AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

[universal]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Det - you had Dx helping you. You are so lucky. I wish I had some support. But I have none. I really think maybe I just need to check into the hospital. I said that to Mike and got "fine, do whatever you need to do, I'm scared for you but not enough to stay". I am such a failure. I hurt everyone all the time. Everyone ends up leaving me. The only person who has always stuck by me is my sister and she lives in Florida so that doesn't help me much right now. I need you guys, I'm so glad I have you because I don't know what I'd do if I didn't.

[sunshine_gg]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Uni, I'm so sorry.
Like Bear said... do what you need to do to get well - with or without husband. Unfortunately, you cannot control what he does or feels or if he wants to weather the storm one more time. All you can control is your own actions. If you feel you need to be hospitalized - then so be it. And rehab DID do you a world of good, so if that's where you need to be - so be it.

To everyone else - a quick hello! Busy here, cold, and kinda grumpy but I'll get over it

[Turnagain]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Sunni - I hope you are getting through your web server issues. I am so sorry that happened to you. BTW...I am rebuilding the pages I lost on my project site. A few entries at a time....I only have 48 so it is not overwhelming and I am making a significant improvement so that makes me feel better.

Sid...great chatting last night...I don't know if it's too much to ask, but if you are set up to share photos, I'd sure like to see some from the FLW house. I think I told you I made a 'pilgrimage' to Falling Water a few years ago. Simply breathtaking and so very inspiring. Thanks for posting the link.

M3...you would like what their doing at the FLW Martin House...they've got yoga! Here's how it was promoted on the website:

YOGA at the Greatbatch Pavilion

Frank Lloyd Wright may have been inflexible sometimes…but you don’t have to be.

Good luck with the meeting....we'll be waiting to hear about the outcome.

Det...I hope you are on the mend....Joe Jetso...is a mean guy. Wasn't he in the Dick Tracy Cartoon? Tell SIRI to go take a swim in the toilet.

Lav...my lovely...I am trusting your big celebratory weekend went well.

Bear...you get your rest and lotsa fluids...the tree can wait.

Blondieness...so happy to hear you are sleeping well. I remember that part being one of the most fabulous discoveries of living the AF life. Sleep....marvelous...sleep!

IJM...great to hear from you again....I was wondering what was going on with you georgia peach!

Kas....you are just fabulous. Have you been smoked by any senior citizens this morning?

DOGGY G - WHERE ARE YOU????? I miss your lovely insights and gentle humor.

Today, I should find out about some project funding. But this has not been a good month. We did not get a larger grant we were hoping for. The grant we find out about today is smaller, but sorely needed. We were funded by the organization last time around and I am hoping the support will continue but, the needs are many....but the resources are limited. I dislike raising money but it is a fact of life so I will stop the whine here!

Today is hubby's b-day. We will go out to dinner tonight to celebrate. The bill will be so much cheaper because I no longer drink!

[Meech]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Hi all,

Uni, my prayers go out to you. Like everyone has said you have support here and you need to get help for YOU. It's all about you right now and healing. I'm so sorry you are feeling so lost but like it was said earlier if this is your rock bottom, there's only up. Start today.


Don't let alcohol abuse you anymore. :l:l

[sidney]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Uni I am so sorry you are going through such hell. Can you not talk to some of the professionals you had in rehab? Maybe they can help you. You know really we all fight this thing in the end alone. You know where I am if I can be of help since I live close.

Sid

[sidney]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Hey Turn I will try to post some pictures I am kind of dumb at that. Thanks for taking an interest!

Sid

[Martie]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Hi, I'm new here and just wanted to jump in on this because it is quite a coincidence. I was reading through this thread noticed the conversation about Buffalo, Frank Lloyd Wright and Falling Water. I just moved to Pittsburgh recently, but knew nothing about Falling Water until my sister, who lives in Houston and was here for Thanksgiving weekend, asked me if I've been there yet. To top off that coincidence, we took her kids to the science museum in pgh and they have a replica of Falling Water that we took a picture of. That same day (this past sunday) we opened the Sunday Pittsburgh Post Gazette and in the Magazine section is a front page spread on Falling Water and how it's celebrating 75 years this year. It's the only section of the paper that I saved. I am very much in tune to the power of coincidence, so I know this is a sign that I must go to Falling Water soon.

Lavande, I know you are in PA. Like I said, I live in Pgh, but was born in Philly and spent 31 years there.

Universal, I also wanted to let you know that I really feel for your situation. It's horrible what alcohol has done to us. That's why I drank in secret a lot, I knew my husband would simply not put up with it. I hope things get better for you.

[sidney]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Hey Martie,
You must then go ...I have not been myself but have only heard raves about it. If you want to read a very interesting book and well written about Frank Lloyd Wright ...it is fiction but kind of non fiction in that it is accurate Try "Loving Frank" by Nancy Horan. I must get to Falling Waters myself. Sid

[papmom3]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Uni-I can't call you right now as I'm still at work. I will try to call you on my way to quilting if you're still home. I hope you're not tho-I hope you have checked yourself into the hospital or have made it to couples counseling (did mike keep his promise to go?). At the very least you need to call your counselor!! Please!!!
Rehab did do you a world of good you know-6 whole months of sobriety and you were feeling so good! I hate that you are letting some incompetent asshole dictate to you how you should feel about yourself-you know better than that! That psychiatrist will probably get her license taken away from her so she can't hurt anyone else but seriously, they were just words and you don't have to believe them!! You have been struggling with the doubt over Mike's support for a long time. As hard as this appears right now, this recovery may be easier for you because you won't be dealing with that struggle anymore. It will be all you! What good is having someone around who doesn't really believe you can do it and continually is looking for you to fail?
Ah Uni, I wish I could give you a great big hug and accompany you to whereever you need to go. Please know we're all here for you in spirit.
Please let us know what you decide to do.
Love,
Papmom

[Chief]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

We're all here for you, Uni. Get whatever help you need. Don't feel you have to rely on your husband. Take control of this now. Don't drink. You can do this.....I know you can.

