AF Daily - Friday June 6

[Doggygirl]

Hi Fabbies! Sorry for my absence this week. Been zoom zoomin. And I'm leaving in about 20 minutes for Akron for AA Founders Day. Should be a fun trip. Who knows what the weather will be!! If its' like IL this week, it could be 100 at 3PM, or it could be 57 at 3PM. :H

Just wanted to say I :h you guys and I think of you all the time. You guys are in my head for good I think!!! So even when I can't post I'm thinking of you. Will report in when I get home!

One thing is for sure....it should be pretty easy not to drink at a massive AA convention.

DG

[Kaslo]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

Good morning Absters! Briefly logging in from windy cool NEBC. On my way out to the bush, everyone have a great day!!! Will file a kaslo report later. k

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

I'm headed out to the bush too! Need to hit the river with little doggie earlier than this! Almost too hot already ~ Grrr... This is why I don't get on facebook very much. I should have left an hour ago but instead looked at a friend's vacation album. Later!

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

Good Morning Abbers!!

It's a beautiful COOL morning here and I slept until almost 9 O'clock!!! WTF??? It wasn't a particularily restful sleep-very vivid dreams that were almost like a TV show but I didn't have the TV on! Anyway, the sun is shining through thin clouds, the breeze is heavenly, the windows are open and I have NOTHING on the agenda!! If I can unkink this old body and wake up my brain (so I can type!), I think at least one doggie and I have to go find a lovely place to walk.

I just want to thank everyone for the kind words and support yesterday. I was in a really dark place and it was very hard to crawl out. As I think back to all the events that happened, it was as I was leaving the RV place that I fell into the whole. All of a sudden it just seemed like I was fighting fighting fighting to keep this dream alive and it kept getting popped. I immediately went to Walmart and bought Freetos and Twinkies. As soon as I got home that's what I had for lunch. The mood got darker and darker as I prepared for the storm. I was even half wishing a tornado would hit and destroy the house so I could start over! How sick is that? I didn't want to get hurt in this catastrophe, nor my pets so don't worry that I was that far gone. I kept eating the fritos and twinkies and by the time I fell into bed the only thing keeping me from diving into a bottle was the fact it was too late to go get one.

You have all spoken about the relationship between food and mood-with us, with your kids. I think I finally get it now. This site isn't just for finding our way out from an AL addiction, it's for finding our way our out from an unhealthy life style where all sorts of things can take the place of AL addiction if we don't work on getting to the root of the problems (peeling the onion ala Greenie). I'm not sure why I'm so hard on myself or why I turn destructive when things go wrong but it's something I need to work on or it will kill me just as AL would have.

So thank you again for being here and standing by me and supporting and encouraging me. I love you guys!!

DG-have a blast at the Founders Meeting and I hope the weather is just perfect for you all.

Greenie-stay cool today!

Kas-you amaze me! I can't wait to hear all about your adventures today. Hope your first sweep of the area proves to be what is really going on-no bird kill. Vic-keep your eyes and your gun ready!!

Nelz-great job!! Keep it up and when you get a chance, please post some stuff about you!

SL-:goodjob: on your AF trip to LV!! You go girl!! What a test and you passed with flying colors. Stay strong and stay true to your self.

Marshy-hugs going with your to see mom this weekend and for the "talk". Glad GF is going with and that your mom will finally get to meet her. She's very special!

Lav-can't believe you didn't get the storm! Better water double today!

Jenny, AFM (where are you?), M3, Deter-have a great day and weekend!

Gotta go feed me and the pups/kits-I see cannabilism in there eyes!!

[jennyneric]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

Good Morning abbers!

Good to see you DG, have fun at your convention!

Kes- your job sound so fun! I would love it!

Greenie- Yes I am busy with school, I do like it. . .the English class anyway. The math is difficult to understand and my teacher leaves a bit to be desired. We have a 6 week class and we are suppose to get through 8 chapters. Currently it is the end of the second week and we are just starting on chapeter 2, I think we are a little behind! This week end I think I am going to jump ahead as far as I can and Monday I would like to be able to take the chapter 2 and 3 tests. Well see how that goes.

P3, I get very aggravated when I work and work on something and the chips just will not fall into place. Luckily I have a short attention span so I forget pretty quickly and go right back to trying. Dreaming and doing are not choices we make, its who we are. You can want to stop dreaming and trying to make the dreams come true but you will continue to do it and learn from each mistake or mis-step because that is who you are.:l

I am going out on Friday night for the first time in four weeks. My BFF's daughters birthday party (12) and it is at Main Event. Now they are not drinkers at all. They may have a beer are a glass of wine but that is it. I see three problems. 1)there is a bar there 2) it is Friday and that is my one problem day at this point 3) I can't leave, the party is 6-10. I have no idea if I will crave or not. I am eating before I go so I won't be hungry and I plan to have birthday cake, her family always has the best birthday cake. I guess all I can do is tell myself I will not loose my sobriety on a Friday night ever again and stick to that. Besides I have to clean house, work 6 hours, write two papers, and finish ch 2 and 3 in math this weekend. I can't do that with a hangover!

:l love y'all! Thanks for lending an ear! Have a great day!

