AF Daily~Monday, February 13

[ThreeDogNight]

Good morning, Abbers!
Have the coffee ready, as usual. Quick check in, as I have to get ready and be at flower shop by 9:00, then hubby comes at 11:45 and we head to attorney's office. Court at 1:00, but I'm told the judge is usually late, and I don't know where I am in the queue. Then back to shop. Tomorrow will probably be an 8:00 until 6:00 day and it will be chaotic. Trying now to figure out what to wear and how to stay clean until court! Will wear an apron, I guess!
Glad to see you back, Det! Sounds like quite the week ahead!
Have a great AF day, all!

TDN

[Lavande]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

Good morning Abbers!

TDN, wishing you the best today. You know we are all with you in spirit

Det - good to see you checked in last night - we were getting a bit concerned. Busy is good as it usually keep us out of trouble

Going to Curves now to get my day started on the right foot (missed going Friday due to having company here). Wishing everyone a great AF Monday!!

Lav

[greeneyes]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

FABBIES!!

Hope everything turns out for the best today, TDN. I hope the judge doesn't hear us munching popcorn in the back of the courtroom.

Good to see you det! Hey lav & all to come.

Racing off for the day - got a 10 AM appt and go from there. But! I have a lunch with a friend squeezed in at a new place that I'm looking forward to trying out. I hope to et back in time to get down to the river. I did go yesterday and it was wet but nice. I guess they really cranked it up (the river level from dam release) because of the electricity used for the cold wave. I had to redirect in some places because the water level left flooded areas on the trails.

One thing's for sure!

[Raven.joy]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

its a drab grey day in Bath and I am off work using holiday up and decorating havin recently returned to the site it seems people do come and go. For a while I felt 'cured' or fixed, a year sober and no inclination to drink. Recently I have been thinking about drinking again and have come back I came looking for the what I hate fear and loathe about alcohol thread but instead found so many familiar names and faces like arm of my family I had lost touch with and its good to be back. Glad everyone is mainly well. I hope we are all planning nice things for our better halves tomorrow.

[bear73]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

hey all - i've been wrestling with 'do i don't i drink' - still wrestling with it tbh.

The way i see it i can either - wait until rock bottom/really bad consequences and hope that i can stop/am not severely ill - or i can carry on with not being 100% certain/a bit of me wanting to drink and focus on what i want from life and being alcohol free.

i know not drinking is the best way for me and this site is a huge help with that - i was fed up of lapsing/posting about it and feeling stuck.felt like that anyway - poss for longer than if i'd been here.

[Turnagain]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

Greetings to all in AB~land...

TDN - you have been a pillar of positivity....I have a lot of respect and admiration for the way you have been dealing with all that is in front of you. If possible, can you post again today to let us know the outcome of court?

Lav - are you still getting good egg sales at Curves? What a triple bonus! You get a good workout...make a little cha-ching...and help make your workout friends healthier!

Greenie - I was reading your post...wondering (at first)...is she SWIMMING or RUNNING? LOL. I am laughing at myself. Yes...the river is wet! I am so glad you're posting regularly again....

Raven - I'm glad you found your way here! How much fun to find a few old friends and have the chance to make new friends who are also successfully - and joyfully - living their lives free of addiction.

I am returning to normal life - getting ready to head out for a couple weeks to warmer climes. There's a lot to catch up with. It appears that our grant amendment appeal is not going anywhere. A friend gave me some good advice: Mourn the loss and move on. I'm not a praying person, but I sure hope that the aging professor we need for this project will have continued good health. I sure am learning a lot about dealing with situations that involve elements that I have no control over.

I'm working on the attitude of gratitude. Right now...I'm grateful that all of you are in my life and I've got a warm pug on my lap. This moment is really good.

[Turnagain]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

Hi Bear! Just had an xpost with you...

I'm glad you're back! I hope you get back into posting here on a regular basis. We sure have missed you. Even though it feels like you are wrestling with the 'drink or not to drink' question...it sure sounds to me like you're getting close to making a really good decision in your life.

When I first found MWO, I thought - alright - I've just got a bad habit and once I get it under control I can drink 'normally' again. I realize now, I wasn't being honest with myself. Sure, I DID enjoy a great Malbec and the taste of a finely crafted microbrew, but what I REALLY wanted - and then NEEDED - was the buzz. To me, it doesn't matter whether I was born this way or became this way...the fact that I AM this way is what I have to deal with. ANY amount of alcohol is bad news in this body. What made a difference for me this time, was finally ACCEPTING that.

Completely - without question.

It was the most liberating decision I have ever made in my life. I sure wasn't expecting that! I have modeled this new way of living on the successes of others I have been fortunate to meet here. One of the most important lessons: focus on what you GET from living AF....not what is being 'given up'.

Unless you want to look at it like this....the only thing you give up by giving up drinking is screwed up innards, self-loathing, anxiety, depression, pre-mature aging and an expensive addiction.

