When I think back to old relationships (way back when I was in university) and the guy you really liked only wanted you for one thing and could care less about you as a person. I remember feeling so used and that I would never let that person have the privledge of my company or otherwise because they cheated me and made me feel used, hurt etc....
Well that's exactly what AL has done to all of us. I never really viewed it in that way. But boy am I ever pissed off that I let AL abuse me, hurt me, embarass me, humiliate me, physically emotionally and spiritually. And I kept coming back to it - Ughhhh :yuk:
Well just like old bad relationships - Alcohol will NEVER have the privilege of taking advantage of me ever again. I am so OVER you. :bat
I'm at the point where I don't even miss it as I hate what it did to me, how it controlled me. I don't view that first buzz you get after a couple of drinks as good, I view it as disgusting because it was the AL Beast slowly sliping it's greasy slimely self around you controlling you.
When I decided to be an Abstiener for life I was nervous and fearful that I may fail yet again. However now that I look at AL in this horrible yet honest way I will not let it abuse me again.
Thanks Mario for the thread you posted yesterday, it was a gift to me as I now fully and completely have a clear view of Alcohol. I am so excited for my life. :thumbs:
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