AF Daily~10 March 2011!

[jennyneric]

Good Morning! No one had started us yet so here I am. Fitting really as this is a really special day to me. May youngest birthday! He's 12, OMG where did the time go? I can remember the day I had him like it was yesterday! Right about now we figured out that my mother in law had to go to work and was not going to keep my daughter so my husband left the hospital to go get her. Then they both came back to the hospital and he accidental locked her in the car! She was 2 so she was not strong enough to open the door from the inside! The hospital security guard got a slim jim and got her out and they ran upstairs to me. My daughter stayed in the hallway and played with the nurses while I had my son. It took 22 minutes to have him. Then my husband and daughter went home. Very messed up day. Very very happy day. I got to meet the boy I always dreamed of!

Anyway, really happy today. I get to finalize my financial aid for collage today so I can start classes in the summer! Yey me! In 5 years I want to have a biochemistry degree and a certification in forensic science! Sounds hard! I love it!

Hope y'all have a good one

One things for sure. . .no AL for this mama today!

[Lavande]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Good morning Abbers!

Wow jenny, that's quite a story - happy birthday to your son And best wishes to you on your education plans!

I have no special plans today - just coping with monumental rain, flood warnings - that kind of lovely stuff!, wet dogs, mud, etc - yuck!

Wishing everyone a wonderful AF day!
Lav

[Mema]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

What a great and impressive goal Jenny! Reading these posts helps to keep me focused on a positive long term plan for myself! Being AF means I will have the energy and brain power to live a full life rather than just coasting along being happy with whatever scrapes life throws at me.

Thank you everyone for all of your stories and encouragement!

Have a great AF free day!

[mario]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Keep going mema you can do it,and your so right having a alcohol free life is just great and makes you feel free.

Hi lavande & jennyneric

[universal]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

I have been really down the past couple of days so I'm just checking in. That's a cool story Jenny!

I'm off to go back to bed.

Love you guys.

[Sarasmiles]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Uni, I'm so sorry you're down! I hope some cozy time in bed helps...come back and tell us what's up when you feel like it. Sending you good wishes.

Happy birthday to your son, Jenny. My oldest will be 12 next month. The time has flown for me, too! I'm so grateful that he still wants me to tuck him in at night, tells me he loves me, and chooses reading aloud together as one of his favorite things to do. I'm also so, so grateful that I never have to worry that I'll smell like wine as I tuck him in, or fall asleep while reading to him! I AM SO GRATEFUL TO BE SOBER!!

Went out with some friends last night, all of whom were drinking. I had seltzer and cranberry, and that didn't bother me at all. The only thing that bothered me was that after they'd had a few, they all started revealing way too much about themselves and other people who weren't even there. I'd just met a couple of them, and now I know all about their sex lives and their ex-husbands and their neighbours' issues. I'm all for open heart to hearts with close friends (or forum buddies ) but this was too much. And it was alcohol-induced, which made me queezy. And just to gripe about one more thing, the bill came to nearly $200, and they decided to split it five ways, including me. I'd had seltzer and cranberry, and shared some nachos with the table, and ended up spending over $30. So I was buying them drinks, essentially. I didn't want to appear stingy, so I just kicked in my fifth, but isn't that a little unfair? Not sure I'll go out "for drinks" with this group again any time soon.

Have a great day, all!
Sara

[Lavande]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Feel better soon Uni :l

Sara, my oldest is 34 although I don't know how that is possible as I am only 29 :H
The bar bill issue is seriously annoying, I totally agree. Fortunately my friends are more likely to want to meet for lunch instead of dinner & at this stage of the game no one drinks that early in the day. Plus, they all know I have had a serious attitude for nearly 8 years about anyone drinking & driving since my 18 year old nephew lost his life that way.

Mema, glad you are with us - keep going

Where in the world are Marshy, Pamina & assorted missing Abbers??

[EnglishWriter77]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

I'm here!

Sara - I have been stiffed by that one too many times, so don't go in for the split 5 ways type deal anymore, stingy or not!

Lav - sorry to hear about your Nephew

Uni - What's up?

EW

[greeneyes]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Fly by hello! :l and :goodjob: all around!

Healing With The Masters Tues & Thurs PM this month. Some really good speakers lined up! Replays avail for 48 hours afterwards. It's free.

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Hi Fabbies!

:bday3: to Jenny's son! Do Mom's get presents for birthing their kids? THEY SHOULD So Jenny I hope you have a great day with your son and also get a nice present.

Lav, I don't think we've had as much rain / snow melt as you guys, but we're pretty soaked here too. 20 very muddy dog feet several times a day. Bring on the hot and dry! Can we just skip spring???? How's Lily?

Mema, it's great to see you here! I like how you put that - energy to have a full life instead of coasting along accepting scraps. Wow that is so true! You are gonna love AF life. I'm so glad you found us.

Mario, always a pleasure!!!

