-freedom from self-hatred.
It's hard for me to believe that I've escaped all that misery. All it took was the willingness to put the drink down & commit myself to AA.
Mary
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