AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

[Lavande]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Jenny - try to just let it all go, OK :l
Don't torture yourself over things you can't change.

Yes, I went over & did some clean baby holding. Then she loaded up her diaper, I smiled & handed Lily back to my daughter & said 'there you go' :H
I am sure I will have plenty chances to change her in the future just like I do with EB

Here is my version of sex ed with each of my kids when they were in middle school:

I DON'T WANT TO BE A GRANDMOTHER AT AGE 40!!!!!!!!

It worked, I didn't become Mi Mom until age 55

[momof3]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Lavande;1070106 wrote: Jenny - try to just let it all go, OK :l
Here is my version of sex ed with each of my kids when they were in middle school:

I DON'T WANT TO BE A GRANDMOTHER AT AGE 40!!!!!!!!

It worked, I didn't become Mi Mom until age 55

:H:H:H This is going to be a problem for me Lav because I will forever be 29.

[Accountable for Me]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Hi Fabbies!

It has been a while since I posted. Still sober though. Had to fight some depressive stuff - delayed feelings/acceptance about my father's death. I honestly am so friggen proud of me to get through something this huge with only drinking the one time back in December (prior to his passing). I am not patting myself on the back, but sometimes I am completely dumfounded by not turning to the bottle to numb all of these shitty emotions.

I had decided to ween myself off of the Ciprolex my Dr. put me on at the beginning of December. I think it is time now. I think that I can handle 'feeling' a bit more. So, I am taking half a pill for another 9 days then one every other for a week. I have gone off of meds before cold turkey and - IT WAS NOT NICE! So, I am doing the logical thing and following my Dr.'s advice. God, I feel so grown up sometimes! :H

Work and Little AFM are great! So all is good there!

My sister the cow, and I are still not speaking. Life has been so drama free since the last time we spoke, the day my father died. When he passed, it was like I had to hold this promise to myself about not letting toxic people into my life and sabotaging or trying to sabotage it. I don't even miss her at all! Some may think that is sad, but trust me, if you had a sister like mine, you wouldn't need any enemies!!

Ummmm.... also we have a new addition to our family. I had this really beautiful male kitty (about a year old) hanging out in my back yard. My cat and he would play... The cat looked very thin and when he came up to me, I noticed he was wearing 2 collars that were growing into his neck. Literally choking the cat. After one attempt of trying to undo them, and getting scratched to death and hissed at, I managed to get my scissors and some gloves and cut them off. He has now made our home his home. The loveliest cat ever. He is a very long hair, light orange tabby with the prettiest face. He is huge though, and I don't mean weight wise. He has paws on him like a bear and I swear he is two feet long from nose to tail. His tail is as fluffy as a duster. I put ads up on the local free sites saying this cat is hear and called the pound, SPCA, etc, but no one is looking or has claimed him. From the shape he was in and how he had grown into his collars, it is almost obvious someone dumped him off. Our pound see's a lot of that around here because we are right along the river. Sad. But, he is very happy and we really love him. My cat, Max really enjoys the company. We named him Gingy. How original eh?

That is about all in my world. Life is pretty good (knock on friggen wood - cause every time I say that, something goes WRONG!)

I missed you all, love you all, and hope you all have a fantastic weekend. We have no plans yet, but am praying we have some better weather and can hang outside somewhere.

xo

[mylife]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Well good afternoon Everyone! Or should I say Hello all you 29-year old Youngsters!!

I've been swamped again as usual, but I feel okay today. No looming thoughts of drinking -- just little peeps here and there that go away quickly!

Jenny, I agree with Lav, just let it all go. It's so not worth it to waste your energy on negative people. Keep positive energy for yourself!

Hope everyone has a wonderful Friday!

[Determinator]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

whew! working my garlicky bum off here! double shifts, nights, travelling fool. finally home and getting caught up.

hugs all around

be well

[EnglishWriter77]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Hello All,

Hope you're well - playing catch up here, but Jenny hope you're ok?

EW

[greeneyes]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Accountable for Me;1070149 wrote: I am not patting myself on the back,

Then I'll do it for you! :thumbsup:applaud: I'm so glad to hear from you - I was worried you'd decided to mod, which hasn't gone well in the past. You really sparkle when you're AF, AFM OK, there goes 3 smilies.....

Hi mylife, det, english!

I feel a slug-on-the couch night coming on!

[EnglishWriter77]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Hi Greenie!

Night on the couch is where it's AT!

[bear73]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Hi there - just back from rollerderby training - feel so much better than when I walked in the door there! I am sat in pjs with decaf coffee and a very small bowl of cheetos (had to get them imported from US!) Plan to get in bath in a bit and then go to bed.

Gym/steam tomorrow and dinner with friends in evening (in a Muslim run restaurant so it is alcohol free and I am going to drive). Playing bout on Sunday and need to be up about 9.30am so early night for me Saturday - friends may well want to stay out and drink afterwards - that is fine.

