AF Daily Thursday 6/30

[momof3]

Good Morning All,

Can't believe that it is almost July.

Bean, Happy to hear your resolve not to drink. Congratulations on all of your hard work on healing. Your healing work will be much stronger as you remain AF and heal yourself for sure!!

Papmom, Yeah! You purchased the sewing machine. Hugs to you for making the tough financial choices.

Bootcamp workout done before it gets to hot. We are having a very laid back Independence Day weekend here.

Will check in later.

M3

[greeneyes]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

FABBIES!!

momof3;1139417 wrote: Workout done before it gets to hot.

I haven't left the house yet. ugh! I'm dragging this AM. I'm tired, and I'm tired of getting up in the middle of the night to kill a tick or two I feel crawling on me in the bed. I shower and rinse the dog and check her, WTF? Is the river walk worth it? But mostly, I'm again disheartened by the powdery drywall, tile, cement, whatever it is dust that covers everything down into tiny nooks and crannies and it isnt' just dust it's got this weird feel to it and it clings. I'm absolutely dreading cleaning it and it is all over the house. grump grump grump

BUT!! One thing is for sure!

Det, I was amazed at your remark over the 20 oz steak and feeling energized. That's one big piece of meat! :H

OK, dragging myself to the river for a sanity boost.

[Marshy]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Hello Mom3 and Grumpy Greenie (I don't like having work done in the house either. Unsettling).

Well, it's been a bad week here. My mum has suddenly gone downhill after the brain radiotherapy - she's very confused mentally and is behaving strangely and saying odd things. It's very distressing for everyone.
Her doctor has doubled her dosage of steroids (to reduce brain inflammation from the radiotherapy) and says she would hope to see a change for the better in a few days because of that. We shall see.

Meantime, me and GF are due to go to Greece next week and now I'm not sure if I should go or not. I'll have to see how things go.

I've thought a couple of times on different occasions about drinking. One time in order to "escape" for the night, one time in order to "relax" when I first saw how badly my mum has been affected by the treatment. I'm bound to have thoughts, I suppose. I just have to make sure I don't act on them.

Plodding on...

[greeneyes]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

:soothe: marshy. I'm sorry your mom and you and your family are having to go through this.

[papmom3]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

((((Marshy))) I'm so sorry you're mom is reacting so badly to the radiation. Sending lots of pings that the steroids do their job and get her back to normal. I totally understand the drinking thoughts. AL to me is all about escape and relaxing. It's never been about just enhancing a good time or being social. I know you will be so happy you don't act on these thoughts. Your mom needs you to be clear and present plus you know if you do escape for a night (and who says it will be just for a night), the bad situation will still be there when you return. My wish for you is that escape for a while comes in a healthy peaceful way. Thinking of you and sending healing thoughts to your dear mum.

Hi Greenie and M3. Thanks for starting us off M3. Greenie-Ticks are my greatest fear!! I LOATHE them!! Hang in there with the dust. It will eventually go away and you'll have a new gleaming bathroom to show for all the hard work and inconvenience.

Gotta run to my MD appt. TTL.

[AAthlete]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Marshy, so sorry to hear about your Mom - my thoughts are with you.

Interesting that you mentioned thinking about drinking to escape, as this morning I was looking back on my drinking career and thinking about places where I wish I could have stopped. One of those was when I was going through my divorce, and rather then go out and do something, I chose to lay on the couch in my apartment with the TV and my vodka.... All I wanted to do was escape the reality that I was in... I know now that I stopped when I was ready to stop, but I guess my point is (and I'm sure you know) that reality will always be there ready and waiting for us whether we drink or not, but I think it's normal for those thoughts to cross our minds. It's our choice whether to act on them or not....

Greenie, I'm getting the heebie jeebies just thinking about ticks crawling around my bed at night... I think its time to seriously start thinking about shaving that dog bald!! :H

Happy Thursday to all!

[Lavande]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Good morning Abbers!

M3, hot weather on the way for us this weekend. Take it easy this weekend! I plan to spend my time inside, in the AC painting my bedroom

Greenie, the drywall dust took a solid year to settle down around here. Moving into a new house wasn't as much fun as I though it might be. Be very, very careful with the ticks!! YB came down with Lymes disease 11 years ago & I swear his head has been extra screwed up ever since!

Marshy, sorry to hear about your Mom's situation. Hopefully the med adjustment will provide some relief. Take good care of yourself right now. Try some guided meditations to help you relax :l

Good morning papmom & AA!

My plan for the day is to keep myself busy & not dwell on the fact that it's my wedding anniversary

Lav

[LVT25]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Hello friends,

I'm like you mom3, I can't believe it is almost the 4th of July! I think because our summer weather has only just arrived.

I'm sending positive vibes, hugs and prayers to all that need them right now--esp you Marshy. That can't be easy for you and I know what it's like to try to plan a trip when things just aren't the way they should be.:l :l :l :l :l

I, too can relate to the occasional drinking thoughts. I had one briefly last night which was "MY FAMILY IS GOING TO DRIVE ME TO DRINK AGAIN!" But, like AA said, that won't help a thing. Just make me feel like crap.

I'm heading out to plant some stuff in my greenhouse and my new herb/perennial bed. I stopped at the nicest greenhouse in my area the other day to pick up a few things and he was closed. But since he was still there, he let me in. I did some major power shopping because I was sure the sign said."BUY 1 GET ONE FREE" but when he rang my order up it was almost $40!!!! Of course since he was closed, I didn't get a receipt and I was to shy to ask WTF!!! So I will try not to kill those plants for sure! My plan was for a raised bed with lots of GARLIC and asparagus. The free asparagus deal fell through this spring, so I decided to put in some other herbs. I may have to expand next year.