Uni, I hope you had a fabulous day lounging and hope that helped you feel better. I admire your courage just facing the depression head on and doing your very best to deal with it sober.

Sara, years ago I had a horse and our trainer liked to "invite" us all out for sushi. Especially those of us who don't like sushi. She would eat tons of sushi and then want to evenly split the bill. I only got sucked into that one a couple of times. Funny - she never wanted to split the bill evenly when some of us drinkers drug everyone along to the Mexican place..... :H I seriously find it to be a bore to go out sober with people who are drinking a lot. It's either boring or just downright scary thinking I used to blabber away just like that. (TMI, embarrass myself, etc.)

Wow Lav. You're 29? Me too!!!!

Hi EW!!! Hope all is well with you.

Today was a long one. AA, Mary Kay delivery, then pretty far north for my first Weight Watchers training. Wow, there is a ton of manual stuff that has to happen at "traveling meetings." (the ones that are not held at a regular Weight Watchers center) I will have to WORK for my minimum wage!!!!!! Then to the Mission for volunteering in the Family Center. Did orientation today with a woman who finally escaped a 15 year abusive marriage. My heart really goes out to these women who need to have SO much courage to leave their situations. Makes me realize what a cushy life I really have. Was going to go to Stitch n Bitch with the girls tonight but have decided to stay in and call it an early night. American Idol here I come. Anyone else watching this season?

Oh Sara - At stitch and bitch we have a rule that we never talk about anyone who is not there (aka no gossip). In my old drunken days, that would have severely limited conversation!!! It feels so good to hang out a couple hours with a group of women, and walk away with absolutely no regrets since there was absolutely no gossip. Everyone works together to enforce it.

Lav, I can only assume Greenie, Marshy, G-man, and everyone else who has gone missing is too busy with __________________ to talk to us!!!! Sexpots all of 'em.

Well, one thing is for sure......

DG

[Lavande]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

DG -
what are sexpots???:H:H
I don't remember any more :H

Still raining, the mud is going to be ungodly but what can you do?
I don't don't want to hear any BS about droughts this summer - the ground & the bodies of water around here are saturated & full.

I just wish the Stink bugs would drown - sick of them!!!!!

have a good night all!
Lav

[jennyneric]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Checking in before bed. Today was great and productive! I'm so tired tho! I wrestled with craving tonight and I can only imagine tomorrow will be worse. It will be 28 days, always have a problem around 30 days and Friday to boot! I'll make it through tho, no excuses! Nite all!

[universal]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Hi, not sure if anyone will see this before tomorrows post. I am having a hard time right now. I slipped on Monday - had a therapy appointment and it brought up a lot of things that were hard to deal with. My sponsor is very "god" religious which I am not and she basically is telling me that once I do the steps all my pain will go away and I will not need my medication and my anxiety and depression and blah blah blah will go away. Well, I have been clinically depressed and diagnosed with panic disorder since I was 12 so somehow I doubt that it will just majically disapear. and to top it off I am working on step 4 and I am having a big issue with the fact that I am to forgive everyone, take complete ownership for my part in these (I have been raped once, sexually assaulted once and a # of other traumas) - so I have a problem that I am supposed to take ownership in these and then pray for these people because they are sick? And then just let it go? So basically I am having a very difficult time, my psychologist doesn't think AA will work when it comes to my traumas - in some cases yes, but not all. So basically I am pissed off, hurt etc. And to top it off, my best friend who I was in program with has decided that I am bad for her recovery so she doesn't want to talk to me. I don't blame her at all, she is the one who called my sponsor on Monday and got me to stop drinking so i don't blame her, that wasn't good for her recovery at all but it still friggin hurts cause I love her and miss her so much. I just want to crawl under the covers and say forget it all - this is so hard.

[Determinator]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Uni! xxxxxxx extra hugs for you dear. so sorry to hear your having a crap time. I'd say you may want a more cerebral and less religious therapist (just a thought). Maybe cognitive behavoural therapy? not my field of expertise but I'm sure there are many options. there are other recovery groups that have face-to-face meetings as well such as SMART Recovery? - Introduction
and drug - alcohol - addiction - SOS-Save Our Selves - Non 12 Step which are non religious in nature.
your friend is bummed out but I'm sure if you get along with your sober happy self that you'll be hanging out together in no time.

well, last day in colorado then it's back home late tomorrow and I'm looking forward to getting some sleep this weekend. 14 hours on the retail floor today and I'm about coockoo

we had a celebration dinner tonight and everyone but me had margaritas at the Mexican restaurant. glad to say it didn't bother me one bit and I even got accolades for being a responsible designated driver.

Happy birthday Jennys son!

be well friends,

zzzzzzzzz

[universal]

AF Daily~10 March 2011!

Thanks Det - it's actually my AA sponsor who is so religious - my therapist wants me to be careful with AA because the support they offer is so religious and I am not.

I will check out the other programs you mention to see if they have meetings in my area.
Thanks!