As for what I've gotten...so far, after nearly 7 months, my body has done some amazing healing. The weight has started to just fall off - I think my pancreas is thanking me now that it now longer has to pump out crazy quantities of insulin to counter the massive intake of alcohol sugar. My blood pressure is way down, along with blood sugar levels. My energy is up, my skin is glowing and the depression and anxiety have disappeared. I deal with daily inconveniences without stress and I deal with real disappointments without disappearing into a bottle.

Bear, there are several of us who describe AF living as being on 'the other side.' It is a whole new world here, my only regret is that I didn't find it earlier. I hope you can get here, too - sooner than later.

[Kaslo]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

Hi Fabeens. Bear, wow, have YOU been missed. I used to look forward to reading your posts every day. However I completely understand how you didnt want to struggle with failures publically. I am sure glad youve posted. Raven, those of us who are relatively new, including me, are in awe of you and others who still seem able to learn and absorbe, and be uncluttered in your thinking about Al relapse. I admire the freindship that you find here, too.

Turn nice to see you here. Love the idea of a pug in the lap too.

Greenie my river is regulated with a dam as well, its a strange feeling knowing there is a zillion megawatts of water up above my head 6 miles to the northwest.

TDN, let us know how you did. Hoping for the best for you.

I read today in some journal of medicine that 90 percent of all abstainers fail and relapse at least once in the first 4 years following quitting. Thats an astonishingly high number, and it makes me wonder how the 10 percent managed. Was it because they simply did not have the severity of addiction that others have?? And why would 90 percent fail at least once? I believe it just seems so hard to rationalize.. Why is AL relapse so insidious? I forget who started the thread but one of us said they wanted to provide councilling services for post withdrawal living life just plain sober existence folks, because there is lots of help for the first few months, but not for the long term abstinence folks. I so totally get that.

So I guess the list of bad outweighs any goods by far. I love Sunnies question too, so ima go answer that one asap.

I spent the better part of the morning answering the email from the client (who has been absent for year travelling in South American), where I am being accused of shirking my duties, cheating them out of work I was supposed to do, etc. All because she doesnt realize some changes were made to the project in her absence, and approved by her temporary replacement. I was methodical, made measured sounding suggestions for improvement on how I might make my self clear and explained how I actually did do what she thinks I did not do. If you get my drift. And I refrained from suggesting that she stick the report where her mommy never kissed her...

One thing is DEFINITELY for sure.

Love, Kaslo of the half melting snow.

[Lavande]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

:H Kaslo!
Sometimes don't you really just want to tell someone in plain English to Feck Off? :H

Turn, you sound so good
I'm happy for you, glad you are reaping the benefits of AF-ness!

bear, we're still here & I'm pretty sure that won't change.
So if you decide to join us, we're happy to have you back

Raven, I will be celebrating my 3 year AF anni next month. I don't think I will ever feel cured or fixed - I'm afraid the next step would be complacency & that could very well be dangerous.
I'm happy, healthy & grateful to come back here each & every day!

I am celebrating 1000 smoke free days today - woo hoo!!!

[sunshine_gg]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

I am celebrating 1000 smoke free days today - woo hoo!!!

Congratulations, Lav of the tude!!!!
Wow... that's one I totally haven't managed yet. I'm truly in awe of you.

TDN, check in and let us know how things went and how you are doing, ok?
Bear, good to 'see' you. I get why you left but I have found in the past that the longer I stay away, the longer it takes to get back to sanity.
Turnip! I'm really sorry about the grant. Love the way you are coping with the news, though. Life cannot be all bad with a pug in your lap, eh?
Kaslo of the HMS.. heroin, huh? :H Funny thing.. I never tried any hard drugs, never even smoked a doobie.. for fear of becoming addicted. And got done in by the rotten grape juice. Go figure.
Raven, very nice to 'meet' you... it's long term successes like yours that shine a ray of hope on us lower minions. So, thank you for being here.
Did I smell a hint of garlic around here? Did Det poke his nose in?

Hello to the green queen and a hearty 'DING' to DG.. time to turn over, dear!

Have a great rest of the day while one thing is for sure...

[Lavande]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

That's OK Sunni ~ doobies & grannies don't mix :H :H
There was absolutley no getting away from the stuff in the early 70's. I remember walking thru the parking lot at my college, breathing quite deeply & have a nice ride home
Ah, those were the days :H

[Determinator]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

Happy un-hung Monday Aberooos!

got into my hotel early so that's nice. a snowy ride over the Sierras but managed to NOT slide off the road today. d-oh!

Raven.Joy it's been ages, good to see you here as a safety measure and not being lured by the sirens song.

well, I'm off to an early dinner then hope to catch some of you lot on chat.

be well!

[Turnagain]

AF Daily~Monday, February 13

Hey Deter!

Sunni was sure she smelled garlic! Glad you're not dining with the Donner Party tonight! I plan on being in chat tonight!

OMG! Every sentence had an exclamation! Someone stop me!!!