I've been trying to get to as many meetings as I can. I've been seeing a guy from when I first came into AA. He had a very long relapse...a good year or more. He's now back & in counseling w/his wife. It sounds like the relapse was pretty bad, & he's now trying to rebuild his life. He said (as all other relapsers say) that he slacked off meetings & fell into thinking he could now control his drinking. I think he's going to be OK if he stays w/AA.
I just have to take the second step every day to know that I cannot drink. When I did the second step w/my sponsor last week, we really looked at the insanity of my life. Do I want to go back to that? In some ways, a sober life is more difficult than a drinking life.
- I no longer just "go along to get along."
- I sometimes have to stand up for myself.
- I have to tell the truth every minute of every day.
- I have to learn to relax "naturally" rather than "chemically."
- etc.
But, it's so worth it! I've given up AL & the insanity of the drinking life.
Mary
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