I had BAD wine cravings last night - Friday night feeling and didn't make it to spa - instead i sat with cats/dozed in front of tv and had nice shop bought burger and chips - was craving mcdonalds - glad i had the slightly healthier option.
I am working on positive thinking/cultivating gratitude that i have caught my problem with alcohol before it really ruins my health/life/relationships/finances/job.It's so easy to get into pity party mode of 'poor me it's so unfair i can't have just one etc etc' well I can occasionally have just one but nine times out of ten it will be 5/6 in an evening - and along with that come all the consequences that I don't want in my life.
I also feel like a huge failure because of my limited success at being af - BUT if i put all the time together it's a long time - probably 98% of the time. That helps me to stay af - not make drinking ok - rather than dwelling on the drinking (I know why i drank - and that is important- and can take steps to avoid/handle those situations differently).
I am focused on getting back into exercise this weekend/next week - cycling to work and asking friends if i can go with them to exercise classes - I will see lovely people and get my exercise!I have also ordered a slow cooker(crock pot to most of you) curry book - mmmm.
This weekend - lunch with friend today/watching rollerderby/tomorrow playing rollerderby and seeing OH's mum for sandwiches/cake.
Good weekend all to come.
merry - hope you are feeling better - this will pass - keep with us.
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