Daily AF ~ 14 June

[jennyneric]

Good Morning Abbers!

Today is my day 31. . .I did 30 days. Only the 2nd time since I started trying to stop back in November. The mod monster is talking to me, last time that was my downfall. I know I can't mod! I keep telling myself I will not try. . .but the voices in my head seam to have a different idea. Grrrr! I can not mod, I will not try!

Love y'all. Everyone please check in today! Been pretty quite here lately!

[Mia]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Jen Congradulations! Well done! Maybe try for 40 days??? Just a thought. I will be catching up to you i am on day 20 tomorrow. :goodjob:

[madmans]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Good job Jenny , shoot that monster . You know the longer time AF you have the easier it gets .

[Lavande]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Good morning Abbers!

Congrats on your success jenny Keep going ~ don't look back

Hello Mia & MM, nice to see you!

The weather is perfect today - hope it stays like this!

I have lots to do today so I'm going to jump right in.
Wishing everyone a fantastic AF Tuesday!

Deter, hope you are feeling better today, take care.

Lav

[pingu1997]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

I'm 3 months AF tomorrow and that's why I will not drink tonight!!!!

And tomorrow I will be doing a happy dance to celebrate

[jennyneric]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Great job pingu1997! Congrats!

[AAthlete]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Jenny & Pingu - congrats to both of you on your accomplishments! You should be very proud of the hard work you have put into your sobriety, but just remember that this is a never-ending journey.... It's always reminded me of the concept of going on a diet. You may lose weight because you are eating differently, but unless you make the necessary lifestyle changes you'll go right back to where you were once the diet is over (and potentially even worse)....

Det, hope you are doing okay my friend. Hopefully you can figure out what those damn triggers are that are allowing this to happen. Remember the definition of insanity - which is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results each time. We may not be able to control ourselves after we start drinking (at least I can't), but we can control what we do before we take that first drink...

Happy Tuesday to all, and hope you have a great day. Pingu, hope you put on a blistering happy dance to celebrate!

[momof3]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Good Morning Fabber Abbers,

Jenny, Don't know if you saw my posts yesterday. Congrats again on reaching 30+ days. It is a huge milestone and you are doing a great job. What worked for me early on was to not let my mind dwell too much on drinking thoughts. I kept busy and avoided moping around the house; a quick change of venue such as a walk helped tremendously. You are doing fantastically with working toward some goals and exercising. The voice of the beast will get much weaker. Keep it up and know that you can win. I really do believe that our thoughts create our reality and that we can train our brains toward thinking differently. I like AA's analogy of dieting too.

Hi AA. Tomorrow is 4 years. Are you doing anything special to recognize such a huge accomplishment?

Lav, It is gorgeous here too. When I woke up for bootcamp this morning and went outside, I thought "who turned the air conditioning on?"

Pingu. I am going to congratulate you on 3 months now because I know that you can do it.

Hi Madmans and Mia. Good to see you here on the AF Daily.

Feelling a little bit better today. Not feeling as down but certainly not myself either. No matter how badly I feel though, it never is as bad as I felt when I woke up each day with a hangover and thoughts about when I could have my next drink.

M3

[jennyneric]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Thanks M3 and everyone else for the kind words and support! I am so busy right now the AL voice doesn't get much time. M3 I'm sorry your feeling down, I hope you feel better soon! Zoom Zoom!

[Kaslo]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Good morning Abstinistas and Absteros!

Jenny Congrats on 31 days. Thats a huge milestone! Its really an accomplishment and I think thats when the physical improvements and really feeling a LOT better kicks in, at least that worked for me.

Mia ...20 days! Well done.

Ping...3 Months awesome. I am at 5 months today!!! Funny thing about these aniversaries, they really are something to shoot for, and each one is special. AA FOUR YEARS? I am gradually learning that that is life itself. Getting to the point where I simply tell myself and others if the topic ever comes up, umm, i dont drink! I find now that if I announce that I quit drinking 4 and half months ago (5 today!!!), they get quiet and dont know what to say or think (was she secretly a raging AL?). Answer: there are many many kinds of AL. Raging no, ill yes!

Momof 3 I look toward you and Lav and D3 for inspiration on how to get there. The advice you provide always strikes a cord. Did you know that you provide a huge service to those of us struggling through early sobriety by providing ideas, interpretation and encouragement? I am sure you do, but it helps save people, it really does. You should be told that EVERY DAY. You are like the Firemen of the MWO site. So thanks. I hope I can help others as well.