[jennyneric]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

P3, good work on digging deep and figuring out your mood! That is the way to fix it!

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

Jenny-most of your plan sounds great. I however see one HUGE problem:

"I have no idea if I will cave or not." In my experience and opinion, you have just left the door open. I will put this out there for you to chew on and swallow and digest or spit it out: It's too early for you to go to something like this. Because there is a bar there (and why the hell is a 12 yo BD party being held at a place with a bar????), there WILL be people bellying up. Maybe they can stop at one, but you cannot and you know this to be frighteningly true. If this is your best friend, then she will understand why you are just dropping off your daughter and will come pick her up (and wait outside) when it's over. I don't want to see you start over. You've worked to hard and overcome too much pain. 5 months into being AF, I told my sister I would not be attending her annual Labor Day party and I was honest with her why I made this decision. She wasn't happy, didn't really understand but totally respected my decision. I had NEVER missed this party in the 20 years she had had it. I also didn't miss an opportunity to get trashed in those 20 year.

Good luck with your decision. We are here for you but you know what you will get if your self fulfilling prophecy comes true: :b&d:

[jennyneric]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

Thank you for the advice P3 and you are right, not only is it to early for me to go but it is also on Friday. Let me explain about the bar. At Main event it's like chucky cheese with a bowling ally and laser tag. They also have pool tables and a bar so the adults can occupy themselves while the kids play in hopes that they will stay longer.

Ok just text my friend and told her I would be dropping my daughter off and asked if we could hangout Saturday or Sunday instead.

P3-one little thing, I said "crave" not "cave" however they are probably the same thing in my mind.

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

Whoops! So you did! How funny that I read it as "cave". Sorry about that but I don't think it changes anything. I think you will be VERY happy that you made the decision you did. I am quite looking forward to the Labor Day party this Sept. I feel very strong in my sobriety, do not feel peer pressure anymore having been to many family get togethers and my sister's big New Year's Day OH and really looking forward to seeing old friends and making new ones now that I am fully present and interested in others, not just "can I sneak in another glass of wine?". You will get there Jenny-it just takes time and hard work and tough decisions. :l

[Lavande]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

Good late morning Abbers!

DG - enjoy the convention

Kaslo, I trust you are keeping an eye out for bears........

Greenie, almost too hot here for anything outside but I will water my thirsty veggies

Jenny, the thought of Math class brings back terrible memories....esp. Statistics - ugh!!
Good luck

papmom, I thank God that those dark moments (days) come & go & are not too awfully frequent! Sometimes you just feel like the Universe is taking a great big dump on you, right? :H
The more I read & learn about the laws of attraction ~ the more I believe. We need to keep our thoughts positive even when we don't feel like doing so. The Universe sends us what we think about so we need to keep thinking good things.

OK, time for chores & maybe lunch!

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

AMEN Lav!! I dumped the last of the twinkies and fritos into the trash and had a very healthy brunch. Too early for lunch but fancying my all one smoothie in a bit. Nothing has changed from yesterday but I am trying very hard to turn my PERCEPTIONS around and think only good things will happen. I'm going to concentrate on making the Paphut a comfortable and cozy retreat for me or for anyone who wants to visit. I might even put an ad on that couch crash website when I'm done fixing up things inside.
Water your veggies Lav, even if it rains buckets today!

OK, not zooming today but need to get my butt off the chair and get active.

:l

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

Hummm... got me thinking about New England in the fall.......

Marshy :l:l

Nelz good to see you here!

OK EVERYBODY STAY AWAY FROM THE NEGATIVITY SUCKHOLE!!! It's dark & ugly down there.

Way to go Jen!!! Excellent choice!

[jennyneric]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

I wanted to let y'all know. . .I listen to a radio show called Health Wealth and Happiness. It is wonderful! They have all kinds of Doctors and Nutritionist on there with good tips. Its on 11-12 (so in about 10 min, they really don't start till 11:08 tho it's just commercials) central you can listen on 1190am on the internet or the I heart radio app or on the rational broadcasting website or rational broadcasting on ustream. It has helped me so much and I would love it if y'all would give it a listen. The host is a yoga instructor Kurt Johnsen.

[papmom3]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

I will definitely check that out Jen!

Greenie-You (and doggie) would be SOOOOO welcome to come up for a visit! And for you? the indoor shower for sure!! :H

And y'all know the invite extends to each and everyone of you right???

[momof3]

AF Daily - Friday June 6

Hello Fabbers,

Well it feels like the artic freeze here today with temps only at 93 degrees. It was 105 degrees yesterday...WTF???

Papmom3. I am so proud of you for not drinking. Yes, the junk food was not the greatest idea but you did not drink!! Please keep your dream alive. I am a firm believer that when you put your positive intentions out there, it will come. It may not be on our timing but it happens. You are a wonderful person.

Jenny, I am happy Papmom was close by today and jumped in to suggest that you not go to the party. And good for you for listening to her. Awesome!!! When Bear relapsed one or two weeks ago, I told her that I don't know of anyone in the early stages who has been able to remain AF successfully in the midst of others drinking/partying. I stayed away from all such events for a long time. Stay strong!!

Hello to Lav, Kaslo, Greenie, DG and everyone else!!

M3