monday 9 jan af daily

[bear73]

Good morning all - I am firmly back on the AF horse - and no more listening to the BS.
I feel good knowing this is behind me. I love being sober and I am going to stay that way, it's who I want to be.

I am using the SMART tools: - playing tape to the end
they're just thoughts I don't have to act on them
I have control over my body, my craving doesn't
I can't moderate/just have one
remember urges peak and subside, like waves

In case this helps anyone else.

Today I am doing the famous funding application for the team - procrastinate, me??

I am also cycling into town to pay a cheque in and off to do a food shop with a ?10 voucher I got because my shop would have been cheaper at another supermarket. Gotta love ASDA! I am on an extreme budget this month due to spending WAY too much in December, I am eating out of the freezer and cupboards and am quite enjoying the challenge. I am sticking to a much reduced food budget in Feb and limiting my online shopping, got way out of hand.Part of the sorting life out that always seems to go along with a larger period of AF time for me.

Tonight I am going to zumba with team mates - I can go to classes at my gym for free but it's partly the social aspect - and the anti depressant effect as well.

[ThreeDogNight]

monday 9 jan af daily

Good morning, Bear and all to come today.

Bear, I used to love Zumba, and was quite good at it, if I do say so myself, LOL!! Hope to get back maybe in the spring. Just hoping to join the gym my husband goes to so I can use the treadmill and bike to get my aerobic capacity back. We can get a special rate for two. I am on a budget, too--not earning any money for the first time ever isn't easy. But I don't really go anywhere to spend money, so that's good. Paying off credit card bills.
Going to meet some friends we haven't seen for a couple of months for breakfast at 8:00 before they head home. (It's their second home.) She has been an incredible support for me. Later AA-helping with the coffee--then back home.
So glad you are back on track! AL is so sneaky.

Good sober day, eveyone!

TDN

[Wally22]

monday 9 jan af daily

Good Morning Bear, 3Dog Night and all to follow
Zumba seems like so much fun. Someone also said they had a dance fit cartridge for their wii. I wish I felt more comfortable in my skin right now.

Off to weight loss clinic this morning. I know I haven't gained, but haven't lost either, time to get motivated.

I too am on a budget and living out of the freezer and cupboards. I actually love beans and soups so it's not that much of a hardship. However I do find that I am craving sweets.

Lots of work this week, so should be good income wise.
Hope everyone has a wonderful AF day.

[universal]

monday 9 jan af daily

Morning abbers!

Zooming here - busy day today - drop off daughter and then my first day of swimming! Yeah!
And then my therapist appt and a doctors appt.

I too am going lean this month in the spending department. No dinners out, all food from freezer and cubbords will be used as well. Spent too much over the holidays and still in deep debt from my treatment in the summer. Trying to get that under control so I am being very careful with my funds.

Hope everyone has a great AF day!

Love Uni

[Cinders]

monday 9 jan af daily

Hi, friends,

In so much pain today from back that it is hard to think straight but I did want to check in.

Bear, glad you got back onto the horse's back so quickly. My relapses usually end up with me going on a week long binge and the follow up detox, hallucinations, tremors, etc.

I truly believe, in my case, that the first hurdle towards recovery is the total acceptance that a drink is not an option if I want to recover.

Unfortunately, the second hurdle, for me, is the one I have had the most difficult time dealing with and that is: "My life is worth the lifetime and ongoing effort it is going to take to want to recover."

I am working very hard on that second hurdle.

I'll check in later when my pain med kicks in enough that I can think a bit better.

Hi to all, btw, and :welcome: back Greenie. You have been missed.

Love,
Cindi

[Lavande]

monday 9 jan af daily

Good morning early bird Abbers

Kind of dark/cloudy here this morning so I'm moving way too slow :H

bear, not listening to the monkey mind is the only way to succeed

TDN, uni, Wally - I always have to cut spending in Jan/Feb....worrying about heating costs keeps me on my toes & out of the stores!

