monday 13 June af daily

[bear73]

hey all - bit of a grumpy,anxious and blue bear today - feel restless - like i want to lie in, but need to clean(don't want to), need to plan out what I am doing and when today,need to do grant application for sports team, washing machine brain.
Maybe those 2 french coffees I've just had are enough to be going along with today!

Had a crazy busy weekend - no lie ins,up early both days and out for 8 hours yesterday - tried to have lie in today but up at 9,then lazed in bed with cat and breakfast - which was lovely.Then after certain length of time I tend to start ruminating. I am kicking my own butt now and plan to get showered,get changed,pack bag for gym/spa and clean kitchen then go about my day! Skating this evening - but skills based so that will be fun.

i have been eating too much junk in between meals(which are generally healthy!) - crisps and chocolate creeping in again -easily adds 300-500 cals - enough over a week to stop weight loss.Maybe that also has something to do with my mood.

Det - you can do this - small steps - learn from it and keep looking ahead.

[Hippy Chick]

monday 13 June af daily

Hi Bear and all who visit.

I know what you mean about eating too much chocolate. I think I have been subconsciously pigging out on chocolate because I "couldnt" have AL. (I have gained 4 kilos since the beginning of the year!). But now I have realised that it is only me buying and eating the choc/lollies/biccies etc, and it is only me who can stop. So I have applied the same determination to not eating junk that I use for not drinking. I have only been going since Saturday but feel better already.
Is it ice skating you are going to do? I love that. When I was a teenager I used to catch a bus to the city and go skating every Sunday. It always brings lovely memories for me. I occassionally take my kids when it is summer (indoor rink). We dont get snow or ice here...
Today is my "baby's" 12th birthday.... cant believe how quickly time goes by! It literally feels like last year when I had her.
Husband is away this week. I used to look forward to him being away. I could cut loose and drink more without feeling guilty. Now I look forward to him being away so I dont have to cook and can get into bed early to watch TV. Oh how times have changed!
Well, nearly time for bed.
Take care and hi to everyone.
HC

[jennyneric]

monday 13 June af daily

Good Morning! Hope everyone has a great day! I'm sooo busy and love it! Zoom Zoom

P.S. thinking of you today Det :l

[AAthlete]

monday 13 June af daily

Morning guys, and thanks for getting us started Bear.

I can relate to procrastinating, and then lying around and ruminating about it. I try to remind myself that it is never to late to get up and do something about it, even if it is one little thing. Doesn't always shake away the feelings completely, but does make me feel a little bit better.

Happy Monday to everyone, and hope you had a great weekend!

[Kaslo]

monday 13 June af daily

Good morning fab abs! Not exactly summer here demmit. 10 degrees this morning. Raining. Finally at last, I am at home office and not out in some truck/plane/hotel room/bushes though, so thats a good thing. Re procrastination. I think its cause we dont wanna. Ha ha. Inertia, third law (is it the third??) law of thermodynamics, lets toss in entropy too. Friction. Resistance. Im starting to sound like high school physics. Blech! My daughters Senegal Parrot Toby is keeping me company. And HE is sleeping. I must work. They seem to want me to work. What is with that? At least I did not succumb to the desire to drink a galoon of pinot noir with my dinner last night and therefore have no headache and no upset body from the top to bottom, this morning... YAY TO THAT!!! Have a great monday you guys.

kaslo.

[momof3]

monday 13 June af daily

Good Morning All,

Loppy, I remember you! Welcome back again and I am glad you are here. I do not miss those days of feeling so ashamed of myself. It was a bad cycle...falling off of the wagon, feeling ashamed...drinking because of the shame. It is NEVER too late.

Det, big hugs for you. I wonder what is going on for you and what changes you need to make in your life/plan to keep the relapses from recurring.

Kaslo, I was the person who asked you about your education and background because I find what you do to be very interesting and such a contribution to our Mother Earth. Thanks for sharing.

Jennyeric, it sounds like you are staying strong and busy. I am impressed with how you have not only put aside the alcohol, you have set some goals to improve the quality of your life. It took me awhile to figure that out.

Bear, Hang in there. Remember how much you love being AF. I love being alcohol free too. I don't want to ever again go through another relapse; I really don't know if I have another one in me. My love of my sober life and my fear of relapsing keep me in check.