Yesterday was a horrible day, just a zoo, flood in the office, snarling late 21 y o daughter, field staff person (should I fire her? Hmmm). Contractors everywhere, instant rearangement of deck to accomodate the contractors...trying to clear out the midden in the office 'library' area in the basement...oven door broken (appliance repairman), photocopier broken (trip to painfully slow stationary store), pool heater broken (no plumber but maybe today), no help from DHusband as usual. Lotsa criticism tho. AND the clients and co workers being painful..... Aye yi yi Carumba! Nos habelos vino blanco, de nada.

5 months. Yipeee. Must work. Bye all and have a great day. Pretty soon I am going to start mangling French too.

Love to all

Kas

[jennyneric]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Kaslo;1130709 wrote:

Momof 3 I look toward you and Lav and D3 for inspiration on how to get there. The advice you provide always strikes a cord. Did you know that you provide a huge service to those of us struggling through early sobriety by providing ideas, interpretation and encouragement? I am sure you do, but it helps save people, it really does. You should be told that EVERY DAY. You are like the Firemen of the MWO site. So thanks. I hope I can help others as well.


Aye yi yi Carumba! Nos habelos vino blanco, de nada.

I agree with everything you said! Annnndddd I understood the last part! Holy Cow!

Congrats on your 5 months!

[AAthlete]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

M3, I've actually got nothing planned (and had somewhat forgotten about it). That's a bad thing when I think about it, as the minute I forget the pain and suffering that alcohol caused me, I'm more apt to pick it up again. Laid in bed last night and spent some time thinking about all the stupid shit that I did when under the influence - really made me shudder.....

Time to get back to the basics, I guess....

[Bean]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

Well done everyone on your brilliant AF-ness! I am rejoining you. I totally understand you Jenny about the 'mod monster'. It's a whole other beast from AL in my view and has tripped me up a number of times lately. I read an interesting thing on SpiritualRiver.com about how having a drink after a period of abstinence and nothing bad happening is DISASTER...because your brain remembers it and even if there's a period of weeks or months before you drink again, you WILL at some point because your mind tricks you into thinking it's all ok. This is exactly how it happened to me. Textbook scenario!

Last night I was thinking about how alcoholism/problem drinking is like the fun fair. It's supposed to be a good time but you wouldn't want to go every night or even every weekend. It's kind of fun but mostly the rides just take all your money and make you feel sick. You can only buy crap to eat when you're there - nothing nourishing. All the competition stalls are designed to lure you in by letting you win something small but prevent you from getting the big prizes. But not before you've again spent all your money, convinced that next time you'll be lucky. The whole thing is a big con, but thankfully it doesn't really matter because the funfair only comes to town once a year. AL on the other hand is always in town but we have to constantly remind ourselves that it's just the same as that fair: fun on a rare occasion, takes all your money, makes you sick, doesn't care that the odds are stacked against you, moves on once it's chewed you up and ruined your life...

No thanks!
Bean

[Determinator]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

sadly my attempts to taper down were not succussfull. i'm in a bad way today and need to call the clinic and get some medical help.

Jenny, Pingu and others, huge kudos on your AF time! and Bean, good to see you again.

[bear73]

Daily AF ~ 14 June

take care Det - do you mean you were trying to reduce your intake and are still increasing?
Or you have reduced and are having DTs? Whichever way get some support and remember you can do this - working out the trigger and a way round it/removing it.

First day back at work today and off again tomorrow - plan to chill out and do some washing tonight - gymmed and did a skating session yesterday - think maybe i can have a day off until Thursday. It's weird how alcohol comes up and bites after a period of abstinence - with me it's always around anniversaries e.g. 30 days, 60 days I'm not sure if I get fear of committing long term or some part of me feels that I have had a break so can mod (even tho i know I can't - and even if i could - I feel better without alcohol)

It's just I do the same with weight loss - a bit of success - then back again - a bit of success -then back again.What is that about?I do want to be slim/not drink. It was the same with cigarettes BUT I feel that I have cracked that - I know I will still crave but I know I won't give in. Maybe I fear making big changes(even though part of me wants to) in case I lose people. What happened with stopping smoking is that my main goal wasn't to quit smoking,it was to be fitter,healthier and better at my sport.Maybe i need to use that bigger goal to lose weight/stay alcohol free.Not sure - any ideas those of you who have struggled with both? Or should I stop the thinking and get on with the 'what action can I take now to reach my goals'??