I have done this for years since I was a teenager in my room - I carried it on through university, and also when I started working I worked shifts so had days on my own. I was so scared for such a long time to try new things in case I was rubbish,develop hobbies, I was worried if I did develop hobbies that it would mean that I had time away from my group of friends/would be forgotten/left out. I still do have that fear with creative things such as art,writing and music - all things I love - but I am scared to try.I still do have pangs that I am taking too much time for myself (derby is 3 evenings a week),my friends comment that I'm not around as much as I used to be at weekends. I have new friends now through the team as well.
I think we all need an outlet - I just need to find a better outlet. I'm seeing a cbt counsellor at the moment to help me stop this crazy thinking. Gardening and rollerderby help - I am going to try zumba, and start running again now that the weather is nice.I'm also looking forward to decorating my house.
Keeping busy helps with depression and avoiding drinking thoughts,I have a long long long way to go but am making small steps.
Thanks for listening - this forum gives me so much inspiration and I doubt I would be making these changes if I hadn't stumbled across it.
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