Did I mention I dislike this holiday? I hate the firecrackers, and worry about so many people and boats at the lake. They've lifted the ban on alcohol in our state parks so I suspect much more drinking going on there. We might take the camper out, might wait until after the holiday when it is quieter. Sigh.

Have a better AF day everyone!:h

[bear73]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

day 2 af here - still feel (and am from colour of pee - sorry for the overshare!) dehydrated - drank 2 litres water already today.

half day at work and payday - hair cut, nice new face and eye creams and shower oil bought, new sports bra and make up - plus M&S fruit and GI ready meals (with no additives).

Also visited hotel chocolat - cinnamon & hazlenut pralines,coffee milk chocolate and salted caramelised dark chocolate almonds (MMMM). Binned off gym - gonna chill here and nibble and maybe have a doze.At least it's not booze!

Got meeting with lots of angry people tonight from 7.30 - 9pmish - home about 10.30 pmish.

Day off tomorrow though - funding app for skate team in am, gym, steam, sauna and hot crystals massage.Then 4 hour drive (quite like it). I can't get online sat but staying at old friends out for food (they're really safe to be with alcohol wise).

Thanks everyone for input.
Mom of 3 - don't know what it is I sabotage myself with weight loss, and used to with quitting smoking as well (though i have cracked that one) - fear of success BS maybe.whatever it is I need to get over it!!

[bear73]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Marshy :l:l:l

[Kaslo]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Good morning absters!
Mof3 have a great holiday weekend!
Greenie, I wrote this long description of Ixodes scopularis vs Ixodes pacificus, and how to tell if you have the deer tick that carries the Lyme bacteria, and then brushed the keyboard must have hit something and the whole thing dissapeared. Is it a reddish brown bodied tick? I would not mess around with a dog tick right now from the southwestern or southeastern US, I live in fear of Lymes disease, its an occupational hazard for people working in the bush, its very debilitating and becoming more common all the time. So maybe check your dog over thoroughly before you let her him back in the house.... When they have made it into your bed, to the extent that they wake you up, then you must have rather a lot of them. Hate to sound alarming, but but if the ticks are infected you could become infected, and Lyme disease is chronic, long term and hard to recover from.

Marshy, sorry to hear your moms taken a turn for the worse in response to the treatment. AA, Lav, LV, to all of you the best of summer days. Everyone have a nice time.

In response to queries re leaving here, I love my house and garden, but I am not sure I want to stay here. I came out here to work on this big toxicology biology soils wildlife vegetation thing, and its been eleven years and I am finished it. I have few friends here, and the weather hurts my arthritis and fibro. Think 25 feet of snow and an airport that is often closed due to weather from Nov to Mar. Yep I have towering mountains, huge rivers, total privacy and peace. Its magnificent, but I have to decide if this is my home now.

Love to all. Hope I havent missed everyone. You are all very thoughtful, and caring of each other. Its very touching.

[Bean]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Morning...I'm unhung and happy and.....LATE. Gotta fly. Have a good day everyone.
Bean

[greeneyes]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Kaslo;1139517 wrote: When they have made it into your bed, to the extent that they wake you up, then you must have rather a lot of them.

FECK!!!! :egad: I let her sleep on the bed. Think I'll go with AA's idea.

[greeneyes]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Lavande;1139469 wrote: Greenie, the drywall dust took a solid year to settle down around here.

Double feck!!

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily Thursday 6/30

Hi Fabbies! Mom will be here any minute and we're going to get our hair done together. That will be nice. So I may get cut off here!

Marshy... :l I am so sorry about the turn of things with your Mom. I sure hope the increased steroid dose does the trick. What an emotional roller coaster your family is riding with your Mom. I can understand thoughts of drinking and I am just glad like the others that you are able to make the choice not to act on them.

M3 - thanks for getting us started today. I can't believe it's almost July either! Where does the time go? Glad I'm no longer wasting most of it drunk or hungover.

P3 - congrats on the new machine! Sounds like you will make very good use of it. I think the universe has good things in store for you. Keep the faith!!!!

Tom Venuto (a body builder) puts out an enormous amount of e-mail to anyone on his list. (:H) He signs all of his stuff with "Train hard and expect success." I was thinking about that line the other day while on a long walk. It just sticks with me. I think what it says to me in the broader context of life is to keep actively doing the next right thing, and to have faith that things will work out as they are supposed to. P3, I thought you might like that one!

Greenie - TICKS IN THE BED???? Yikes. I'm with a close shave for Little Doggy too. Be careful! On the drywall dust - even though the workers were very good about using a lot of plastic and tape, and Mr. Doggy put up additional plastic and tape, it still got everywhere here too. I guess the only thing to do is keep visualizing your FABULOUS new bathroom, and have faith the the dust will clear eventually, which it will!

AA - I know what you mean about that sort of past reflection. I try not to do too much thinking of it because when I consider all the time wasted in my life, I get really sad. I guess the value of that particular rear view mirror for me is to 1) remind me where I never want to be again and 2) an appreciation for how much better life is today.

Bear, good that you are back here on the wagon with us.

Bean, you too!!

Kaz - I can totally understand why you might consider moving. I watch my parents today trying to live in a home that is just way too much for them at this stage in their lives. A split level house which requires stairs for navigation, and my Dad has great difficulty with that. 3 Acres to tend, mow, weed, etc. A long driveway to plow in the winter. Miles from town if there is a medical emergency with Dad. It really is something to think about. It has given me pause to think about the future in my own home. I've talked to my husband just to make sure we are realistic about the idea we may not always be able to live comfortably here. (multi-story house, 9 acres to take care of with rocks, trees, hills, not on the best side of town, etc.) I dont' want to end up in an unmanageable situation later in life.

Well, Mom's here and I gotta go. Be back later! Hello to everyone else. One thing is for sure.

DG