Joyful June - week 1

[papmom3]

Joyful June - week 1

Rusty-hang in there. I hate shopping too-with 50 extra pounds on my 5' 2.5" frame it's very frustrating and depressing. I absolutely LOVE to swim and wish I had a pool to jump into. I always feel so much better and happier after I've had a swim. I think I was a water nymph in my previous life! Enjoy the pool!!

[Rusty]

Joyful June - week 1

Papmom,

You are one of my mentors....you are always so positive and supportive and I so appreciate you....especially today!:h Thank you!

[papmom3]

Joyful June - week 1

awww Rusty! Blush Blush!! I hope your day turned out OK!

:l :h back at cha!!

[Lavande]

Joyful June - week 1

Good evening kids,

This long day just keeps going on & on........

I thought I had moved away from the dark side of the moon but apparently not Found a puddle of water on the floor & a wet ceiling just outside of my shop but I don't think it's an actual leak. It may be a condensation problem with th AC system. I emailed my spouse, he doesn't seem to care about that either.

Heat wave in full swing, ugh! Looking forward to cooler temps, rain, thunder storms whatever this weekend for relief.

I haven't shopped for dress clothes in ? long. I'm sure I'd be fairly disappointed in that area myself Rusty - don't sweat it!

Pink pants papmom??? I don't think I could :H

Hello & good night to everyone. I'm going to try to sleep like a normal person tonight - I hope.

Lav

[Stargazerlily]

Joyful June - week 1

Good early morning...

I have to be to work early today, so made sure to set my inner alarm clock. I was able to work through the anxiety, with affirmations and time. I find that sometimes I start the negative inner thinking patterns, (what if I fail, we need money, I'm no good at my job, was it a mistake to change jobs, will I ever be able to retire, I could lose the house, could I support myself) that are ridiculous but somehow take over and cause anxiety. Changing my thoughts and starting a different mantra inside my head made it decrease and finally lessen. Plus, I thought of a plan, called someone to go out to lunch, and took positive action. I have really been thinking about how right now, I have everything I need. Living in the present is the key to peace and calmness. Worrying about the future is my problem.

Cyn, loved your description of the zen doggie/knitter person. I think managing finances is the key to a low stress life. So good to hear from you.

Chill, interesting about the reflexology and so good to hear about your lovely day. I agree that it makes sense to find something you like to do, rather than go for money only and have a high stress life.

Papmom, your camper activity sounds fun!!

Rusty, dress shopping can be frustrating. Last year I bought the biggest dress size of my life for my daughter's wedding. I just blew it off and looked the best I could. I was in the misses section myself. Have you ever not liked someone because they were not model thin? I haven't, and I wish that we did not hate ourselves for being at the weight we are at. But, I really have been trying to lose weight too, so know where you are coming from. The pool sounds heavenly, that is the only thing lacking in my life. Pool activity in the hot weather.

Dewdrop, sounds like you are having a rough week. It is Thursday, so not much longer till the weekend. I loved the stories about the middle east, I kept thinking about them. Thanks for sharing. It is disturbing that US men think it is OK to exploit women from third world countries, I mean WTF.

It is starting to rain here today, and it is supposed to cool off, for which I am really grateful. The extremely hot weather makes me tired, but I do love summer. To all, sending you strength and hope, with AF as our goal today.

[Rusty]

Joyful June - week 1

Good Morning Joyful Friends!

We had severe thunderstorms here last night and we were without power most of the night. Back on now, though!

Lav, I hope that is just a problem with the AC and not something worse....especially so close to where you work everyday. I hope YB changes his mind and decided to figure out a solution.

Star-all those thoughts about your new job are normal, I think. Good for you for going out to lunch with a friend. I, like you, worry constantly about the future.

My posting will be limited the rest of the week. Today I am picking up my mom's brother and SIL at the airport....along with some other elderly relatives, who are in town for my niece's wedding. It will be 4 LONG days of being with relatives. I confess to you, my friends here, that a huge part of my sour mood yesterday was anticipating seeing my 3-years sober aunt. My mother blurted out to her of my drinking problem and the fact that my family wanted me to go to rehab back in 2008. Well, my aunt called me, much to my embarrassment, and gushed about how rehab and AA saved her life and she wanted to share this journey with me, urged me to go to rehab and then AA (October, 2008). I told her I wasn't doing that, that I would find my way out. AND I HAVE. But when I see her every summer, she makes a comment about how I haven't chosen a 12-step, faith-filled method for being AF...and she's very condescening. :argh: But, I know what I am going to say to her, and I have my plan in place.

I'm off to the gym. Have a wonderful AF Thursday! And....thank you again, for listening.:h

[Jolie]

Joyful June - week 1

Good morning guys!