I have been in the worst state this weekend that I have been in for a very long time. I won't get into the details but it has a lot to do with the stress/worry associated with my oldest daughter and my relationship with my husband. I have been extremely angry and sad to the point of feeling almost paralyzed. I have not taken care of myself as well as I know I should when I am in such a state (which means exercise, good nutrition, time alone balanced with time with supportive friends). I am trying not to beat myself up for feeling this way. It is so very painful but I am staying with the feelings because they are what they are. In the past, I would have drank myself to numb.

Hi Papmom and Hippy Chick

Hey AA. It's always good to see you pop in.

M3

[Determinator]

monday 13 June af daily

thanks everyone. hanging in. just not feeling well at all. understandably.

[momof3]

monday 13 June af daily

x Double posted. See below

[momof3]

monday 13 June af daily

AAthlete;1130216 wrote: Morning guys, and thanks for getting us started Bear.

I can relate to procrastinating, and then lying around and ruminating about it. I try to remind myself that it is never to late to get up and do something about it, even if it is one little thing. Doesn't always shake away the feelings completely, but does make me feel a little bit better.

Happy Monday to everyone, and hope you had a great weekend!
Sobriety Date: June 15, 2007 -- "It's not having what you want, It's wanting what you've got...."

AA, I see that in 2 days, it will be your 4 year anniversary. You are rockin' the sober life.
M3

[Determinator]

monday 13 June af daily

AAthlete, I vividly recall some of your very first posts here, your quite an inspiration I'll have you know.

now if I could only find myself a career that does NOT involve the hotel lifestyle it would be a tremendous boon to me. ugh. being an alchy and a travelling salesman is a sad mix.

[momof3]

monday 13 June af daily

jennyneric;1130209 wrote: Good Morning! Hope everyone has a great day! I'm sooo busy and love it! Zoom Zoom

P.S. thinking of you today Det :l

Hey Jenny, I noticed that today is 30 Days for you. HIP HIP HOORAY!!!

[Lavande]

monday 13 June af daily

Greetings Abbers!

Missed posting yesterday due to lack of internet access. Big storm Saturday night fried my router but I got a new one today & all is well

Deter, I'm sorry. Hope you are feeling better soon.
I know that there is absolutely no AL in the house but I also know that there are several open bottles in the garage just across the driveway. I rarely ever go on there because it's YB's garage (the one he built to hide in). I have thought about dumping those bottles but honestly don't want to even touch them

M3, hope you are feeling better too!
I've noticed some very strong feelings myself lately - maybe it's something to do with the near full moon?!

Greetings to bear, jenny, Kaslo, papmom, Hippy, AA & everyone dropping in.
Where is the busy DG these days? Hello to Loppy, I remember seeing you here before.

Jenny - YAY, good for you on 30 days

Wishing everyone a great AF Monday evening.
Lav

[scottish lass]

monday 13 June af daily

So sorry Det - you have been so very strong for me, and you will be again. There are no easy ways out and this just proves we can never let our guard down.
Mom of 3 - tough times too.....hang in there....
well done Jenny..
nice to be home Kaslo - thanks for sharing too - interesting life, thou obviuolsy stressful!
Well just packed my bag to get on road again - hope this time I can be successful again. Tough weekend really wnated to drink so badly. Hopefully it is full moon Lav - then we know it will pass!

[papmom3]

monday 13 June af daily

Evening all!

(((M3))) Hope whatever has got you down will be resolved soon. Please get back to taking care of yourself-you are the most important person in all your relationships and if you're not well, the others won't be either.

Deter-you have GOT to find a new line of work! I fear this one will do severe damage to you.

Jenny-CONGRATULATIONS ON ONE MONTH!! :goodjob: You go girl! Onto 60 days!!

HC-great to see you! Good job on the chocolate diet!!

AA-glad to see you as well. Can't wait to celebrate your 4 yr anni!

SL-stay strong-take your tools with you!!

Lav-so the storms finally hit you! Glad you're back on line with us!!

Kas-glad you KO'd the beast last nite!! How great do you feel today!!

Have I missed anyone?

Back to work today after my nice week off. blah. At least my boss was in a great mood.

got my 20 min walk in tonite when I got home and I've done pretty well sticking to my WW plan the past 3 days. My goal is to reach my weightloss goal, make lifetime and then apply for a PT receptionist job at my local center. I'm trying very hard to ask if what I'm about to put in my mouth will help me reach that goal. If it is no, then I don't eat it.

going to try to make this an early nite. Probably the only person in New England NOT watching the Stanley Cup tonite!! :H

[papmom3]

monday 13 June af daily

OK I caved-I'm watching the Cup!! Kas-are we wagering on this?