Take control. Don't feel like you are in a panic....just don't drink. You don't like it when you drink. You don't HAVE to drink, you choose to drink...everytime it's a choice, and everytime we make that choice it's a bad one.

We're all here for you.....:l

Don

[universal]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

I love you guys - I'm doing better now. The appt went well, the therapist was awesome and we both got a lot out. Since Mike has no where to go right now I'm going to move into the spare bedroom for a bit and we are going to go back to the counsellor again. Mike is actually willing to work on some of his anger and resentments which is good. Whether or not he'll leave me or not I'm not going to worry on. I'm just glad that he is going to get the help he needs too. And maybe this counselling will be good for us. The spare bedroom is on the main floor so it may be better for me anyway in terms of being brighter. Might help me get my ass out of bed in the mornings and help with the depression a bit. We'll see what happens. Thank you guys so much for your support today - I honestly don't think I would have made it through today without you guys. I seriously mean that. And I'm feeling much better and I know I have people who love and care about me.

[Turnagain]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Uni -

It's a relief to hear you are doing better....

I really appreciate that you took the time to let us know the outcome of your situation.

We all know the drill on what Al does to folks like us and we are ready to help you help yourself by keeping that poison far away from your body. Get busy pushing water through the system, sweetie and don't forget to eat a nourishing meals and supplement those vitamins and minerals.

[Determinator]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Martie, welcome aboard!

Uni, glad things are calmed a tad. Please remember you are in control, which is scary but also very fortunate. this is the only horrid disease I can think of where we actually get to decide if it's going to progress and kill us or not. Nobody can make you drink. put on your captains hat and steer that boat.
xxxxx

[BlondeAFAmbition]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

Oh dear, I wish I had logged in much earlier than this...seems like so much has happened since I last posted this morning.

Uni-As the others have said, my heart goes out to you, it really does. I am fairly new to this thread and am not quite sure of the extent of your marriage situation and did not realize that your husband was that close to leaving. I am so sorry. I hope you can both work it out if that is what you want. From you last post, it sounds like you are doing a bit better and I am relieved. Maybe moving into the other bedroom downstairs will be a good break for a bit? I will be thinking of you tonight. I am so sorry it has gotten to this but like someone else said, if this is your rock bottom then you have only one direction to go in from here: UP! A big cyber hug goes out to you from me

Hi Martie and Sydney, nice to see you on this thread! I really love this particular section of MWO and find myself very much at home with the folks in the abstinence arena. They are so caring and lovely and I couldn't face this battle alone. This thread seems a bit more intimate than the others on MWO; I look forward to getting to know you and I hope you'll stick around!

Papmom, how did your first work project end up last night with the website? Do fill us in! I bet you are going to be successful at it!

Some of you mentioned chat...I haven't delved into that area yet but now I think I should!

DG, I hope you are well. Miss hearing from you every day but I know you are busy with school. Hope you check in soon as we are all anxious to know how you are doing!

Sunni-Hope you are having a better day, you mentioned that you were "grumpy" earlier and hopefully that feeling passed and you are having a wonderful day and evening!

Chief-Hello to you, we haven't really "met" before. I loved what you said about drinking is a choice and never a good one. So true. We do choose that path, no one is forcing the booze down our throats. We just need to remember to choose wisely!

Lav-I hope you got your big list of things done today. Tomorrow I am off from work YIPPPPEEEE! And I am getting our new stove sometime in the morning from Home Depot! They gave me a delivery window from 11AM to 3PM. Well, guess I won't be going anywhere but that's OK, I have lots of housework to do! Looking forward to getting our new stove. It's a GE and has one of those smooth ceramic cooktops...so much easier to clean then the old coil electric burners that we have now. Although, I am a sentimental gal and when hubs and I pulled the stove out from it's place where it has been forever so we could clean (don't want to shock the delivery guys with all that cooking spooge!), I patted the oven on the top and said it had served us well and I hope it gets refurbished and off to a family who needs it. Ok, so I actually hugged the damn thing but that's between all of us. I just feel sad for it sitting there in the middle of the kitchen on it's last night here. I had my last boiling tea kettle on it just a few minutes ago...sniff sniff. Does anyone else get attached to household things, or am I just going nuts??????????????

Bear, sorry you are feeling sickly. A hot bath should help. Beef up on the Vitamin C and pop some Echinacea/Goldenseal caps while you're at it. That kicks out anything for me. And if you can stand the taste, pure goldenseal liquid tincture mixed in water that you drink all day will really clear it out. It just tastes extra bitter and looks like pee. But it works . Whatever cold defense you take, I hope it works fast and you are back to your healthy self soon!

Alright guys, gotta wrap it up. Going to read for a few before turning in to bed. Hope you all have a good, restful night and Uni, please know we are all pulling for you

[BlondeAFAmbition]

AF Daily Tuesday, 11/29

PS! Hi Turn! I didn't mean to forget you in my post, but I just wanted to say hello and thank you for being such a wonderful source of support! Have a beautiful evening my friend!