Good morning shining jewels...
Dill, regarding relapse, I believe it is always a choice, I just do not believe we are helpless, which is the reason I have a problem with AA. I know how important it is to have a plan, to understand the HALT triggers, and to develop new habits and coping skills. Alcohol, smoking, food, they can all be addictions, we have to take control of our lives and make choices. Do we make mistakes along the way? Definitely. But we learn with each period of success.
Sped, you are so courageous, sharing your relapse, I could sense sadness and some fear of going back to the way it was. You had a great plan going, AA support (I think AA is a great program) and were feeling more confident. What did you learn from the last drinking episode? I learned that I want to feel healthy and it is poisoning me more and more as I get older. I also felt closed in over the holidays and feel happy they are over. So much pressure, so many people, so much food, booze, and just stuff. I think being AF is a skill we learn over time and I know you can do this in 2012.
Guitarista, I took time on New Year's day to read your thread and was impressed by your honesty in how hard this journey is....for me too. I am determined to use all I know and the support here to have an entirely AF 2012.
LBH, so good of you to share your journey. I could really relate to the part of loving being clear headed and AF, rather than trying to be clear when drinking. It is always such a struggle when consuming alcohol, before,during and after. I want to focus giving up the battle, surrendering to mindfulness, living in the now. I had an interesting experience, I was really frustrated yesterday and was able to just be frustrated, and in time the feelings left. It was OK, I lived through it. For so many years alcohol could just numb any uncomfortable feelings, it is hard to just detach and accept what is. Does this make any sense?
Chill, sorry your family does not understand and is not empathetic to your needs. You are right, there is no point in continuing to discuss your future plans with them. How kind of you to want to help the young woman who is struggling with alcohol, but the weather interferred.
We had over a foot of snow, and it is still coming down, but lessening now. So it begins. Hello to all, Lav, Sooty, rusty, rustop, papmom, sd, kaslo, wally, and all, have a safe and productive Tuesday.
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