Cindi, sorry about the back pain. Hope your spinal injection brings you relief this week :l

I am headed for Curves now then back here to straighten up my super-messy shop.
Wishing everyone a great AF Monday.

Welcome back greenie!!!!!

Lav

[Accountable for Me]

monday 9 jan af daily

Mornin' abbies!

Yes, living lean this month is definitely on my agenda as well. Man, although, I really tried to budget for Christmas, I ended up more than broke anyway. Living on a very restricted income at the moment doesn't help. But, oh well........ got to make the best of it anyway!

My anxiety is through the roof this morning. Don't know why. Feel kind of 'buzzed' out in the brain. Nothing is bothering me perse....... don't know what is going on. Could be just post-chemo after-effects. Gonna go and do some deep breathing and have a shower. Maybe that will help a bit.

Cindi, I hope your pain subsides.

After reading around the boards about drinking and withdrawals......... (and I have had DT's and hallucinations in the past myself after coming off of binges) I am so FRICKEN grateful, that I have committed to 100% sobriety. God, I remember those days like they were yesterday. Probably a good thing!! I am so thankful for a sober life. I wouldn't wish withdrawals on my worst enemy - ever!!

Have a fabulous day everyone!! Much love! xoxo

[sunshine_gg]

monday 9 jan af daily

Morning Fabbies!

Cindi, my sympathy... I've been horizontal and down 'n out since last Friday (hence my absence) my back hasn't been this bad in years Hope you feel better asap! :l

Guess what passed this weekend? My 90 days Very pleased.

Bear, from your post I take that you had a set back? I'm sorry but happy to see you hopped right back up. Good for you.

Have a great day, lovely folks... just wanted to check in and say I'm still here :hallo:

[Cinders]

monday 9 jan af daily

sunshine_gg;1241467 wrote: Morning Fabbies!

Cindi, my sympathy... I've been horizontal and down 'n out since last Friday (hence my absence) my back hasn't been this bad in years Hope you feel better asap! :l

Guess what passed this weekend? My 90 days Very pleased.

Bear, from your post I take that you had a set back? I'm sorry but happy to see you hopped right back up. Good for you.

Have a great day, lovely folks... just wanted to check in and say I'm still here :hallo:

GG,

I never realized how bad the pain could be. I simply cannot take hydrocodone on a long term basis due to my addictive personality. However, right now, it is the only way I can get out of bed.

I hope you feel better, soon, too. :l

Love,
Cindi

[LVT25]

monday 9 jan af daily

Hello friends,

Quickie check in for me. Not much going on here and that is ok.

Congratulations on 90 days Sunshine!!! So sorry your back went out on you--esp when you were planning a fun weekend with peanut!

I'm sorry you are in such pain too, Cindi. Thanks for posting here again--I always look forward to hearing from you.

Hi Lav, AFM, Bear, Uni, Wally, 3DN--good to see IJM check in. And hello to all that stop by today!

We managed to take the monster tree down and get some of the decorations put away. The boys were a big help and I told them so--it always seems like such a chore to deal with that job. I do enjoy cleaning up and rearranging a little afterwards though.

I am getting a head cold--I guess that explains the fatigue and general yuck feeling lately. I am loading up on Elderberry and Vit C. Gotta keep moving. One of these days I really, really need to get an exercise routine!!!

My BIL (Terry's husband) is starting to talk about selling stuff. Like the family farm and home that he and Terry bought after my folks passed away, and my dad's 1939 Ford. He isn't ready to get rid of any of her personal things, but he has a "special friend" that seems to be pretty important in his decisions. He spends a lot of time at her place (400 miles away) and I think it is because it is easier than being home with all of the memories. I don't want him to be sad and lonely his whole life, but I don't want him to rush into anything either. I am seeing an attorney this week to find out where I stand with the land Terry and I owned together.

Ok, I said this would be quick--so I am going to start my day--later I take my son to the DMV.