Day 12 here - felt so much calmer and stronger this week - things have actually got worse at work but I have just detached from it,sure it is no coincidence that I am AF.
I feel so much happier and have vague plans of decorating/doing the garden/sorting out my savings - looking ahead really. I've bought a few new clothes for work and a new pair of jeans to tide me over this period of weight gain, it's just not nice wearing clothes that are too small.

Anyway not much to say apart from feeling good and I am so glad to be back.

[Accountable for Me]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Greenie, no modding for me!!! I have tried that oooodles of times in the past. It never ends up good for me. I know that alcohol would be the death of me. Seriously. I was so hard core when I was at my worst; even when I tried to mod a couple of years ago.... I ended up on drinking binges for days.

Sometimes I want to say 'fuck it' and have one (which NEVER ends there!) just to temporarily 'numb' feeling anything and everything. But there is way to much to loose, mainly being my life.

I seriously do not want to die by drinking. I am that person who will if I do. I would be a complete fricken fool to even attempt to 'mod' ever again.

Anyway, nice to see you all!! Lots of hugs!

[EnglishWriter77]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Hey Bear and Accountable,

Bear - I LOVE watching rollerderby...very cool. I used to rollerskate a lot myself when I was younger. Now I just like watching the girls beat each other up

Accountable - I hear ya. Hence my slip up the other week. Thought I could just enjoy some success by toasting it with A drink, which turned into a 4 day binge...

AF is the only way for me.

[jennyneric]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

hey guys I'm here and good. Took some extra L-glut and took a bath and plan to hunker down in my room and watch TV and DVDs all night, I have to take my daughter to a friends house up the street and I worry about that cause I don't want to leave right here. But when your a mom you do what they want because they are the light at the end of my tunnel. See y'all in a sec!

[Determinator]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

AFM I love the powerful resolute 'tude sister! ditto all that

[Lavande]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Just wanted everyone to know -
my hens are in near full production. I got 23 eggs today from 26 hens :wd:
If I had know I had such a talent for raising happy chickens...........

[papmom3]

AF Daily ~ 4th March 2011

Evening Abbers!! Been a busy day for all hasn't it!!

AFM-sooooo good to see you again and to hear you are doing so well! Deter's right-your 'tude is contagious!!

Bear-you sound good. Plans for the weekend sound good too. Please come here first if you start having any drinking thoughts!!

M3-good luck with your seminar! you are one brave lady but if anyone can do it you can!!

DG-I'm definitely hearing "Patience" in your words so keep it up. The issue will resolve one way or the other and wouldn't it be nice to have it resolve as much in your favor as possible? How was that curves work out?

Jennie-hope your trip up the street was short and sweet and that you are back home in your jammies and relaxing. You are doing great and I'm so proud of you for coming on here and venting and getting feedback!

Shout out to Uni, Cassia, MyLife, EW and anyone else I missed!

Had a very nice dinner last nite with sis and her family and my dad who is finally home from his 5 week visit in SC. I had the stongest thoughts about AL I've had in a long time on the way over there. I kept repeating to myself: I have no OFF switch, I have no OFF switch, AL is poison to me AL is poison to me." It worked. And my BIL was so nice, he got me a cranberry and seltzer almost the minute I walked in the door! Some lowfat spinach/artichoke dip and pita bites and I was in heaven!! Dinner was awesome: fake fried chicken that was out of this world (the chicken wasn't fake, just the coating), a Hungry Girl smashed butternut squash dish and green beans. Tonite on the way home I was having thoughts again but for some reason got nauseous thinking about having a glass of wine. Yea!! Just hope I'm not coming down with something :H.
Today I got a ton of work done at work and will finally be in pretty good shape for the start of the week. I was so excited that it was Friday!! It feels so good to be able to have that TGIF feeling! Lots of plans for tomorrow and a big part of it will be going to PF after WW (which isn't going to be pretty). I'm having a real hard time tracking for WW. The one day I did all my tracking in the morning I did great all day because I .....wait for it.... PLANNED!! But the rest of the week I've been flying by the seat of my pants. I really feel like I have no free time anymore and the last thing I want to do is spend time typing in what I've eaten all day. I know I just have to work through this and find a way to make it all gel.

I've decided my next big goal financially is to find and fix up a tiny travel trailer like a Teardrop or a T@B or Scamp etc. I'm so excited about this I just have to share. If I get a teardrop or T@B it's going to be called the PapPod!! And whatever I get will be painted Pink!! Greenie-there is a nationwide group of women called Sisters on the Fly-they camp and go flyfishing!! Sisters on the fly,Cowgirl Caravan,fly fishing,trailers,vintage trailers,western bedding They have a FB page too! I also have fallen in love with this FB group:
We Can Do It! Women Who Camp With An Airstream, Teardrop, Tent or Trailer

Watch out you guys-the PapPod could be coming to a campground near you in the next year or two!! Now, does anyone know a good work from home job where I can make the money to finance this next chapter of my life? :H