AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

[momof3]

Good Morning All,

Quick check in. Meeting this morning. Hope some work comes out of it.

M3

[sidney]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

good luck Mom of 3.

[momof3]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Thanks Sidney. How are you doing today?

[BlondeAFAmbition]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Hi Tuesday Tangos!

A quick note from me as I, too, have to dash out the door. I've been sleeping reallly well lately but later than usual and it cuts into my MWO morning and coffee time. Oh well, I will just have to catch up with you all later. Meanwhile, I'm thinking of everyone! Good luck Momof3 on your meeting! And thanks for getting this here party started today

Have a grand day to all!

[sidney]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

I am doing well thanks Mom of 3 although the weather is very rainy. So it is okay to be working today. Getting ready to do a girls weekend in Buffalo this weekend. Little stressed about that but I am the designated driver so I have a wonderful excuse not to drink. I am sure it will be fun only one of them drinks a lot. I am packing my bag with lots of perrier.
What kind of work do you do Mom of 3?

[Lavande]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Good morning Abbers!

M3, hope today's meeting is productive for you

Hi sidney, I don't think I've ever been to Buffalo. What do you & your friends have on your agenda for the weekend?

Have a great day Blondie!

I have a list of things I would really like to get done today so here it goes!!!
Wishing everyone a terrific AF Tuesday!

Lav

[sidney]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Well we are shopping...outlet malls but are really going to see the beautiful Frank Lloyd Wright buildings in Buffalo. Starting with the Martin house.

Frank Lloyd Wright's Martin House Complex :: Home

We are also staying at a craftsman inn in East Aurora that looks lovely. Can you tell I am going with librarians? The car will be full of sensible shoes. I am not a librarian and my shoes are heels.

[sidney]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Hi Lav I see you are from PA so maybe you have been to Falling Waters? One of best know Frank Lloyd Wright houses.

[universal]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Hi guys,

I am not doing so good. I ended up drinking last night and I think I have lost my husband now. He told me this morning that he is leaving me that he won't let me hurt him anymore. We have an appointment with a relationship counsellor this afternoon which he said he would still go to with me but that I won't like what I'm going to hear when I'm there. I don't know, maybe I need to be hospitalized for a while, the depression and anxiety and everything I am feeling is so hard to bear. I don't want to lose my husband but I know it's my own fault. The thought of fighting this battle without him is killing me but the reality is that's what I've been doing. I've been doing it without his support for 6 months now. I was doing okay too until I went to that stupid psychiatrist last week. And now I just feel like I have failed miserably. I've lost it all. I guess this is what rock bottom is. I will have no where to live, he will tell my ex-husband at which point I will lose my child. I'm kind of hoping to be honest that the therapist today will call the hospital and tell them to admit me. And then maybe I can get some help and not lose my house and my husband and my child and everything. I just feel so lost right now.

[Turnagain]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Uni....

I wish there was more we could do for you right now....The best I can do is let you know that even as lost as you feel right now that you will get through this.

Uni...you need to do what is best for you....yet in this fragile state you're in...you may not have the clearest picture of what that is. Can you get an emergency appointment with the doc you saw yesterday and see what she thinks? Would it help if your husband went along to see her with you? Maybe she could let him know what needs to happen to help get you healthier.

People are afraid of what they don't know or what they perceive that they can't control. That fear manifests itself in many ways...including anger and frustration. I hope your husband can learn to see past his fears so he can be a help to you as well.

Know that you have friends and support here....

[Determinator]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Uni, I'm at a loss for words. if this is indeed your rock bottom then it's all up from here. please get help if it's available to you. that's all I can think of. xxxxxx!

Sidney, my chat friend, good to see you

Lavande, BlondeAF, Mom3 good to see your shiny happy selves this morning.

Kaslo the fabric ninja! hahahaha I enjoyed your sewing expose' on yesterdays thread.

well, last nights workout was very heavy duty. whew. my face looks like I lost not one, but maybe 3 consecutive fights. my poor wife took one look at me when I got home, shook her head and said: 'you have jiu jitsu face!' LOL well, better to be crazy and AF than just crazy I'm sure.

Uni please check in again when you get a chance ok? you are NOT alone. so there!

be well everyone

[universal]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Thanks Turnagain, I am just crying my eyes out and he just left. I am in so much pain. I don't want to do this anymore. He won't change his mind, he said that no matter what I'll end up drinking again so what's the point. He said "what are you going to do, go to rehab again? woo hoo, that'll work, that'll give you another 6 months and then you'll do this to me all over again." He doesn't understand how hard this is, he doesn't understand depression at all. I know this is all my fault but it's killing me. I can't do this anymore. I feel like I have nothing left.

[Determinator]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Turn! siri says hello

[Determinator]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Uni your words: I am in so much pain. I don't want to do this anymore
that sounds like a good place to get off the elevator to me.
it reminds me very much like my last experience with AL and the hell that followed after that pale horse.

[bear73]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Uni get the help that you need - and grab back the control in your life - with or without husband. You can do this.

I am coming down with a cold - in my onesie,heating on, cats in, soup and omelette for dinner and a bath and an early night. I spent all day on sofa reading ' my lush sobriety' really identified with lots of it - the drinking taking over so that becomes your hobby, feeling dull without it,who will you be without it,the wanting to be a bit different - yeah like being drunk is sooo original!I'm embarassed to say i identified - and the not wanting to hang out with non drinkers.Much happier now.

Tomorrow I am on strike and am sorting loft out/tip visits and getting christmas tree out of loft.Night night all - off to eat - need more protein.