Gave a great sober day/week all!:h

[spacebebe01]

monday 9 jan af daily

Quick check in to say am still AF hope to have more to say tomorrow

[Lavande]

monday 9 jan af daily

It's snowing south of me - in DC & Virginia but supposedly not moving this way!
It is very cold outside though - just came in from my almost daily chicken chase
Maxie caught up with the chicken before I did so I had to pry her out of Maxie's mouth - yuck. That stupid bird will just do it all over again tomorrow ~ sigh.

Sunni, sorry about your back pain too. How did your weekend go with peanut?

LVT, teaching the kids to drive ended up being my job because my husband (the cop) didn't have the fortitude to do the job :H
Both kids were required to take the driver ed course at school (classroom & driving portion) but I was the one who took them out for practice & finally for their driver's test It was quite a time, so glad I got through all that - you will too

Hi uni, AFM, spacebebe & everyone!

I did get some serious straightening up done today. Need to keep going though & not get complacent (which is easy to do).

[Turnagain]

monday 9 jan af daily

Hi all...a quick driveby to check in here.

Sooooo happy all is going well on the AF front for folks....and SUNNI - whoo hooooooooo

90 AF days....girlie....you are our sunshine!

Okay back to the project hole....writing is so much easier with a clear head and healthy AF body!

xxx

oh geez....pardon my xmas decor...it's going to be a few weeks until I can put it 'away'!

[greeneyes]

monday 9 jan af daily

OK here goes.... I better not loose this one (condensed, caffeine free version).

Sunnybutt!! WOOP WOOP on 90 days!! How's the barn - finished?

Lav, having fun on the ipad? hummmm??? YB still being normalish?

Turn is your wrist OK with your mega writing project?

LVT, have you marketed your bath salts yet?

Kas, you must be cranking out the papers or you are in semi-hibernation (look who's talking, right? :H)

Det, Oh man... I hope with all my heart that the sale of your home is a door of opportunity for something better that otherwise could not happen. Your attitude rocks. sorry to hear about Dx loosing her job. I didn't know that had happened.

AFM, you still rock all over the place.

Spacebebe, good to see you here! There is a LOT to be said about getting up, showering and dressing to go somewhere even if you're not. Go ahead and do it as part of a regular routine - it'll help.

TDN, I'm glad to see you back! Thinking about you and doggie.

Dr. M3, where you at?

P3, sorry you are sickly. The smoothie was a great idea. How's the work for your brother turning out?

Uni, I think a crock pot is a good money saver. Seems to stretch things some how.

DG, back to the grind already? Turks & Caicos, wow!

Marshy great trip! Loved the pics and especially the water ones - reminds me of Guelin, China.

IJM good to know you're AF & busy, piano man!

Who was it that mentioned a pajama day? TDN? They should be a monthly mandatory thing.

bear - day ones suck. Hate it for you. Glad you jumped right back on the wagon because running along behind it sucks too.

Cindi, I'm so sorry about your back pain. Smart observation about the painkillers. At one time I got the impression you were working again. Are you doing any consulting or are you still not working (in general, not just at the moment).

Wally you're hanging in here pretty good. What sort of busy week are you having?

Did I remember everyone???

so today I sat down at a table for a meeting and guy says want something to drink? Water, tea, beer? I opened my mouth to say yes to the beer. It hung open in shock as I realized what was happening and he said oh right, you don't drink anymore. I shut it but I honestly was stunned. My automatic response truly was Yeah! A beer! It really rattled me for a minute or two. I was tired and thirsty and feeling slightly stressed. HALT anyone?

Then I was somewhere else and was invited to dinner. Wife is alcoholic and we shared some drinking stories like hidden bottles, AM drinking, not bothering with mixer, then ice then glass... that sort of stuff. I think she's still engaged with it a bit, and we know where that leads. I'll call her in a day or two.

Still can't get over the beer thing.

I got a groupon sort of thing for a month unlimited yoga classes at the studio near the shop. $25. What a deal! Yay! Because I'm on the budget plan too. Drug out the crock pot and inventoried the cupboard & freezer.

Turn I really like your bling - I'm glad you'll keep it a while longer

Yawn.. gotta jump into bed. Be well.