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[Doggygirl]

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Oh!!! Just saw Kaslo's 4 month AF thread!! CONGRATULATIONS KASLO!!!!!! :yougo::yougo::yougo: You have been such a nice addition to our merry band.

DG

[Determinator]

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Happy Sunday AB-O-Matics across the fruited plains!

Jenny, what a powerful and frightening post. it reminds me of a few from my earlier times here. please print it out and keep it someplace close to you. you will need to see it in a week or so when you are feeling calm and brave again. We just CANNOT let our guard down against such a ruthless enemy, and these kind of reminders are painful but not as painful as relapse. I'm very glad you're here with us dear.

Buff? oh my (blush) I used to be buff, but haven't lifted weights in a year. I'm just glad my new primal dietary lifestyle has helped me not to lose too much muscle mass. I'm going to return to weigh lifting because I think it's healthy to activate both type I and II muscle fibers for health and longevity.
if anyone is feeling too old or frail to exercise or just needs some inspiration the click this link:

Welcome to the public section of Arthur De Vany's Evolutionary Fitness. - Arthur De Vany Members

Thats the father of the Paleo diet now in his mid 70's and he makes me look like a chump. he's also a brilliant scientist and I had the pleasure of hearing an interview he did for Underground Wellness radio. that's one smart dude.

well, I made a little treat this morning, buckwheat pancakes from scratch! toasted and ground the buckwheat and was making cakes minutes thereafter. heaven! now I'm sleeeeeepy.

be well everyone and all to come

[jennyneric]

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[Determinator]

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Jenny, if your ankle/foot went black and blue not long after the fall then you very likely have a fracture. I've done it twice now (once on each ankle). Please get it looked at. you don't want broken bones to be rubbing on tendons etc. elevate it and put ice on it several times per day. you don't need to punish yourself. you just need to get well. we'll do it with you.

[Lavande]

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Yes - CONGRATS to Kaslo ~ 4 AF months!!!!
Awesome

I'm not accomplishing things either today DG & I certainly had no exercise class so I'll wake up tomorrow exactly the same size I am today :H

About YB - I believe he removed himself from our home so I couldn't put the proverbial gun to his head, again! He is commited to preserving his fecked up thinking & little boy ego. Eight years ago (while we were building this home) his behavior went off the charts & I found that he had been conducting an 'inappropriate relationship' with a 'friend' of mine. That all went down 10 days before our move-in date to our new home & the newly retired life we both worked so hard for. I made him go to a psychiatrist - refused to move in here with him until he did! He was diagnosed with severe & chronic depression, was put on Zoloft & continued to see the doc for about 18 months but then quit it all. I drank over his shitty behavior back then but am not going to do that anymore. At this point all I really want from his is some honesty. I want him to own up - man up & take responsibility for his shit. I have no say over what he does, he won't even sit for a conversation - weenie. Phew - glad that's off my chest

Jenny, you need to own up & take responsibility for your behavior too. It's not OK to keep repeating the same mistakes. I feel bad for you & your kids. It's time to bite the bullet & just take care of business! You can do it - lots of us have but you need to do the work. We are here for you :l

I'd better go do something useful now

[jennyneric]

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[InChains]

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For Jenny, this quote used to be in my signature, I think you might like it

'The way I change the past is by not repeating it'

hope you're feeling better today

xIC

[Doggygirl]

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Hi Inchy. Good to see you here. :l

Jenny, hang in there. Your description of sporting and explaining bruises at work reminded me of a sales award trip several years ago. It was a cruise. I got so shit faced the first night, I was falling down on the dance floor in front of company big shots. Of course I blamed it on the waves. :H Funny how everyone else wasn't falling down. Anyway...when I got back to the room (which I really don't recall) I must have fallen in the bathroom and hit my head or nose. I had a shiner to beat the band for the enitre trip. In close quarters like that - ugghhh. No running or hiding. I could have died.

Here is the good news. If you stop drinking, you wont' ever have to worry about drunk related embarrassing moments ever again. Isn't that good? I love it. I still do and say stupid things from time to time, but no drunken blackout insanity for me any more.