Quick check in for me - hate it when work interferes with my MWO time

Hot one today but looks like the weekend will bring some relief.

Chill - those pink overalls are just too darn cute. Putting a pair of them on would instantly put me in a good mood.

Lav - hope your leaky ceiling doesn't turn out to be a huge problem! Tell YB to just get his ass over there and fix it! Men (((sigh)))

Rusty - I guess your aunt means well but I hate having anything shoved down my throat. Smart idea having a plan in place to deal with her! Hope all goes well.

I'm really looking forward to this wedding as a ton of my friends will be there and it will probably be the first real gathering of all of us since I haven't been drinking. We will be sitting with our best friends (who do not drink). For once I plan on remembering the whole evening, what everyone said and wore, etc. Sober life = good life!

Cyn, Star, Dew, Rustop, PM3, where the heck is PA Guy - traveling again?

You guys have a great day and for those of us enduring this heat wave,

KEEP COOL!!

[cyntree]

Joyful June - week 1

Hey Junesters!

Dew, Lav, Rusty, and all suffering from going 'round the dark side': sending you love and support. I personally think it has to do with the extra sunspot activity in the last few days, everything feels tightly wound and harsh to me right now, and I have had a terrible time keeping a decent mood in place, so I sympathize. At least we can vent here, and then keep plugging away at our affirmations. Really good point, Star, about staying in the moment, thanks.

Pap - good job!!! Did your mentor explain the order to re-tighten the nuts on the tires? I seem to recall it is a 'star' formation... I never did a whole brake job, but did learn how to adjust them, and that was fun.

RE: hormones. My life was totally out of control, I couldn't sleep, couldn't form sentences, my moods were lethal....so my husband (having a social conversation with a prominent Endocrinologist) pipes up - "is there anything you can do to help my wife?" AAARGH! But here is the info the Doc gave me - remember this is from the one-time president of the National End. Society. He believes that the health risks associated with NOT supplementing with hormones is as great or greater than the risks associated with taking hormones. Well, that was all I needed to hear - I don't do synthetic hormones, but I do take a hormone balancing concoction (different levels of estradiol, progesterone, testosterone) made up by a compounding pharmacy. Every so often I get my hormones checked to see if all the levels are still where they should be. It gave me my life back, so maybe think about it? There are lots of things to do that are a more natural approach than taking synthetic estrogen...
OK, off my soap box now - sending everyone lots of support --

[rebirth]

Joyful June - week 1

Dropping in quickly to give out a big hug to you all. My favourite thread..xxxx

[Lavande]

Joyful June - week 1

Hey kids!

I slept fairly well (thank goodness) but was awakened by a phone call from an old neighbor. She's pushing 80 now & I hate to put her off but really........
So, I've been behind in everything all morning, oh well.

The leak is still happening & at this point if the friggin dry wall falls down - I DON'T CARE!
Why should this be all my problem??

Hi rebirth - hope you are well.

cyn, I heard a little about those sunspots.........nothing we can do but wait it out I suppose.
I am going to get the HRT dosage increased next month when I see my NP - to hell with the consequences. I agree, living with unbalanced hormones is like trying to live in hell.

Jolie - it sure is hot down here

Star, glad you are feeling better!

Rusty, tell your aunt to mind her own damn business ~ I can't stand being lectured or preached to about this stuff or anything!

OK, going to do a chicken check ~ poor girls out there in this heat!

[papmom3]

Joyful June - week 1

Hey Cyn-yep I knew how to alternate tighting the lug nuts from when I learned how to change a car tire. But, I have a sneaky suspicion that I put the bearings and hub back on backwards. I think I should have put the bearing and washing in first, then the hub, then the axle nut then the rim. I put the bearing and washer on after I but the hub on. I might have to take the other wheel off just to see the order.

Bad news tho on putting brakes and a new axle on-well over $1200 and I only have six plus he can't get me in until August. Plus, he worked for a ford dealership for 6 years right as the Ford Escapes came out (2001) and he said there were 35 recalls that first year!! He also said it has a poor repair record and they did a lot with the transmissions and wheels. Back to the drawing board I guess. He did say the Jeep Grand Cherokees were pretty much indestructable but I can't afford those.

Sigh, looks like the Paphut will have to sit in the drive until I win the lottery. No camping for this crew this year. :upset:

RB-great to see you! Hope all is well!!

Jolie-I totally know what you mean about work interfereing (with a lot of things!!). Glad you're looking forward to the wedding! Make sure you have your plan firmly in place just in case!!

