Saturday January 10th

[lorisunshine]

Saturday January 10th

Hi all,
have been trying to get on this site on and off all day. I couldn't get to the forums. Well, it is finally fixed. My gosh, I was almost panicking. Had to work all day and found it very hard to stay on the straight and narrow today and it is my day 7. I remember back in July, day 7 seemed to be bad too. Why is that?
Kathy, here come my bestest of vibes to you. Remember you are not a machine, you are our wonderful Kathy. I am not taking anything, I am simply afraid to begin depending on something else. All that dosing up and dosing down just gives me a headache. I guess my way is called "whiteknuckling" arrrrrrrrgh. Kathy, try to go for a walk, even if it is raining. Let the water pour down your face. If it is not raining, take a nice smelly bath. There is something about water, that is so soothing and cleansing.
One of my triggers is, if the job is throwing me a glitch then I want to head to the liquor cabinet. Well I did not. I am thinking about all of you. Send me your vibes too, I'll be needing them over the next few days.
Love to all,
Lori.

[taylormaid]

Saturday January 10th

hopefully,tomorrow will be day one!

Lisa & Mike,
you are an inspiration, thank-you.
I am tired of saying tomorrow I wont have a drink,tomorrow never comes!
Your messages give me hope, I know that the odd day I am drink free I feel a million dollars and waking up the following morning without the awfull guilt feeling ( not to mention hangover ) is better than winning the lotto.
Have a great day everyone:thanks:

[taylormaid]

Saturday January 10th

my best wishes are with Kathy & Kizzie,its hard...but you people give me hope

[Mackeral]

Saturday January 10th

Your not wrong Taylormaid.....Living without the guilt is one of the better perks..

[Newyear]

Saturday January 10th

hi Taylor-very glad you are here.
thinking of the 'morning after not drinking' always kept me going. I visualized getting up in the morning and making coffee and feeling good and having a clear head. Then I would think - don't you really want that? I sometimes had to visualize it several times but it usually worked.
This is such a mental battle! Best of luck to you. You can do this.
Lisa

[taylormaid]

Saturday January 10th

yes Lisa,your so right,over the last few months I've realised how awful it is trying to get through the day after " the night before" hiding how bad I feel from everyone, trying to live up to my responsibility's, when I just want to crawl under the duvet. Life is so much better sober, I suppose the fact that I've reached this conclusion is a step forward

[Newyear]

Saturday January 10th

Huge step forward....the rest is just figuring out how to work on it! You are doing well to be here and to start on this - really. This is not easy stuff.
Lisa

[taylormaid]

Saturday January 10th

You are so right...this is DEFINITLY not easy...anyway, thanks for the encouragement..hope to talk with you tomorrow

[vinophile]

Saturday January 10th

Hi All,
Very late post as my only quick visit today was when the forum was not accessible.
Day 7 today. Not a strong day 7 but a very shaky and tenuous day 7. I felt a lot of ambivalence about being abs this weekend and that shook me. Thankfully a nasty cold really saved me as far as the drinking was concerned and hopefully the upcoming week will better.
So many of you have such positive outlooks right now and that is really helpful.
I wanted to address everyone but will try in the morning when I'm sure this post will take. (I wrote a long one before and it went poof!!!)

Kathy, it's so reassuring to see your avatar. I'm sending all the best vibes your way.

Night All.

Janet

[YoungAtHeart]

Saturday January 10th

I just noticed that this thread is officially titled January 10th! I had to laugh at that!

Thank you all for your kind words; they really help a lot. While I still feel a bit down, at least I don't feel like a fraud! It was a great relief to post the truth. This weekend wasn't so great with the drinking--too much unstructured time and a bunch of case notes to catch up upon--ugh!!! New Year's resolution is too keep up and not get behind!:fingers:

I want to get Allen Carr's book, because despite what my brain "knows", I feel scared of stopping again, which is so crazy!

My sister will be going back to New York for a temporary work assignment of several weeks, and I think I am going to take that opportunity to refocus on me and start abs again. Although I'll miss her, I'll have fewer distractions. I'm also going to purchase yarn to begin a knitting project to keep my hands and mind busy. So I am getting things in order. Still scared though....but it will only get worse the longer I put it off.

Again, I want to thank everyone for their love and support. It means so much to me.

Much love,
Kathy:h

[Popeye]

Saturday January 10th

Hi Kathy
I got mixed up posting the thread. 6th of January, Day 10. I am a silly boy.......

[lagojohn]

Saturday January 10th

paulb wrote: Good Morning All.
January 6th.........sorry

Day 10 for me today. I thought I'd start the ball rolling as I'm going out for the day and won't have access to a comp most of the day. Yesterday was a breeze for me. I feel good about today too. Weemelon, I loved your 'house' analogy in the 'chicken and egg' thread. I think that my rusty sickle is starting to get sharper, though there are still a lot of weeds on the floor...
I hope that eveyone is well and up for whatever challenges today might bring. I know I am.
I'll catch up with you all tonight

I am on day 63, thanks to willpower, campral, exercise, and additives, all covered in MWO book. Keep it up and good luck