DG

[papmom3]

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Jenny-definitely get that ankle looked at tomorrow. If it is fractured, waiting a whole week to get help could really mess up your recovery. If its a small fracture, or a bad sprain, an Aircast and some crutches will help tremendously if that's the route your doc goes. I agree with Det- keep off it today and put lots of ice on it. Housework will wait.
Papmom the ex Athletic Trainer

[Doggygirl]

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P3 the ex Athletic Trainer.....do you give massages????? If I beg???????? If I :upset:???? I am going to be SO sore tomorrow..... I BETTER be slender and fit and gorgeous or I'm going to :b&d: the leader of that class today!!!!!

DG

[papmom3]

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I was pretty stingy with the massages, esp. with the football players (those pigs :H) I always made sure my massages were not so pleasant :H.
Hey, after fixing my pond and mowing the tundra yesterday, I could barely get out of bed this morning. I need a massage too!!!

Cassia arrived here on our sovereign shores safe and sound. She's very happy!!

[Doggygirl]

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(((((Lav)))))) How frustrating. And tripple :b&d::b&d::b&d: to FYB for whatever that inappropriate thing was. May his wanker rot and fall off.

P3, not exactly the type of massage I think I had in mind LOL!!!!

Hello Cassia! Come post with us! (when you have time of course!)

DG

[InChains]

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haha, DG are you british?

[momof3]

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Hello All,

The rugged maniac race was a blast. Everyone in our group finished and some placed. I did not stay for the celebration after and was home by 6:00 pm. I am pretty scraped and bruised but NOT from drinking. It was from pushing myself to the limits in that crazy course!!! You should have seen my kids faces when I walked in the door covered head to toe in mud. One of our team members sliced up her arm pretty badly and needed stitches.

Jenny--your story was very painful to read. I hope this is your bottom. I feel badly for your children; they are at such a vulnerable age and this is something that they are not likely to forget. Show them that you are strong enough to quit. They have to know that they are more important than the booze.

Papmom3. Sorry to hear about the job offer that is likely to be less money than you would like. When the boss makes that call to you, give it all you have to convince him that you are worth being paid 5000 more than they intend. You have nothing to lose since you're not going to take the offer if they cannot meet your salary requirements.

Congrats on 4 mos Kaslo

Det, good to see that you are feeling healthy and strong again.

Hello to DG, Lav and the rest of the crew.

M3

[Cinders]

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Hi Abbers,

Jenny, I have been just like you for years. It does get worse. Much, much, worse.

Today is the first day of my second week sober. I feel awesome. I am blessed, though, because my husband does not drink. So, I don't have to be tempted by anything he does, such as going out with the "buds," etc.

For a while, I suggest you change your lifestyle so that you can avoid drinking situations. I am weak and know I can't be around it. Perhaps in the future, but right now, I have to change persons, places and things to stay sober.

Believe me, I have been here a long time, through three rehabs and many, many incidents that the old timers here know about. And many they don't. My elevator has plummeted pretty quickly and I have decided this is it. I am jumping off now.

I agree with the poison position. It is poison, even for non-alcoholics. However, they don't chase the drunk. We do. We drink to get drunk.

Our only choice is don't take that first drink.

I am doing it ODAT right now and feeling very good. You can feel that way in a week, too.

My last withdrawal was the worst I have ever gone through. I saw demons and heard voices whispering and music I didn't like. This is true. I kept brushing away the bugs that were landing on me. One night I was awake in the dark, I didn't want to bother my husband, and I was so paranoid because I was seeing and hearing very scary things. I sat and cried and prayed. I kept a flashlight by my side so I could shine a light on the visions and keep them at bay. Complete and total paranoia. I got through it and am much better now but I never, ever want to get to that dark place again. I felt like I was looking at Dante's Inferno.

This sounds really odd, I know, but these withdrawals, the tremors, the sweats, the awful visions, the sounds, the throwing up, the diarrhea, the fear are all part of late term alcoholic withdrawal. If you keep drinking, I imagine you might get there, too.

The yawning gates of Hell. Quite seriously.

Today I will not drink. I will love my husband and spend time with him. I will take care of my daily needs and my family's. I will reach out, and I am reaching out to you. I care, we all care.

Today, do not drink. Worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.

Love,
Cindi