I haven't posted in ages, but I have been fighting the good fight and not drinking. Today is day 107 AF for me. Most days it feels pretty natural and I am very happy and grateful for being sober. Some days are harder. Yesterday was one. I was in a lousy mood most of the day...I don't know if I'm in perimenopause or what, but I have these days when I feel like I'm in a premenstrual state...rage just bubbling under the surface for no good reason. Anyway, yesterday was one of those days, and I was meeting a group of friends for dinner. Before I went out I started thinking how much I wanted the relaxing effects of a glass (or three) of wine. I called a friend I know now from SMART and even though all I got was her voicemail, just talking myself through it in a message helped. I knew in my heart that drinking was not what I needed or wanted; I just needed to find a way to access my heart!
So, going strong with some challenging days. I've been unbelievably busy with work, family, house, dog, exercise...that's why I've been absent for a bit. But I think of you all and miss you when i'm not here. I'm going to try to check in more often!
Have a peaceful, sober day Ab-Fabbers!
Sara
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