[papmom3]

Joyful June - week 1

Hotter than Hades here in MA. Severe Storm watches are already up for my area until 11pm. I've rearranged the basement to put all the crates against a non window wall, I have an emergency storage container filled with clothes and food for the kids and a small first aid kit. Flashlight, battery operated radio and all 3 phone batteries are charged. I'll have my laptop and the Ipad down there with me when it's time to take cover. I've got satelite hooked up as well. If all the power goes out I have my cell phone. Right now it's a bright but hazy sun with a stiff breeze.


I'll check back in once the storms pass through if I can.

[Chillgirl]

Joyful June - week 1

Evening Guys

Papmom - I hope the storm misses you but its good that you are prepared, stay safe. The world weather has gone mad and although Scotland isnt the warmest place in the world, we are having much lower temperatures than normal for June.

Im so sorry about the car situ, the jeep cherokees are indeep great cars, is there no chance of getting an old one at an affordable price? I am in complete awe of you and your tinkering, I could never hope to change a tyre..... I will stand next to you in my pink overalls and hand you the spanner

Star! I could have written your negative self talk word for word, adding "what will become of me?, i will never have my own home again, I may end up in a ghetto on housing benefit, what if I get ill? what if, what if what if........"

Stargazerlily;1127931 wrote:
(what if I fail, we need money, I'm no good at my job, was it a mistake to change jobs, will I ever be able to retire, I could lose the house, could I support myself) that are ridiculous but somehow take over and cause anxiety. I have really been thinking about how right now, I have everything I need. Living in the present is the key to peace and calmness.

Of course right now there is food in the fridge and gas in my car and you are spot on, right now is all we have. The anxiety we put ourselves through is madness but Im happy to say Im much better at changing my thoughts around to positive ones than i used to be and the anxiety is therefore shorter lived. It is definitely about practice so keep with your positive affirmations they really do work.

Jolie - Its good to hear your best friends are non drinkers, you guys are going to have the most fun there!

Cyn its good to see you back posting and Rebirth let us know how life is with you.

Rusty - listen to our wise Lavantitude and tell your Aunt politely that you are doing just fine without her preaching. I really feel for you, closed minded people infuriate me, why cant they be open to other possibilities and the fact that they dont have a monopoly on whats right for everyone else.

I have had an amazing day! Got a call about a real estate job and have an interview next wed. I had also applied for a part time position as a dental receptionist and have an interview for that next thurs!!! The dental one is in the town I want to move too and if I got it I would still be able to do the dog walking which would be perfect. Im not sure where the real estate position is for, im going to the head office in Glasgow but they have various branches and if it were in the right town, it too would be fantastic....

I have another date tomorrow night with a nice guy i've seen a few times, he is really keen but my heart isnt in it and I think I may have to end our dating. I cant get enthusiastic about anyone other than the Doc, he is a crazy, eccentric with a whole host of issues but he is the most interesting man I have met in many years. :h

[Lavande]

Joyful June - week 1

Still hot here too! Phew!!!! I am grateful for the AC
Heat index way over 100......
YB showed up to cut grass anyway. He looked at the leak problem & said he would be back Sunday. I won't be holding my breath, that's for sure.

papmom, seroiusly, go take a look at a pickup with an extended cab. I miss driving ours (YB took it when he left). It hauled our popup camper, a large utility trailer filled with tons of firewood or furniture - did anything & everything. We've had several of them over the years - very useful.

Chill, one of these job interviews will turn into something good for you. I think you have to wait it out

Well, severe storm warnings until 10 pm are in effect here but I'm not seeing anything & it's almost 7 pm. Hmmm, should I water the veggie garden or not? :H

[papmom3]

Joyful June - week 1

Still hearing thunder but the worst is over. Lots of power outages and trees down-just heard from a friend on the North Shore-no power for her. Only had to spend an hour or so in the basement but we didn't get the brunt of it that's for sure. Heard there was a touchdown in the town just north of my bro. Scary shite.

Chill-I'm so happy you are getting all these interviews!! That is so great and I know something absolutely perfect will come your way. If you could keep the dog walking gig that would be awesome!

(Hey-why am I seeing lightening again? Jeez! Enough already!!)

Lav-I'm leary of Pickups because of my 54 mile commute every day. The extended cab would have to be big enough to haul 3 crates (albeit smaller ones) and I'd have to get those tool boxes for the sides to put all the stuff in that is currently in my underbed storage containers in the cargo area of the OB. When I thought I was getting one of the 2 jobs I interviewed for in my town I was definitely going to look at PUs. But I don't think right now they would be an option. My brother drives a Tundra all over creation and pays through the nose for gas but he also tows a big ass chipper and a boat trailer.
I hope YB comes to fix the AC leak sooner than later-water damage=bad shite.